Ter. .

I've received about half a dozen emails from her over the past few days and don't think much has changed. Her health seems to be the same and most of her worries have been about Frank. Her emails for the most part have been forwarded jokes or inspirational messages, nothing to get alarmed over, thank goodness.

ok its late, and i wanted to change my avitar with me and my sweet mom, yea she is a cutie pie....I had ordered some Avon and they gave me a sample of wrinkle cream, lucky me i don't have any YET...but mom said "oh good, I'll give this a try and see what it does", smirk....

mom went friday her group there who wanted to, on an other like last year to a special olympics, at a rest home across town, all the resthomes, choose those who want to participate and they have all kinds of activities, like plasitic bowling, frizbee,  volley ball with beach ball and net, all pts are in w.chairs and they they gave out medals, and Ruby moms good friend got the gold, and she is 99 years young, those people have such a will to go and go, makes me so proud of her, then they served them all lunch...most went on busses, but the one bus who were to take moms home chickened out so the activities director decided after trying manyh other places, to heck with it, were taking a limo, first limo ride for Ruby and most others..and the director had someone with a van and she packed all the w.chairs in it..it was a fulll day and lots of fun....I am very bleslsed to know mom is well taken care of where she is and only 1-2 miles from home here...and raises her hand for any activity, as a few months ago mom found a computer, oy vey, no one else knew about it so we showed her as all they have is games, now every patient wants to play.....what charachters...

Ill get to me some other day, just wanted you guys to know about mom and see her.

hugs

Ter

Hey Ter,

Just saying hi!

Flash

hi you sweet gals,

i know im not on here too much.  Its been a rough couple weeks or so as I have found 4 pretty new lumps under my first masct arm.  one is like 2inches and the others like marble size, in the back area...yea i was shocked too, and it really is stressing me out more than ever...and they hurt, i dont want to sound like a winer  but even my chest on the right side, like when i try to put lotion on, hurts badly, and i dont think it should, its like a bruise and i havent done anything to it.....I just screw up my foot more and more....

has anyone ever found out that their disc in their back have mets?  as these 3 hernitated ones are killers, and i pray there is no cancer in there, yet my onc doesnt want me to call or see him if im in pain.....almsot at the point of never going back to that place or any doctor, as yea im so sick of being sick, and dont want to sound like a baby, but too much to handle..

i wish this could of been a better post, maybe next time, as its mondaay oct 1st at 11:21pm...and remember november this year we are passing it up, at least i am as i dont think i can handle any more.

lots of hugs

ter

hi everyone,

i wasnt planning on being on comp today, as its Sunday and we went to see mom today, she was so happy to see us, as last nite I think it was last nite, anyway, i felt so bad as sometimes its hard to bring up a conversation w/her due to there is really nothing "new" happening here, except anything medical, and i know and understand she is so tired of hearing about sickness's, and i cant blame her, as for so many years like 25 when her mom, my grandma, they lived next door to us, yes the same house im in now, but she was i'll and aournd age 60 something she had to have her leg amputated and grandpa he never complained as grandma was his life, they were married 63 years, and during that time when she got sick then the leg went, mom was working full time as usual adn retired at age 70, as an estimator in a plumbing co. yes very brilliant...but shes had prob w/eyes caterats etd, but has had some surg etc adn past year or less it seem to have gotten better, til this last appt the other day, which i forgot she had, made me feel like it was just "me me me" and i feel so bad, and then she said, well remember i saw the eye dr today?  oh SH!!, talk about feeling bad...well her tone in her voice was not as cheerful as could be..anyway mom has always been the rock in the family and had the widest shoulders to listen to evreyone, and now her she is and need wide shoulder to listen to her, adn im here and dont get there too often due to my health, and being i dont drive i rely on dh, which he was suppose to for past 3 months do nothing but rest, and part of it is "men" in general, how can anyone here say their dh's the ones that do do things, can slow down and rest alot....and just too many repairs around house.....but anyway found out mom is going blind, just put a knot in my gut, adn felt guilty telling her things....as some she has heard and she wants to know things, and overall i know she wants to hear that for one day things are good...damn its hard to lie..and she knows i call her everynite to say goodnite and chat just a bit, adn sometimes I'll just say, nothing new here, as she is not a phone person what so ever....but she wants to know what is goign on with me, and with so many things wrong, she wants to hear good things from me about my health, I do too, but been keeping my mouth shut, as not being mean but I too like to hear good news from people, like being around downers all the time just is not good, adn im sure even you guys are sick of me telling you my issues etc....

Then not wanting to be on line today, i had to make up my list as general as i have a file in here of all the papers i have made of ?s that i want to ask the doctors, adn leave a space for answers, so thats why i came on here tonite to write ...and its going to be with a totaly diff PA who does not know me, adn so far i dont have good vibes and dont want to go over all the stuff that has happened...she should look thru the chart, but down there who ive seen just doesnt look back unleass i tell them they are wrong about a date or what ever, they hate to be wrong...so i got my list ready...from I want a biopsy of this armpit thing and from their and my right side of chest which all you feel on both sides but the right side and under the arm itches like crazzy, and doesnt stop, no rash, and i thought maybe when things heal they itch, but this i dont know.....

just wanted to let you know what is goign on, and please think of me around 8-9am that i hear my clock as i have it on blaring so i can get to my appt at 11;00am....as too many time i dont get up in time ..i did a bath tonite so i can skip it tomorrorw and just wash face and get dressed and dh takes forever as just him putting shoes and socks on are a 1/2 hr to do s and the remainder of things he does to get ready...

well i hope all you guys have a good day and good week, and i'll be thinking of al of you.....as i dont even mention me looking on line for info to the doc as they just dont like that....ai do as i dont know and want to know more and more...

so see ya all later, and yes i did just a tad on one of my SBs this morning, n' it looks good , not much but enough to make me a bit further into ita, as i also am doing one for mom a SMALLER  one of 8x8 n' ripped off my moms albumbs of me and her n my sis, as athese are for them when i am gone, so hearing BOUT MOMS eyes im gonna have to write bigger, which is fine...

hugs

Ter

Hi Ter,



Just wanted to let you know we're thinking of you. Hope your visit with the P.A. went o.k., and that you'll post back should you wish with an update.



Miss you,

Tender

It's ok, Ter, we understand the need to post when the spirit moves us.



Sorry once again the oncology office let you down and for your troubles.



Please write if and when you feel up to it.



We're thinking of you Ter,. Your sisters and brothers, and me. Be strong, there's a better doctor group out there for you somewhere.



Tender

hi you guys

its almsot 1am, very tired,my sis and her dh were here almost a week and was up for 3 days very early as i did want tovisit them, but did notleave the house, oh yes one day Itook them out to lunch as they always pay, and I finally got to pick up the tab..made me feel good...

really rested, even if i was on the sofa, and a cousin of mine on OK he is 40 and his wife were traveling and wanted to come and see my mom and moms sis "his aunts", plus they came by tovisit  me, oh it was great, he looked good and really didnt know her as they were here one other time LONG ago and this time we all got to talk and she took pictures etc....

ohyes, i cooked dinner last nite, wasnt hard most of it was from my frozen food people and stired fried carrotts, yummmm in olive oil with garlic, the kind in a jar and pepper, oy they were good, and even my son "happend to" drop by during dinner time...he seems to be so hungry as living with 3 other guys if he buys food to cook, they eat it up before he gets to it, so he eats lots of fast food....

OH I go in this Thurs in 2 days for US on both arm pitts, mainly the R one as that nurse I saw a week or so ago, she said she didnt feel lumps....wrong...as then i saw the week following and saw my dr steve "internist" and he felt them and lots of swelling....so i will go as I dont like US's as they dont seem to work on me well.

Plus i still gotta have an appt to have my foot put in cast so they can make a bigger brace for my foot as it has not healed...I just hate making dr appts....they take the energy out of me...

I wrote something under the mets section, it was long so you might want to go there..

and I hate this new format, as I dont have a thing that shows my favorite sites I go to, if you can help me get there and find it in "MY area, please help....as it was there now i just cant find it..

Luanne, I know i owe you a call, i havnet forgotten, but with my sis here and all that, as she runs like a wild woman here and there and tries to help and see everyone...but for the holidays as she is always down here before xmas she sends her santa suit etc and she plays santa at my moms place, its a big ordeal etc..but she said NO santa this year, as we are taking off, even from our family up there, as so many issues up there, and they just decided to take off, as they rented a place for a week and they do what they say, "nothing", she gets caught up on reading and her dh rest and fishes.....she is ready for retirement badly, she said 2 years 3 months and so many days...she owns and self employed a industrial supply co..works out of her truck and takes orders and delivers and makes band saw blades as she is a distributor for this very lg co......plus she has a co doing fire extinguishers, checking monthly and doing what needs to be done...as she said she just cant keep climbing those ladders etc anymore...she does her own books, and does everything, and now her dh who has been a big help, he is the one welding instead of her due to a shoulder problem from making them....they havent even had their 2nd annivisary, as she lost her last dh to cancer of the upper stomach and lower esphagus about 10 years ago and her dh, lost his wife of 30 some years to cancer....kind of a cute love story, as they met at a beareavement classes..and had lots of cups of coffee, only 1 real date, as they are both so busy with things around the house, he makes replicas of like 1 millionth of a fraction screws, and springs, he had learned to make, as he last project was a mini bale hauler....he loves it, and has such a shop, and mathmatically so intelligent....so he spend time doing that while she works as he has been retired from 3 jobs and now this last one was it..so she cant wait til she retires.

well thats enough gabbing, as im tired and frank just brought me some Oj...as these new meds  Cymbalta make my mouth so so dry, but no bad side effects and 2 days ago I upped per my doc to the next higher does, they are antidepresents, BUT they have done tons of researh on them and they help with fibromyalgia also, and I do feel a tiny bit of change, and i still stay on my lexapro but mainly this new one that i was so scarred to take I didnt, and told my internist I didnt and gave them back, then he said he wanted me to due to the fibro help.  so yes I kept them and am using them.....he said also that I am filled with fear, like in taking meds, and angry due to so many things attacking me, thats where i hope this therapy might help.

love and hugs to all you sweeties..

Ter

Way to go, Ter. It takes a lot of energy and courage to do these things, but it often gives a lot in return.



I'll read your other post too.



Just wanted you to know I've been thinking of you...



Tender

Happy Halloween Ter!!!! I'm thinking of you today and good luck at your appointment! I will pray that all goes well! Love- Dunner

Hi Kat, Please let Our sweet Ter Know My Prayer are with

the whole family! She already knows that, But like to remind

Her how much I LOVE Her. I know what You are saying about

finding things here, if it is hard for us, can You Imagine

how hard it is for sweet Ter? Please PM me if she needs anything

at all, I Will always be here for My Ter!

xoxoxoxo Puppy

{{{{TER}}}}

I Miss You Lady!

Tell Frank and Blake, and Mom, Puppy said Hi!

Hope You are doing Good, Praying for You Sis, Love You!

Puppy

Hi Ter:



Sending lots of healing

hugs and bright light for you



I did get your PM.. but hotmail

does not let me respond at present



(((((Ter)))))))





Sierra

{{{Binney}}} Please PM Ter. I know she is looking for a new Onc.

Heck a Decent Onc. God Bless You for this!!!!!

xoxox Puppy



HI Ter. hope You are going to have a wonderful Thanksgiving with Frank

Blake, and Mom, and well Everyone!!!!!!

Puppy