I can't get my act together and I don't know why

patrice, I'm so glad you heard from your son and that he's ok.  What an adventure he's having! 

I can tell you are having a very difficult time.  Someone once said to me "you can only move as fast as the slowest part of you can go."  I know how distressing it can be to feel like a slug so much of the time.  Yet, that's where we have to be as we recover from this devasting illness.  At least for a while.  

I was so certain I was finally kicking my fatigue to the curb last month.  I was picking up steam, got my office decluttered.  I was so certain things would be SO much better once my office decluttering was done.  Well, I went right back to feeling fatigued!  This is my reward for all that hard work??  grrrrr  Then I realized I had slacked off on taking the magnesium supplements I started in August.  If I'm suddenly able to get some things off my to do list this week, I'll come back here and let you know.  There was a really good article somewhere about how a magnesium deficiency can actually make us feel depressed. 

I wanted to bump this thread because I enjoyed reading it so much when I was still too....whatever I was.....to post.  I still can't get my act together...and I don't know why.  *sigh*

Glad to see this thread again - it seems we keep losing some of our favorite threads!

Yeah Shel...I hear ya.... I have isolated myself so much that I don't know many people anymore but the ones I do don't ask how I am doing so I just plod on and keep on keepin' on like you do.  Maybe that makes me stronger but I have found that often I feel like I am in a fog...like I'm numb or something.  Just haven't got the energy to react often BUT when I do it's pretty dramatic

my3girls, you're normal...LOL  What's normal?

Patrice, my dinning room table has boxes on it.  Stuff that was my FIL's that I need to get rid of OR keep.  He had these old home movies and put them on tapes.  They're not very good, but I need to go through those or throw them out.  I can't.  My kids would probably like them.  So, my "intention" is having those old 8 mm (is that what they're called?) put on discs for my kids.

Good luck on getting a little organized so you can fix Thanksgiving dinner.  However, it's SO much easier just going out...no cleaning up afterwards.  You know after you eat turkey that it makes you sleepy.

Shirley

None of this seems real like it isn't happening to me.  Tha gal who talked about the fog is so right. I should be going on with my life but I'm disconnected to life. I was at that club where they used to be real nice on here because I read alot. They say they welcome everyone but I was made fun of and they didn't believe me. They said next time to be from the North and not be country? I posted on this thread a little the other night but I have been mostly a reader. I am struggling just like everyone else is. I feel that same fog and my husband isn't understanding. I don't have anyone. Thank you.

Mary Pet

Love this thread.

You girls make me laugh.

While I cry.

Yet, I'm sleeping, I think.  It's a dream, right?

Wish I could wake up.

We're all crazy together!! 

Now...if I could just find my F#$%ing ruby red slippers!

Hey Patrice - I finally got the nerve to talk to my PCP about an antidepressant.  When he came in the operatory, he commented on how great I looked and I must be feeling better.  I had decided that night to ask for some kind of help because I couldn't stand feeling the way I did any longer.  Anyway..he gave me a sample of effexor and I started taking it that night.  It has really helped.  I still am not my old self - and maybe I never will be - but at least I am able to function better.  I actually have started cleaning my house again and have been able to rekindle some old interests.  I explained to my GP how embarrassed I was about not being able to handle life and he was totally understanding.  He said to me that I never had to take tamoxifen before, but my health and body have changed, so taking a mood enhancer is just another step in healing.  Going through BC is physically draining and also emotionally challenging.  I finally had to admit that I owed it to my family to try to feel better, and I also owed it to myself.  We have all fought very hard to get through tmt, now we have to do whatever it takes to find something to make us feel better.  I have also joined a support group for people in tmt and people finished with tmt.  It really helps to just hear that the feelings I'm having are not unusual.  I have made some wonderful friends and have started to finally feel better about myself and have hope that things will gradually improve.  I have terrific friends, but unless you have experienced cancer, you can't understand the aftermath.  Sharing with people who understand, really helps.   THis is much longer than I intended, but I really feel for you and totally understand how you are feeling.  I hope things get better for you soon. - Sandy 

dont worry gsg...I dont take it personally.  I do like my house clean, and I keep up on it in between cleanings.  But everyone is different.  I do understand the fog part.  I have to say ladies, and I hope I don't offend anyone...but the one thing that has helped me keep a positive attitude, and work through the thoughts, is prayer. I know it may sound cliche..but I find the days I take the time to speak to Him, my day is so much richer, and I feel as thought I can cope!

I don't want to preach, by any means, it is just what helps me, and I wanted to share it with you.  I wish all the best to everyone.