YAY! I did it!!!

I had gained more than 26 lb's since dx. Decadron was the first thing that made me fat. I did 2 sets of 12 weekly Taxol (before and after surgery) and had to take Decadron every time I went in. When I finally "graduated" from chemo, I had to start Tamoxifen and Lupron shot. Both of them only helped me gain more weight. I couldn't even look at myself in a mirror without having tears in my eyes. I bet anyone who saw me thought I was pregnant. In fact, I had a few people ask me if I was. I had never been a "hot gal" in my entire life but never been as ugly as I was at that time. I stopped buying clothes as I didn't think I would look any better no matter what I wore.

  
I did try to lose weight. I started watching what I was eating. I made every effort to eat healthy good food with less fat but I still continued to gain weight. I completely lost hope and was almost feeling abandond. That was about 4 months ago, just before summer.

  
This past summer was unusually hot in my part of the world. The heat drove everyone nuts. But one day in the mid July, we had a very cool evening. I felt so refreshing and thought I should walk to home from work instead of driving. That was the start. My work is about 2 miles away from where I live and I have been walking each way since then. Before I changed the way how I commuted to work, I drove all the time except when I got out of my apartment to get to my car, which only took a couple of seconds. Everyone called me crazy for starting to commute by walk in the mid summer and told me that it was the worst time to do so. I knew that but didn't quit. I don't really know why but guess I just didn't want them to think I was a wuss. It wasn't an easy job at all as I had to work overtime at least till past ten at night almost everyday. But I did it and am still doing. Now it's much cooler so I have also started doing a bit of exercise since a couple of weeks ago. That's a 20 minutes abdominal workout created by Charlene Johnson, which I got a dvd from a friend. I do this twice a day, before lunch and dinner. Believe it or not, I hadn't done any exercise since I finished school so if I can do this, I bet everybody can. Actually it's not as hard as I thought it would be.

  
Today, finally I checked my weight. Yes I DID it! I have lost 13 lbs so far since this past July!!! You'll never know how good I feel. I am so glad I lost those extra pounds and am very proud myself for that.

So don't you ladies ever give up. There indeed is hope!

Hugs,

Fumi