TIME TO CIRCLE THE WAGONS GIRLS

good morning family.....

the sun is out and a warm fall day here...so

I'll cook today...slow roasted beef, sliced for sandwiches, gravy if you like....corn and some pumpkin bars...unloaded some wood for the fire and taking down the jackets for cooler weather starting...

hugs A to Z come to the circle for warmth and love

MB

Good Morning all.  so sorry to hear about Raven.  i do not know her but regardless it doesnt matter.  Lung mets really hits home since that is what I have now.  I am thinking of her and her entire family.  Damn this disease.

Cheri-hope you are on your way now.  You two be careful and crossing my fingers for good xrays.

MB-Lunch sounds wonderful.  i cant wait.  Hot open faced roast beef.  mmmm.  Better skip the corn and this chemo is already doing a number on me and corn might not be good if you know what i mean.

 Cooler weather you say?  Where? point me in that direction.

odalys-so sorry about your friend.  Its just not right is it?

Cheryl-be careful on your trip.  Have fun.

WildJan-nice post.

Marsha-thinking of you.

Denise-thanks for the cheers!  I knew you wouldnt stay speechless long.

shokk-Chemo just has to work cause I am too darn stubborn to not let it.

brain is going blank.  Going to have to do the generic from A to Z cause I am at a loss on names. 

amy

It is a cloudy, gray day.  Don't think much rain is headed our way.  It is a rather warm, fall day.  Leaves are falling but more from the lack of rain.  I've decided I'm going to start a small campfire, just enough to wrap all of us in some warmth.  

I'm going to have some hot chocolate with big marshmallows on top, a fresh cinnammon bun.  Brought my pillow and an afghan and just want to rest my eyes for a bit in the midst of my friends.  Some of us are tired, some of us are struggling and hurt over the loss of another friend to BC, some are fighting BC or mets yet again, many are dealing with other effects of breast cance, children and husband issues, facing other types of surgery. 

Bring your pillows, your afghans, your memories, your problems, your fears and join me by the fire.  We can talk, we can share - we are friends.

Jas to you and others that knew Raven well, I'm so sorry that you are hurting and that another friend has been lost.  I didn't know her and once again I'm sorry that we never met.  Odalys - draw close too.  Sorry that you too have lost a dear friend. 

I keep getting notices that my computer is getting attacked -thank goodness for Norton - but computer is also acting up when I get hit.  First time this has happened to me.

I'll check back later.  I've been meaning to go lay down for 2 hours now - not much sleep at mom's last night.  This is getting bad.  Gonna take the computer down.    Hugs,  Brenda

Hi Sisters and Brother Peter

Today is a hard day for me.  I had my first Lupron injection and I feel like crap. Second, my Uncle is having a biopsy today for a lump he found on his chest, he is a very thin man, no real breast tissue, but the lump is in his breast area. Please keep him in your thoughts.

Hugs to you all.

Deb - Where've you been?  If I don't see you around I check your blog.  I was a "lurker" for a very, very long time before I joined the CG's.  They seemed like the "in" crowd to me and I was so scared they wouldn't like me.  But I was so alone, my family had decided I was ready to move on after surgery, no family or friends near me to help out, my friends moved on after I told them my diagnosis (never heard from them again), my SO was gone all the time, etc.  I always looked for your posts.  You cheered me up for months and you never even knew it.  I used to think, who is this crazy broad in AK.  I wish she was my friend.  When Charlene invited me to the Circle I was in tears.  Now you can't shut me up. 

I don't know about all this stuff that goes on or what goes on behind the scenes, but I do know that you comforted me when I was alone and you didn't even know I was there. 

I don't post to everybody cause I can't remember their names and I get so confused.  Geez, I thought Tricia was new. 

So, please Deb take heart that others are reading and being comforted by you everyday. 

Love,
Brenda aka BinVA

Hi to everyone!

I've been really busy working, but....

Have a great time in Bora Bora Cheryl!!! I'm so excited for you

Cheri, did you ever get the angel I sent you when you were in the hospital?  Hope it made you smile..

Love to all

Marisa

Evening all!

The badages are off! Dr Hickman is very pleased with how the incesions look! So am I, it looks so much better. The Tape however was doing a number on my skin and the good Doc wants it off so I can heal. Seems there is no tape I can use without reacting badly to it at least on my chest! He also said I could go back to work when I was ready so I will likely go back on Monday and see if I can slavage the mess my "backup" has made and get her properly trained!

I had to take this week off as vacation. Some vacation! But other than the number the antibiotics are playing on my stomach I really do feel much better!

Amy are they going to try Avastin with you? It's listed on my schedule for the Lung chemo nurse. I've heard it works well in the lungs. I think Gina did it too. I will start back on it soon. It starves the tumor cause it cuts off the blood supply to it.

Cheri, I was thinking of you last night as I lay in the chemo bed thinking "this young lady is going to be dancing in no time" hope the trip was safe and you got good news.

It's been really chilly here! I  think we skipped Fall and went straight into winter. There's already snow in  the mountains, Yikes!

Jule I may not be able to over to see you with the early snow, there's no way Scott would let me drive across the pass. Will have to rethink this....

Tracy, we've missed you! Sure understand that the new job has kept you busy but we've missed you!

I can't haul any firewood but I'll take a cup of that hot coco and the warm donuts, especially if they are those hot mini donuts!

OK Someone said the circle was broken. I have to diagree, bent a bit yes! But our maker has given us the best blacksmith to forge and bend us back into shape. Remember some friends are gold some are silver but the circle is NEVER broken!

My the light of our hearts find its way to those in need,

May we shine ever brightly and give them comfort in their time of need,

May we always have compassion for our fellow man, woman and child,

May we remember to treat other the way we wish to be treated!

I love you all, I'm wrapped up in my afgan so I have you all with me!

Evening ladies.

Well, I had my mammo last friday and had follow-up with surgeon. All looks great - no sign of any cancer- yippee.

I also saw my onc on Monday. He has ordered a bone scan and rib x-rays - to be on the safe side. I go for them tomorrow morning. Wish me luck.

He is obviously not expecting them to find anything though, because he already arranged surgery for removal of my port on Monday. I am soooo happy about that - can't wait to get rid of it after 15 long months. My port has always been my friend, but even friends can outstay their welcome!

I am lighting a candle for all of my dear sisters who are going through tough times right now.  May you feel better soon!

Elaine  

Deb you are one of the best frineds a gal can have!

Glad to see you post.

Madison, you've been quite I worry about you. I hope the parents are doing better and did you DD pass her test with FLYING colors??

CY,

Daughter passed her check ride and moves to her operational squadron TOMORROW....

Also, tomorrow middle daughter gets the results of her bar exam........

busy week........been worried about you, but I am so happy your doc is pleased with the healing

Deb, Emelee26, choca, bluedaliah, and all from A to Z........HELLO!!

wishing all a restful sleep

Hi,

Havent been able to post in the past few days. Saturday, I will make a cup of tea and sit and read..then post. Love to all of you. Tomorrow I am going into NYC to volunteer at the Avon Breast Cancer Walk. I will be one of the many that register the walkers. I will work hard tomorrow in the name of all my bc sisters and brother, cause all that money they raise will help us and the many others affected by the dreadful disease. And any research can help in other cancer areas too. Have a good night's sleep!!

Hugs and prayers,

Candie

Wow long night... only a 11 hour work day! but thats ok took off a few extra!

hey niki big hugsssss to you!!!!!!!!! miss you muchly!

yep smirnoff is a friend tonight! Still no news on Raven!!!

ty ladies for the support!

Tracey

OK...Gina you just gave me a huge shiver up my spine.  I hope you are just waxing poetic my friend.  I have many Alaskan Native friends that insist that owls come to call the dead home when they die!!  Please tell me that is NOT what you are eluding too!  You are spooking me!!

Throwing salt over my shoulder and spitting here...not that I'm superstitious or anything...LOL

Hugs

Deb

Hello Circle. Gina, I've always heard that about owls, too, but it isn't true. It's happened too many times. Remember that song by Michael Martin Murphy, "Wildfire"?  He says there's been a hoot owl outside his window for 6 nights in a row. Not a screech owl.

We just got back from Iowa City a couple of hours ago. I had some lowsy good news, yep, a mixture. I am actually healing! I go back the 8th of Nov. and he wants to do a CAT scan and he's expecting it to come out good and then we stay the night and I check in the next day for another Surgery!! Just as I'm learning to walk with a cane after all these months...another surgery! He's going to take the hardware out and scrape around the infected area. Oh geeze. It would have been an outpatient procedure if I hadn't had this infection so it makes it more complicated. I'll have surgery on friday and will stay until at least monday, if everything goes smoothly.  But really, that's the way things need to be done. My Infection Control dr. says the hardware needs to come out becasue as long as it's in there it harbors infection and my body can't get rid of it completely so maybe this way it'll all be over and I won't get the infection back later on. But, damn, it's hard to look at it that way. I want to tell them to leave me be for awhile cos I'd just now been able to walk even in a camboot with a cane.

I was sitting here IM'ing with Iris a little bit ago and just before she came on I'd stretched back in my chair and reached over and I felt a lump in my right breast, the bad one and a big lump!! Now there's alot of scar tissue there but this feels different. OMG. Dont panic. Stay calm. It's in the middle of the night and everybody is sleeping. Oh no. oh no. Don't panic. Now this is probably nothing at all. I was supposed to see my onc for a check up in Aug. but I was messin with this infected leg and couldn't walk so I put it off. Had just talked about it in the car tonight coming back from Iowa with dh and he said I should get in to see the new onc before my surgery. OH shoot. I'm telling you, girls, there is a good sized lump. For real. OMG.

Ok. took a little breather. This lump is very close to all the scar tissue I have so it just makes sense that's what it is, too. Everything is going to be alright this just  won't happen after all that I've already been through. I prayed about it and I'll call my oncs office tomorrow and see what they say. I am alright. I've sat here and felt that darned thing at least a hundred times thinking I'd made a mistake. LOL Yep, laugh, cos this just isn't going to happen this way. I need to relax and laugh.

Iris, I took a little break from our conversation and you were gone. I tried to reach you again. I'm sorry, I just kinda freaked out there for a bit. I'm up awhile so if you read this IM me again, I noticed you're off line

Marissa, yes I did receive the beautiful Willow Tree angel holding the puppy that you sent me. I truly love it. I thanked you a couple of times but that's when you weren't on here for awhile. She's standing on top of my computer tower looking down at me and I'm very particular with her. Well...she's not really looking down on me cos she has no eyes, or mouth, or nose.....but I love that collection of the Willow Trees. Thank you once again. A lovely gesture.

CherylCY, enjoyed talking to you so much this evening. You always have such a good attitude. You're a very good friend.

Susan, it was nice talking to you, too. Guess it was just a phone day cos I hardly ever talk on the phone but I did tonight.

Marsha, I enjoyed our talk. Will be so glad when you get your computer out of the shop I know you're going crazy without it. You sound wonderful. Ladies, Marsha didn't miss her night out with the girls that she has every wednesday she simply had about 8 of them over for pizza and God only knows what! lol So even though she didn't go 'out' with friends she still partied with them. What a trooper.

Amy, thanks for checking on me earlier tonight but we didn't get home until around 11:00. I had to do both my home infusions in the backseat of the car. hahaha, Bet those truck drivers thought I was a doper cos saline, Heprin and second antibiotice all come in very large syringes. I imagine it looked like I had a very high tolerance. LOL  And feeding a very big habit.

Thank you to all of you who've asked about me and wished me well today. I appreciate you very much. It means so much to know that I have loyal friends that do care about me.

Hey to Janny, Amy, Iris, Susan, CY, Marsha, Nickie, Charlene, Shirls, Liz, Margaret, Madison, MB, Christine, Donna, Brin, Blue, Carrie, Brenda, Cherylnc, CherylG, Karen, Neesie,  Denise, Colleen, Gina, Boo, Gus, Marisa, Iris, Candie, BMD, Vickie, Odalys, Z, Shel, Tracey, Deb, and that's all I can think of off the top of my head.

Wishing you all peaceful & restful evening.

Gina, the owl came to eat the mice!!!!!!!!!!!!

DebC - so glad to see you posting.  I got upset when I saw the post from a few days ago.  Isn't Bren nice?  Hope to meet her for lunch on Monday.

Cy - glad that you are doing OK.  Hugs to you.

Cheri - you have come a long way for them to be giving a thumbs up to remove the hardware.  I never know what I am feeling in my bad breast.  Changes from surgery and changes from radiation.  The other week, I panicked too - even had my hubby come feel a place.  Can't describe the feeling - but you know what I mean.  Think it is just part of the changes in that breast.  

Madison - let us know about your daughter and the bar exam.  Another day of pins and needles - just waiting to hear.  

It's TGIF day - have a great one.   Brenda