Flunking Out of "Moving Beyond"

Anne, this is unsettling news for you to say the least.  As Amy said, I love your spirit and attitude...it obviously was a large part of your first experience with breast cancer and it is going to be a huge part of this experience.  I love that you've decided already how you will approach this...from the perspective of having learned so much about the disease, from what you've learned from others and accepting support and what you now know about yourself.

If ever I have heard hope, motivation and inspiration, not just for yourself but something for all of us to remember, it is these words of yours,

"I had "moved on" quite well, now I have to "move out" for awhile, till I can move on again."

And you'll do it with much hope, positive thoughts and prayers from your loved ones and the support of the sisters you have met along the way.

Anne...I can only say how sorry I am that you'll have to go another round with this f***ing disease! We're saving your place here in 'Moving Beyond...' though!!!

Hang in there, hon, and just do the deal. You certainly know how, as we all do....Our thoughts stay with you.

~Marin

That's crummy.

You did all the right stuff too.

I hope it goes well, as you say - at this point you're experienced with it all and can cope.  

Best wishes dealing with your new decisons and getting an all-clear again soon. Warmly, Jody

i hate reading this news  on so many levels, Anne.  I'm so sorry you have to head down this damn road again...it's a crappy battle...but as you well know, it's doable....and soon it shall be behind you once again.

take care-

patrice

I'm so sorry you have to do this crummy thing AGAIN.  Makes me mad!  You have a great spirit.  Hang on to that!  We are all praying for you. 

Barb

Hi Anne, I am so truely sorry for this. You just remember even though this has come about again. You are a true survivor. You have been there,  and done that. And, your going to jump back on that

saddle and go. Life is weird. Sometimes, we have to jump backward again, before moving forward. But, you know you are stronger than ever before. You are a true survivor in this. And, your going to continue to be that survivor.

God Bless,

Kaloni

Anne you spirit mirrors my own.  Was 1st dx 01/97 with 6+ nodes and had moved on only to be hit with a new primary in other breast july 06, this time with 29+ nodes where did they all come from? Have had all the tx and am starting to put my life back together.

I love your affirmations.  I feel you will be back on top before long and looking for NED.

This really sucks, but your attitude is great. I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

Anne,

You don't have to cry, we'll cry for you.  Your posts touched my heart and I'm so glad you are continuing to be so positive.  The very thought of what you are going thru makes me shudder.  But you are so strong and proactive.  We are always here for you.

{{HUGS}}}

Karen

Hey Anne, you didn't flunk out of anything.  This "Moving Beyond" thread is where the "other" breast belongs, and when the second breast catches up, you will be here forever!

When I was diagnosed, one of my friends was also diagnosed in the other breast after 8 years of NED.  She was so upset, well cutting to the chase, she is just fine, just like me.  Now we are BOTH NED and that was 9 years ago.

This is very discouraging, but you can do it and you will be back in no time.

You are loved, Shirlann

Hi Anne,

Just wanted to add my best wishes. I was in exactly your boat last summer. After a lumpectomy and radiation for stage 1 IDC in my right breast three years earlier, I was diagnosed with a new primary in my left breast--"luckily" this time around, it was "only" extensive DCIS. Still, I had to have a mastectomy, so I decided to have bilateral mastectomies, with no recon. The only way to get through it all was with a positive attitude, which you clearly have.

Regarding crying, I honestly didn't cry once. I was anxious as all get-out, lost eight pounds in about two weeks, but never shed a tear. That just wasn't my way of dealing with the fear and sadness. Instead, I'd crack jokes--especially with my breast surgeon. I wanted to make sure she was in a good mood when operating on me!

My experiences have led me to start a non-profit website, BreastFree.org, that presents non-reconstruction as a positive alternative to reconstruction. So, the unhappy experience of a second bc has given my life a whole new direction.

Barbara 

Dear Anne,

I've just seen this.Not that I have a lot of wisdom to add.But plenty of empathy and support.I'm so SORRY you have to be experiencing this.

You know, in your heart, it will be over in a forgettable blink of an eye.But the time now?The damn "eyeblink"?Not fun.

We are with you 200%, and someone will always be here for you.You dont need us to get you through because you're doing wonderfully well.But we will walk this walk with you.

And so will your friends and family.And then it will be over.And you've bested the devil again.

Thanks for teaching your affirmations.And God bless you for being sanguine and completely wise.

Only action will make the night demons go.But all too soon you'll be in motion.

Sending  white light, insouciance, and lots of love.

joan