I'm scared of a reoccurance....

Hi Mar, Know exactly how you feel.  Weird isn't it what we remember?  The things that set us off?  Hopefully, the things you sweet furbaby is doing are just "things" and really don't mean what you thing they do. 

I really don't think you are crazy, I think you are remembering the things you noticed when you were dx'd.  I know I remembered tiny things the day I was dx'd that no one would think of, and I wouldn't have thought I'd remember  either.

I hope you'll come back and let us know everything was great.

Until then, everything is crossed, even my eyes!

Mary...About a year ago, I started a thread about my being superstitious regarding a recurrance and how I would do, or not do, certain things that, for whatever reason, I thought would jinx my cancer back. There were tons of posts describing everyone's little signs and signals that, for them, meant it was back. One woman even said that her house was in fairly severe disrepair but she couldn't bring herself to be hopeful enough to have anything fixed for fear it would trigger more cancer. Others talked about certain weather conditions that, if they occurred, mimicked their 'first time' and indicated it would be coming back. So all I'm trying to say is that not only is fear of recurrance common and normal, but so is trying to predict it and steal ourselves for the dropping of that other shoe that many of us wait for. Hang in there....maybe your dog needs some skin cream or some valium?

~Marin

You are not crazy at all! Dogs have a 6th sense about these things - whether they can smell the cancer or just an overall "sense" that they have. Maybe your dog was feeling insecure that day and wanted to be on the bed with you?  I am sending you warm positive thoughts.

My hand hurt for several days last week and I couldn't remember if I had hit the desk hard in frustration at work. So I am thinking "oh no, bone mets." I had MY DOG smell my hand. He didn't do anything strange, so I felt better. 

As mentioned previously, it is normal to feel this way.

I try not to worry about it, there is nothing I can do; had proph mast on my good breast, cannot remove my bones, my lungs, my liver, my brain (although that might not be a bad idea ) and I am not having my ovaries out.

So my new philosophy: live each day like it is your last and plan for the future like you are going to live forever.

Raye

Yes, and many of us are like this prior to

a mammogram or tests



I am coming up for eight years

and still ask for healing to be sent





So, I send you a giant basket of

healing and some bright white light



Sure you will do fine



Hang tight. Take a clonazepam



Breathe deeply

Hi Mary, I do understand your fear. I have it also. We all do. It is only normal. I do think though that your over worrying yourself a little with your dog jumping on your bed again. I know our minds can play tricks on us and we just believe certain things. I would not over worry to much. I think your going to be just fine. Good luck.

God Bless,

Kaloni