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  • Ter
    Ter Member Posts: 357
    edited July 2007
    Thanks LuAnn, she is here now, everyone is sound to sleep, we did go out to have Basque food tonite, its so good and i hadnt eaten in 4 days but crackers and gatorade but I felt so so and took some Lomitol "just in case", dinner was great company was good too, mom, me my sis and my aunt and my BIL..Frank couldnt go as he is not doing well at all, so any thoughts and prayers would be greatly appreciated.

    As its actually scarring both of us...He is worried about me and me as I am of him, such a sad part of a love story that I just cant explain....We met and both were on the same page at the same time...he is wonderful, sweet kind, sensitive,generous, he loves me and isnt afraid to be a man that actually cries...we try so hard to hang on to each other,and something in life is trying so hard to physically pull us away from each other, not in the ugly sence of like divorce, but all this which is happening is pulling us closer and closer, yet not enough to make all these illnesses go away, yet deep inside, he believes, and I hope........I dont know what Id do without him, and he feels the same....trying to hang on to what you love so much makes me try to be strong...and marriage is not a 50-50 thing ....its a 10-90, or 30-70, or 1-99, you never know or dont care who and how much one is giving, as we both know is that if one could give 100% then they would, but until that could happen, we try to hang on maybe not with a strong physical sence, but with passion in the heart....knowing and hoping one will be there for the other...its the "unknown" of not knowing that is not just scarry, but like sad with a lump in your throat.


    I dont know why I wrote what i just did, just wanted to share with you, and to ask for your thoughts for Frank.
    Thank you all my BC sisters.
    hugs
    Ter
  • ravdeb
    ravdeb Member Posts: 3,116
    edited July 2007
    Oy Ter...just read your post. Sounds like a nasty fall...

    Glad your sister is there to cheer you guys up and help out a bit.

    Best to you and to Frank...
  • LuAnnH
    LuAnnH Member Posts: 8,847
    edited July 2007
    Ter,

    You are so fortunate to have a wonderful man. Alot of people live their entire lives and never once find a love like you have. Treasure it, you are truly blessed! I had a love like that when my husband was alive, kind of why I never worried if I ever found someone else. I knew the true meaning of love. Sending you lots of love and prayers for both of you!

    LuAnn
  • dunner1
    dunner1 Member Posts: 49
    edited July 2007

    OMG- That was so beautiful what you wrote Ter!!! I will say a special prayer for Frank tonight as I lay my head upon my pillow!!! As one who has a husband with a terminal illness and myself ( a stage 3'r) I can so relate in a small way to what you wrote... You are so blessed to have eachother and always know that you both are forever in eachothers hearts. Amen, God Bless and thanks for being you. Dunner

  • manos
    manos Member Posts: 117
    edited July 2007

    What a beutiful letter. That love will continue through out time. What a man. Are you writting a book on your journey? You have a gift with words.

  • Ter
    Ter Member Posts: 357
    edited July 2007
    yes manos, i had strarted a boook LONG ago, as i have always wanted to, as I have had MANY journeys throughout my life and had started it, but wow, I thought I could write, but I got things so scrambled up, as I just like usual just rambled on and on.....so I put it aside for now and took out and use what my good qualities are "art", and working on my scrapbook, until my accident last week when not just tables and all my stuf on them adn paper cutter landed on my head and neck legs, and when the blood started pouring adn i was stuck and hurt that was it...now my sis was here and her and i, well she handed me thing to be sorted while i laid on sofa and then she placed them back and she kind of reorganized how the table was and moved it a bit....its ready to go again, but Im not "yet"...just gotta heal some more and see my orthohpedic as it got my bad foot really tweaked, so if i have ideas I write them in here in comp and have so many tings organized that I want put in certain lettering and I write those in here and get the fonts right and just keep them there til Im ready for them, that way time is still being used wisely....

    oh I do keep a journal of me and stuff, but the book thing, ya just never know..
    Waiting for some tortillas dh is carefully browing on stove top for me, as tummy is queezy and that sounded good..
    til later everyone

    g'nite
    Ter
  • Ter
    Ter Member Posts: 357
    edited July 2007
    Hi you guys,
    I got some kind of good news, thats a shock I know...
    I saw my onc this week, had my sis w/me and they did my tumor markers, and it was also a follow up on the bone scan. Anyway the markers came back good! yes, and the scan looked good!!!!! yes the cancer is still in the same place hip area, it hasnt moved, or done or gone or moved anywhere per my onc.....and he said "lets let sleeping dogs sleep"!

    Yes I am still a bit skeptical, as for so long I havent had any good news its hard to really believe....but just knowing its in there yea scares the hell out of me....and Im not sure how to really take this. He said if I didnt have all my other things RSD fibro etc., that hurt so bad, and the foot thing, then this fu'pa thing I did a couple weeks ago I might feel half normal, and he doesnt want to see me for 4 months....never been away from that place so long... but I'll still have to go there as the pain center is there.

    Just wanted to share this "good news" I guess with you all. I dont know how right now to see it in a good way being its still there..though he said "one day at a time". Heck I live that way anyway.

    Yes I still have my boot on and bruises everywhere and yes hopefully this will pass, sure wish everything else would...

    Any suggestions would be really appreciated.
    Lots of hugs for all you guys
    Ter
  • LuAnnH
    LuAnnH Member Posts: 8,847
    edited July 2007
    Ter,

    I am thrilled for you! That is good news, hopefully you will heal quickly from your other problems. I understand the fibromylagia pain as I have that too. My new little grandbaby has brought me such joy that I seem to forget about everything else. Just tell that handsome son of yours you need this new medcine a friend told you about. It makes everything else disappear when you see that new little life. Just don't tell him what the medicine is while he is taking a drink or you might need to call 911 LOL

    LuAnn
  • dunner1
    dunner1 Member Posts: 49
    edited July 2007

    Yo Ter- That is great news and I am so happy for you. Now just center your thoughts on healing your injuries from your fall! One day at a time is how we all should live our lives!!! My poor neighbor who is only 54 yrs young had a stroke and is in intensive care as I write this. Just goes to prove once again we only have today. So say a pray for John that he recovers so he can be around for his wonderful daughter (my son's babysitter!). Sweet dreams! Dunner

  • Ter
    Ter Member Posts: 357
    edited July 2007
    Oh you guys are so sweet, and that baby LuAnne is beautiful.
    Yes Dunner I will be putting John on my list. Very scarry as I too am 54 and need NO more things going on with me.

    And yes Id love this "c" to stay in my bones in one area and never wake up, but over all, so far Im still so achey from that dang fall...

    That dog of yours LuAnn, what his name? he is cute!

    not much else as i took my nite time pain meds etc and just browsing.
    love ya guys
    Ter
  • PuppyFive
    PuppyFive Member Posts: 2,808
    edited July 2007
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    I Love you sweetie, looks like things are starting to go your way for once!!! give my love to Frank and Blake,Puppy
  • LuAnnH
    LuAnnH Member Posts: 8,847
    edited July 2007
    Ter,

    My dog's name is Koda, but I am sure you will notice I changed to my new grandbaby! I would bet Koda with his silly nature and looks will make it back to my avatar again. For now it is the new love of my life!

    LuAnn
  • PuppyFive
    PuppyFive Member Posts: 2,808
    edited July 2007
    Hi sweet sisters, Ter has asked me to let you know her PC is down. Please if you have her phone # give her a call
    she really needs some Love right now!
    Thank You, Puppy
  • PuppyFive
    PuppyFive Member Posts: 2,808
    edited July 2007
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    I see Your still working on it(( HAHAHAHAHAHA)) hope ya get it fixed soon sweetie!!
    Love Ya, Puppy
  • PuppyFive
    PuppyFive Member Posts: 2,808
    edited July 2007
    Sweet Ter, Know I am praying for You, and always will!
    Love You Sis, Puppy
  • Ter
    Ter Member Posts: 357
    edited July 2007
    oh you guys are so sweet...after almost 10 hrs talking to hewlett packaard and ATT still no puter, but ATT came by here this week, kind of got me going BUT everything is scrabmbled its the pitts..as i have to press so hard on each key, and I can't even delete stuff from email, i saw an ad for Geek Squad and thi nking soon having them here to help get this back to how it was...anyone know about them?

    OK you guys its Puppys turn, please keep her in your thoughts and prayers as tomorrow her time in W.Virginia at 630AM she is having her surgery....I havent stopped thinking of you puppy, and let the angels be watching over you, and prayers to your surgeons, and please dont try to make it an in/out surgery, let your body rest a few days there, please for you.

    Love you all, and thought and prayers for Puppy Debby5
    hugs
    Ter

    hope i can send this
  • ravdeb
    ravdeb Member Posts: 3,116
    edited July 2007
    Hi Ter...
    Hope you get it all worked out! Geek Squad...never heard of them but love the name!

    Debby..hope all goes well...

    Feel good!
  • LuAnnH
    LuAnnH Member Posts: 8,847
    edited July 2007
    Geek squad is good. If you buy your pc or laptop they offer you the repair services of geek squad free with their warranty. We have geek squad and pc on call here. They are pricey but will fix your problems. I was just thinking about you and boom here you are! As for puppy someone posted in the moving beyond forum. She came through her surgery and is doing well.

    Take Care!

    LuAnn
  • janie44
    janie44 Member Posts: 1,460
    edited July 2007
    Ter,

    Think about you a lot. Hope your computer is soon in apple pie order. Hugs >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
  • PuppyFive
    PuppyFive Member Posts: 2,808
    edited August 2007
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    All My Love, {{SIS}}
    "Thank You all for Your well wishes!!
    Puppy
  • Sierra
    Sierra Member Posts: 1,638
    edited August 2007
    Hi Ter:

    Just reading a bit on this thread
    and sending Mr. Sandman
    out to help you sleep this eve..

    Also, glad you will have your puter
    back


    ((((((((Ter))))




    I like the graphic Puppy posted
    LOL
  • Ter
    Ter Member Posts: 357
    edited August 2007
    Puppy, Yes I too like Sierra Love the photo you posted, its awsome.
    Havent been on here past almsot week, nasty tummy ache.

    Wishing you Debby and all the best health and may puppy feel as good as she sounded.

    love ya guys
    Ter
  • PuppyFive
    PuppyFive Member Posts: 2,808
    edited August 2007
    Sweet Terrie, after our talk, I thought maybe you could give this Prayer to Our {{{FRANK}}}image

    All My Love Sis, Puppy
  • LuAnnH
    LuAnnH Member Posts: 8,847
    edited August 2007
    Ter,

    I hope you are doing well! Been thinking of you lately!

    LuAnn
  • Ter
    Ter Member Posts: 357
    edited August 2007
    Oh Deb,
    You know "we" too follow that same path. Where on earth do you find such good pics to add to all your post?

    Today its 12:30 AM sat...slept all day, dont know why, very tired adn i had things to do. tomorrow Im getting my hair cut and so is frank as we need to look a little civilized.
    was going to put weaves of highlites in mine, but too tired to sit that long, plus being its my own color now, think it would be kind of nice if i see a nice cut with my own color which is dark blondish with med brown , who knows but just dont want it short short any nore..as i can just ponytail it and voila'..after tht I have to do the Target thing ugh, but I need things badly, and so does mom, and then well go see her as she has been so down in the dumps..as 2 of her good friends down there passed away this week...and all i can think of is her being there as I cant do what they do, and she is very active, but watching so many get worse and die, and I think someday she just may be on that list..which saddens me...I think she will be happy to see us there.

    Not much else going on...still havent touched my table, but its ready for me to work anytime I feel like it.

    wishing you more prayers and thoughts.
    Love ya lady
    Ter
  • PuppyFive
    PuppyFive Member Posts: 2,808
    edited August 2007
    Terrie, Hug Your Mom for me, Sweetie.
    She is Very Spunky, don't think she will be down for long!
    she is one tough cookie, just like her Daughter! I will and have been, Praying for All of You Sis!
    xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo Puppy
  • PuppyFive
    PuppyFive Member Posts: 2,808
    edited August 2007
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    A Beautiful Rose and Pearls, For My Beautiful Sis.
    xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxo Puppy
  • Ter
    Ter Member Posts: 357
    edited August 2007
    Thanks Puppy,
    You are just too sweet, and i hope this finds you doing much better.

    Im hanging in there, grouchy at times and trying to deal witgh all this...
    OH letting you guys know I am going to write in mets section as I have a huge problem and thought i might get more feed back there on it..

    tomorrow i see my nice lookin' Italian orthopedic....yea its getting better in a way, yet my ankile is so bad along with the bottom of heal...hopiong he xrays it and they see soemthing he can fix.

    love to you guys
    and I love that pic Puppy and maybe this week Ill call you as you alwyas cheer me up, and we never can end our conversations..wish ALL of you were in my neighborhood, wouldn that be great!?
    love ya all
    Ter
  • PuppyFive
    PuppyFive Member Posts: 2,808
    edited August 2007
    {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{TER}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
    I Love You!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    Puppy
  • LuAnnH
    LuAnnH Member Posts: 8,847
    edited August 2007
    Ter,

    Thinking about you, hope you are doing well.

    LuAnn

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