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Marsha56
Marsha56 Member Posts: 86
edited June 2014 in HER2+ (Positive) Breast Cancer

I was at chemo on friday.... and everyone knows me after 12 years of treatments there. I was sitting there and saw a women that use to be in our suppourt group, we no longer met long long story. Saw I had not seen Rebecca in about 8 years an she is not doing well at all. It blows my mind how many of the women in the group have passed away... I think back to 12 years ago when they gave me 6 months to a year to live, when many of there cancer was not as bad or fast growing as mine. Why am I still here and there not?? What have I done that they have not?? Should I feel guilty for still being here and not them?? Many of them had young kids and I didnt mine where teenagers... It makes me very sad. Just needed to get this off my mind. thanks for listening sisters I know you understand.. hugs!

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  • lexi4
    lexi4 Member Posts: 1,074
    edited August 2007
    I have know words of wisdom, I just wanted to send you a big hug. Please don't feel guilty for surviving this disease. You give me hope everytime I see your 11 year surving this. Be gentle on yourself.

    Hugs,
    Lexi
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  • Denny123
    Denny123 Member Posts: 1,886
    edited August 2007
    Marsha,
    I feel the same way and you certainly give me hope with your 11 years of survival.
    Many of my Stage 4 friends have passed, as well as many of the gals on the bcmets site.
    I am always waiting for the other shoe to drop and for my liver mets to reappear. I feel so incredibly blessed and lucky, as you should also.
    Maybe we are still here to be able to help others.......
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  • PuppyFive
    PuppyFive Member Posts: 2,808
    edited August 2007
    {{{{Marsha}}}}
    Big Hugs Sweetie, I believe like the others, that when we see Your 11 year Survivor sig. It gives me a lot of Hope!
    Maybe God is working through You Sweetie, To help others
    on this Journey! I for one am very happy You are with us!
    Love, Puppy
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  • Fitztwins
    Fitztwins Member Posts: 7,969
    edited August 2007
    Cancer just sucks some times. It aint fair. It shows no mercy.

    Hate it.

    Janis
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  • SpunkyGirl
    SpunkyGirl Member Posts: 1,568
    edited August 2007
    Marsha, when I first was diagnosed with BC, we all thought it was St 0, and I remember feeling so guilty that I had loved ones dealing with worse. Life is good, but not fair. Give everyone you love an extra hug for us all!
    Bobbie
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