anyone starting chemo in Nov 2005

Yes, she was smiling. What an incredible woman. I was crying for her. I can't stop thinking about her. I am praying for her now, too.

Marisa Weis was on GMA this a.m. and she was very eloquent on the notion of how all of us listen to our bodies so carefully and worry about every twinge, every new pain. That's what's so hard, the worrying. I was going to read Elizabeth Edward's book, but now I think it would make me so sad. She had no idea....

Kim, happy belated birthday! I hope you have a wonderful weekend.

Love, Anna

Dear Kaye,
I'm sending light your way. I hope you are sorrounded by love, and peace where ever you are. If in deed you have made it HOME, I take comfort in knowing you are not in pain and rejoice in knowing the heavens has a new Angel. I am honored to have known you and treasure the time we traveled together on this journey. I'll forever remember your courage. God's be...

Here is my third try at posting, keep loosing posts. Grrrrrrr... what is happening to this board today???

In honor of Kaye and Spring, here is something to get us all in the mood. Enjoy! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sUS49XSN6Zs

Yeah Kim- I think 45 is near the normal range (they told me 40). Are you having a scan in May? I'm having my PET May 2nd.

Just got back from Seattle- got my third and final vaccine. I still go back for some follow up- but am glad to be done with the vaccinations.

Saw my ps, he said I can get my nips anytime- don't have to wait until June. But what do you know, my April is impossible so I will try to schedule in May.

Anyway, going to buy some beach chairs for our vacation home- Target here I come. Love the spring- everything is green here (trees and grass) for just a couple of months. It is spectacular and my rose bushes have a ton of buds- can't wait for them to open.

Hugs to my bc roses,

Margerie

Margerie, I am not sure of my dates yet for scans. Sometime in May. Glad you are done with the vaccine. Spring has sprung here. Who would have thought 2 weeks ago we had 13 inches of snow.
Anna, you trip sounds awesome. I am so happy that you are able to go this year. Hope everything went well today getting your port out. I still have mine and will probably always have it.

Hope you all have a great weekend.
Kim

Hi ladies!

Kim - great news about the tumor markers. I hope this new chemo cocktail continues to kick those cancer cells butt. Prayers are working. I will continue to pray for you and will post again in the prayer thread so the other ladies can continue to lift you in prayer. Don't worry dear sister we have your back covered. With God, all is possible!

Margerie - glad to see you are doing well and were able to finish the vaccines. Wow, that was some commute. How long do you stay at your vacation home? Sounds like so much fun!

Anna - Poor doggie. Wow, glad to hear your port is coming out, another milestone in this journey. How does it feel without it? I felt so liberated. How are your daughter and SIL doing? Where abroad will you be staying? Must be nice to get away for a while.

Deb - I've missed you. I kept looking at the other threads in hopes you had posted an update. Glad to hear you sold your house, note easy to do these days. When do you join your hubby? I know what you mean about being a single parent, my dh travels all the time so I get to stay with Steven. Boy, it's so much work for one person. I don't know how some woman do it with multiple kids. My heart goes out to them.

Mary Lou and lat56 - Where are you? I miss you.

Well, I've been dealing with some eye infections and another dental abscess this week. Oh yes, and my hair is thinning. I got a pixie cut so it will look fuller. Onc told me it's due to the low hormone levels and he does not expect for it to fall out completely. Great, hair thinning... like I really need that. I tell you the aftermath from all the chemo, rad, and hormone treatments is not easy. Okay, enough venting. I will put on my big girl panties and deal with it.

We are going to drive up to Maryland to visit some friends next week. It should be a nice drive up the East Coast. I am looking forward to getting away with the family and just have fun. We plan to also take Steven to see the white house. It should be a lot of fun. Just what I need before staring my new job on April 9th.

Got to go now. Wishing everyone a great weekend!
Love and hugs,

Wow! So much going on!

Kim, you are in my prayers and will be until your port comes out and all of this is behind you.

Debbie, I am so glad you sold your house so quickly! That's wonderful news and now you can move ahead. I know how hard it is to be a single mom because that's how I raised my girl till she was 13. It's probably harder if you are used to sharing the responsibility under normal circumstances. Be happy it is temporary, and good luck on your move.

Odalys, I hope you get to see the cherry blossoms in Washington. We have some here where we live and I do love it when they come out in the spring. Ours are just starting. Has the Biotin started to help with the hair and nails yet? I suspect it takes a while. If your hair is thinning because of the drop in hormones, maybe it will settle back into its normal growth once your body realizes that the hormone levels are the new normal? That's what I am thinking and hoping. I was so desperate I bought myself some Sally Hanson strong nail stuff, polish to keep nails from splitting. I hate nail polish, but have been using this for 5 days and it has helped some I think. No splitting since I started. Of couse my nails are very very short, but still, I see improvement.

The port removal was no biggie at all and I was really surprised at how happy I felt once it was out. I thought I needed it to feel safe, but I realize safe is not on the outside, it's how I feel on the inside. That's where I have to look for it. All the news we are hearing just reminds me of how every little weird ache raises my antenna in unhappy ways. So I have to hold onto the knowledge that each one of us has the divine inside and that's where safety lies. No matter what goes on outside, our spirit is safe. So yes, I feel liberated.

Daughter and soninlaw are doing well. He is over his sinus surgery and she is starting to feel a little bouncier (her words). Thank you for asking, Odalys. They have booked a week in Belize mid-April, so I'm sure having that to look forward to is a big help.

Little dog got through her spaying and I was told to keep her from jumping for 7 to 10 days. That lasted for about 12 hours. She's back to her crazy hopping self. I swear, she must think she's the Easter bunny! How did I actually manage without a dog? I simply can't believe all the exuberant love that pours out of such a small (5-pound) package. Hubs and I laugh, we are acting like she's our child! Very silly, but so much fun.

I hope everyone is having a good weekend!

Love, Anna

I was able to catch up on all of the posts today as we are in the middle of a huge snow storm - at least 2 feet of new snow so far & more on the way! Yes, its April 4th. The police have advised only emergency vehicles be on the road, so I am enjoying this day off!!

I had just spoken to my manager at work about cutting back my hours. I've been working 30-35 hours per week and its way too much - I am exhausted! This means I will loose my full-time status & benefits, so its been a difficult decision for me, but I feel its what I need to do. My work schedule is so erratic, never having 2 days off in a row and being scheduled anywhere between 5am and 10pm is difficult. (Retail)

PLUS, (and this is the most important part!) my daughter is getting married next month and I want to enjoy these moments! We've had a great time making wedding & shower plans! This is going to be such a great celebration and I want to have the energy to PARTY!

I bought a new digital camera and have some adorable photos of the grandchildren, just wish I knew how to put them on this message board. I have such a hard time with all of this technology!

I am so inspired by the strength all of you show!!
You are in my prayers!
Love,
LAT56

Lat56- congrats- I'm sure it will be a lovely wedding!

Anna- how did the port removal go? I have to figure out when to get mine removed- I may wait until next year- the vaccine trial requires some big blood draws and my last one is March 2008. But that is a long time to wait!

I am doing great. Kind of in wait mode- have PET and nipple recon beginning of May. Once those are over with- I hope to check into denialland!

I will be on spring break until the 16th- so y'all behave please. I can't believe you got snow Anna. I always put away all the jackets and extra blankets once we hit 80 degrees and then it never fails that we get a cold snap a week later.

Saw my 3yo's dance recital today. Last year I was full of tears- but this year it was pure joy!

Lat56 that is wonderful news about your daughter. I am sure it will be a beautiful wedding. Don't worry, I don't know how to share pictures either. One day I'll get this technology stuff straightened out.
We had flurries here the last couple of days too. It IS April. Last week we were in shorts and t-shirts. I wish this weather would make up its mind.
I got treatment this past week. yeah! Dr. was cautiously optomistic about the tumor markers going down so much. BUT we won't know for sure until those pesky scans which will come at the end of April beginning of May. Nerves are starting already.
Hope you all have a wonderful Easter.

love,
Kim

4 feet of snow! Yikes! No more complaining from my end; surely I can put up with some cold wind, right? At least we don't have feet and feet of snow....

Kim, I will continue to pray for good scans and calm nerves for you.

Love, Anna

Hope you all had a wonderful Easter. We had snow too. Lost a flower or two, but all in all it was okay. I had held off planting any young plants.

The blooms on the trees in the back yard got the worst of it.

All is well in my neck of the woods, had fun making Sebastian's Easter basket. Spent to much, LOL....Got him two outfits also because he is growing so fast.

Jessie has taken him to the Dr. today. He has a cold, and has not had to much sleep. I help when I can, but I just don't have the energy to keep up very long.

Update on my Weight Watchers, I had been playing around to much and gained like crazy. So now I'm back on track, had a 8.2 loss last night. Now I have to work really hard to get back to my lowest before the gain.

I hope being out in the yard will help, if the winter would just go away.....

Well I better return to the house work, we have guest coming tomorrow. Love to you all, and many prayers.

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Hey Kim,
Come to think of it, I remember having the skin test done. I totally forgot about it until I read your post.

Daniel is demanding me at the moment....gheesh!
Love and prayers, Deb