My Husband, My Life, My Love, My Family, My Cancer

KBL, that is an awesome thing he did, glad to hear you were able to benefit from his generosity

Rosie, great news on your scan results, that is great!

Hey Rosie, awesome news!

thx everyone for the support. I'm still not feeling great but I'm not quite as miserable as yesterday.

I did my onboarding appointment for the radiation trial - just boring paperwork and stepping on a scale. Randomization will happen this week sometime. My brain scan came back clean so there's some good news even if I'm too grumpy to really appreciate it lol

Moth, so glad to hear your brain scan came back clean. I can appreciate that for you for sure.

xgeva and bloodwork today. Feel lousy. Hope all is well with you ladies.

I can understand that. I’m sorry Moth.

Thank you, everyone. I was very appreciative.

Rosie, great news.

Moth, I’m sorry you won’t be in the SABR arm. That stinks, especially since you actually knew the potential difference. And thanks for explaining the difference. I’ll still hope that met stays gone for good. Great to hear your brain scan was clear and I hope your mental place starts to brighten soon.

Thanks to all for the cheers. I’m more relieved than I realized

Moth, I am sorry you didn't make the SABR arm.

Mara~I adore you!!

Rosie- Sorry you cannot get the SABR, but, at least, they are saying the rad you will get should zap the cancer and "possibly not bother you again". That is something I wonder about if I get to the point I want to try a clinical trial. Would I get picked for the placebo in the trial and think "Hey I am in a trial, that is good" and really not be any better off than standard care. I have a lot to learn about trials.

Mara- I admire you. I walked on my treadmill the other day. It is right here in my house. In the comfort of my home. No need to bundle up or put on boots. And I still cannot get motivated to walk on it every day. Much less several times a day. I don't know how you do it.

I did do some light dusting today. And I have a load of laundry to do. It is just me and my cat, and I am neat, so my house doesn't need too much cleaning. I just cannot find enough to keep me busy. Bored and lonely again.

Candy, I am no different than you when it comes to motivation. For me, if I leave myself to my own devices, I will not do anything. It is hard to motivate myself. When I do not give myself a chance to think about it, I do better. I had been for the first walk, felt pretty good and decided to have breakfast at my burger joint for the next walks.

I also find I just feel physically better after a walk. If you want to do it, I would initially just do 5 or 10 mins on the treadmill first thing, before meals, maybe after a coffee if you drink it but before breakfast. That can set you up with a little more energy and makes it easier to do other things throughout the day. A couple of 5 or 10 min walks on the treadmill throughout your day can be better than one longer one.

As far as being bored, for me I do surveys, there may be something else you can find to do. I hope so. I am sorry about the feeling lonely, I can most definitely empathize as I don't see people all that often. I usually just talk to the dogs outside that I pass on walks.

Candy, if 20 mins is painful, start with 2 minutes a few times a day. Your body could get used to that easier. Move up a minute each week. You can do 10 two minutes sessions and that should be easier on your back. Small and slow steps as well. Don't push to the point of real pain, but the micro walks would even work as well. I had to do this when I tweaked my back badly a few years back. Hold on to something and march on the spot for 2 mins even instead of the treadmill. You don't have to lift your feet up high, that helps too. Good luck.

BooBoo