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  • Nextyear
    Nextyear Member Posts: 49
    edited June 2020

    I didn't think I'd be back, and yet.... it hit me today. I'm just restarting the cancer treadmill and, at least today, I'm scared or sad or maybe just emotional.

  • Elderberry
    Elderberry Member Posts: 993
    edited June 2020

    Nextyear: I am so very sorry to have you return to this world. You will find gentle, caring support from your sisters here.

  • Spookiesmom
    Spookiesmom Member Posts: 9,568
    edited June 2020

    Probably all the above. It’s normal. Like the first time around, once you have a plan, it gets easier. And it’s not an instant death sentence. There are many here who are doing well several years after second dx.

    Hang in here, let us know what’s going on.

  • Nextyear
    Nextyear Member Posts: 49
    edited June 2020

    Elderberry-Thank you, that means the world!

    Spookiesmom- You’re right. Tomorrow I will be sensible and begin planning again.

  • cookie54
    cookie54 Member Posts: 134
    edited June 2020

    Nextyear I am sorry to hear you are back on the treadmill and so am I. I have been on an emotional roller coaster for the past two weeks. I have a recurrence in my axilla and chest wall . I feel like the second time around has been more difficult for me. It's ok to feel sad and scared, I am too. We have to tell ourselves we did it before and we will do it again! Give yourself time to accept it and you will feel better once you have a plan. I just got my plan and I am starting to feel less sad and more determined. Just take things one step at a time, I know you will feel better and you will conquer this!

  • Nextyear
    Nextyear Member Posts: 49
    edited June 2020

    cookie54- I’m so sorry that you have to revisit the hell that is cancer, but you give me hope. Sending hugs and good thoughts.

  • KelliSuze
    KelliSuze Member Posts: 3
    edited June 2020

    Hi ladies,

    I'm feeling all the same emotions you are. I was almost 3 years out and then had an MRI that caught a spot. So I just received the call from my doctor yesterday about this recurrence right near my lumpectomy surgery spot.

    I go next week to speak to the surgeon, oncologist and a plastic surgeon for a plan.

    My thoughts are with all of you.

  • Nextyear
    Nextyear Member Posts: 49
    edited June 2020

    KelliSuze-

    My thoughts are with you. Good luck with whatever plan you come up with. It sucks but at least it’s a start to handle things, at least that’s what I’m telling myself. Hugs.

  • KBeee
    KBeee Member Posts: 5,109
    edited June 2020

    KelleSuze and Nextyear, I am sorry you're dealing with recurrences. Are these local recurrences? We're all here for you.

  • cookie54
    cookie54 Member Posts: 134
    edited June 2020

    KelliSuze, I am also sorry to hear you to have to deal with this again! Glad to hear your plan is coming together to expedite treatment. Sending big hugs you way.

  • ReneeR2010
    ReneeR2010 Member Posts: 2
    edited July 2020

    Hi Cookie54

    I too have just been diagnosed again in neck collar bone lymph nodes and chest wall lymph nodes in lungs I believe she said I just got my treatment plan but not started yet

    Ibrance and Faslodex

    So scared

    This was my 10 years and got this news

    I have got to get up and moving I just want to slee

  • LKinKC
    LKinKC Member Posts: 51
    edited July 2020

    Hi fellow Fighters. I am in the same situation as all of you unfortunately. Its been 21/2 years since my BC diagnosis and only one year from last Herceptin infusion. I was feeling myself again. Then I go for my 6 month check up and they found an abnormal axillary lymph node and the biopsied it. Now waiting on results. Also did a Pet Scan found 2 probabl metastatic spots. One on lung one one liver. Not sure what to think. My emtions are all over the place.
  • Partyoffive
    Partyoffive Member Posts: 188
    edited July 2020




    Nextyear:

    I’m so sorry you find your self back here-when I was diagnosed I was scared,sad and angry. I’ve been stage 4 for over 7 years with many many bone mets. I was on tamoxifen for the first 61/2 years and recently switched to ibrance. Take it day by day and allow yourself to feel the emotions you are feeling-it’s a lot to deal with. Good luck

    Kristin

  • KBeee
    KBeee Member Posts: 5,109
    edited July 2020

    ReneeR, I am sorry you are dealing with this news. Hoping you have a plan in place soon. Do be sure to check out threads on the stage IV forum

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