Away from home, locked into quarantine, and found a dent.

I'm just updating cause... idk. I'm hoping someone else with a similar story might find this and share their experience, or if someone else is out there looking, they can read it.

I can't get an appointment, and I can't get on healthcare. It's all very stressful. My period has passed, and the dent is less noticeable. To be fair, I can only find the dent when I squeeze/push my breast inward, and it's definitely smaller now than it was when I was PMSing. I have researched EVERYWHERE online trying to find some kind of solace, because with everything going on I might only be able to get this checked out in a month or two, or even longer. Right now, NY has some pretty significant problems, so I'm trying to contain myself for at least another week or two and observe because going to any doctor right now is risky. It's really hard and really scary. The e-mail to my clinic back home bounced so I can't even speak to someone via the internet (grr, frustrating... south africa has great doctors and shitty internet communications). I'm hoping that because it doesn't look 'permanent' and the breast doesn't look misshapen and it only appears with some prodding that it indicates something benign, like a cyst in an odd spot, and I'm crossing my fingers that it will resolve itself with care and rest. I'm trying to relax, meditate and do gentle exercise like yoga as much as I can, and I've cut back on drinking caffeine for now both for my mental and physical wellbeing.

In the meantime... are there any online resources for a doctor who might take a tele-conference? I really am just seeking peace of mind and I'm struggling with the idea of having to possibly wait a very, very long time to see a specialist.
Thanks for anyone reading. It's been a tough few weeks.

It's actually... kinda comforting to hear that response Alice, lol. I've never had dents before and I guess it's always a little nervewracking to notice something new, particularly because if I were at home I could contact my local doctor and know just what to do. Covid-anxiety stuff is definitely real I suppose. So far nothing has really changed, so I'm hoping that waiting a bit while things calm down and going to my regular 6-month checkup will yield nothing. Quarantine panic sucks! This virus has really turned so many normal parts of life on its head.

Hope you're all having a healthy and safe day.

Thank you so much.
I'm gonna be locked out of my home for at least another 3 months... maybe even 6... maybe even a full year... and I don't have money to get it checked out here. So many of my worst nightmares coming true in quarantine, it's been incredibly hard on me, so I'm grateful for the thoughts and responses here. I might need to borrow money to get an ultrasound done, but I'm trying to just hold tight and remind myself that my age is on my side. The dent, after observing it for my last couple periods, is still there but definitely seems a little smaller, especially when I'm not PMSing... I'm wagering a guess that it's a cyst of some sort and hopefully it's benign. It only shows up when I push on my breast and it's so faint when I'm bending or moving that it's only possible to see if I'm looking SUPER close, and even then I know it's there, so I think that's a good sign. Quarantine is just doing my head in about all this and my health anxiety, while normally in check, is going completely bonkers among everything happening. I'll keep monitoring it until I can get a doctor to look at it. Thank you for your thoughts.

Hi everyone.

I am in a strange position. I am still scared as hell and wanted to see if anyone here had thoughts or words of wisdom.

I still have not been able to get this checked out. It's been an insurance thing, a money thing, a pandemic thing. I'm finally going back to my home country next week. It's surreal and strange, but this whole time I've been panicked and thinking oh no, what if I have cancer and I've let it spread?

In truth, the indent hasn't really changed. Sometimes the area feels a bit sore, so I have a suspicion it might be a cyst of some kind, but it's such a vague symptom and googling doesn't help. It's not really visible unless I push on the breast, though I can see the faintest indentation in certain light (other times it just looks like the shape of the breast). I'm not even a full year out from my last check up, though I know that's no guarantee. I've turned 31. On getting home, I'm going to have to quarantine for at least two weeks, and then I will finally be able to go get a screening from my regular doctor.

I'm still stressed out and scared. I've been stressed and scared for months. All I want is to have a clean scan, maybe even an explanation if there's one available. How can I keep my nerves calmed for just a little while longer?

Hi everyone, I thought I'd post an update.

After almost 8 months of this hellish year, I finally was permitted to return home. I quarantined for about two weeks and saw my doctor earlier this week. She said that she saw what I was talking about immediately, and now I'm scheduled for my first mammogram at age 31, along with an ultrasound. She said that she doesn't suspect cancer, which is bracing, but that the combination of a mammo + ultrasound will rule out anything. She also agreed that she couldn't feel a lump under the dent, or anything that seemed too glaringly obvious as malignant. I also asked if anything benign could cause this, and she very emphatically said that such a thing was possible, especially for those of us with fibrocystic breasts, but it rarely will come up on a google search. I have my screenings on December 1st. It was the earliest they could book me in, as covid-19 shut downs really seem to have backed people up this year and things are only finally starting to get better.

I'm not going to lie, I'm still wildly anxious. This year has been so horrible for me personally and I'm just scared it's gonna come in with a horrid sting at the end. I'm also a little sad because I've always really liked my breasts, and now there's this dent in one of them. I know that's really beside the point but it still sucks! This year has been really hard and I just hope that this rolls on without anything worse happening. In the meantime I'm wondering if there's anything I can do to heal the dent... I don't know. I'm just trying to stay calm in this dumpster fire of a year.