Crying

e32, You have been through a lot. My primary doctor just sat me down and told me I have to remember I have cancer. Do you have any support? A husband or Mom or someone who would help with the children? Tamoxifen made me cry at a drop of a hat for the first 6 months. Its hard to give ourselves a break. You are not failing and yes you will get through this. With Covid all of the kids have behavioral issues!! As far as the house goes do the basic cleaning and not worry about the rest. When you feel stronger it will get done. Don't worry about the small stuff. Take care of you and your children will do better too.

e32,

I'm terribly sorry you feel so out-of-control but you have every right to. Small children, cancer, fatigue etc. While it's easy for me to understand what you're going through, it's difficult for me to find a solution. Do you have a group of friends, neighbors, church, family who would be willing to help sort out everyday chores like light housework, shopping, overseeing the kids for a couple hours each week so you have a chance to nap?

I have researched nation-wide cleaning services who will donate services to families in your situation. They truly are angels and if there's an organization nearby, I am sure you will feel less out-of-control. I know a clean house isn't everything, however, clutter weighs on me and even if my bed isn't made in the morning, it feels like I've failed at my day.

How old are your children? Can you get them on a schedule of picking up their things, making their bed etc.

I hope you research and get the help you need. Emotionally and mentally your outlook will improve greatly. I do hope you can get help. Good luck to you.

Amy

PS - get outside and soak up some Vitamin D with your children, that helps too. Leave the messes behind closed doors.

moth - love the song. Thanks for posting.

I was on Tamoxifen almost a year with no horrible side affects. Then I was put on Femara (Letrozole) 8 weeks ago. 2 weeks in, I was getting more and more depressed and anxious. I was sooooo very fatigued and weak. Was depressed one other time in my life and swore I would never go back. This drug was leading me to that dark place. Got a 2 week break from it. By day 3 I was starting to feel myself again. I am now trying Exemestane. I will let you know how it goes. I have met 3 other people like me who had horrible sadness with this med and Exemestane (Aromatasin) was much better for them. Everyone handles medicines differently just like antidepressants. Try something different if you can.

e32 - I realize this is an older post that you made, but in case you are still concerned and see this message: I cry all the time too, and it is much worse since I began taking Femara/Letrozole last January. I do think the virus and other things like current events add to it, but there is no question in my mind that the Letrozole/Femara make this exponentially worse!

Hope things have improved and settled out for you.