My Husband, My Life, My Love, My Family, My Cancer

Folks,

Please don't jump all over me for saying this -- but I think we're getting very close here to having a political discussion, and that's probably not that helpful to any of us. Like everyone, I understand "the American way" and how we are generally free to do our own thing, so long as it's lawful. But c'mon folks -- the purpose of any restriction on our freedoms right now is an attempt to SAVE LIVES. All statistics show that less contact equals less infection -- translation: we can help "flatten the curve" to give our healthcare system a chance to catch up so they can help all of us. WE are one of the vulnerable groups. WE need the healthcare system to be available for us. The message to me, therefore, is that we need to follow the "rules" the best that we can to protect ourselves and others.

Good afternoon ladies

I have been isolated for awhile. I do go outside and do gardening. There’s always a lot to do inside and outside.

I also heard the news on the difficult decisions drs will make on who gets a ventilator and it sounded as if healthier younger people will get it before old people with life threatening diseases and such. I guess all this alcohol hand sanitizer and supplies better keep me inside bc some dr might not deem me save-able enough To treat me if I get sick.

Tuesday Dr appt. for shots I’ll be wearing a mask and gloves 🧤

If anyone is looking for alcohol we found lots in beauty supply store and at gas station store. I bought extra for my daughter and 5 kids. The kids are scared and stuck in the house. We live in the suburbs but to see tanks in the streets will probably fuel some unwanted reaction. Mostly everyone is armed to the teeth around here.

They have been having food and vegetable giveaways. The people just drive through pop their trunks and a volunteer puts a large box of provisions inside. Humans still are kind and thoughtful too

Tanya

I agree too Bevjen and I hate politics, so you’ll never hear me get into it. I also agree that some restrictions are necessary to protect us all. My only real concern is how close we get to crossing a line that some have determined is the tipping point. For me, staying home isn’t a big deal as long as I can walk outside and go to my medical appointments and so long as these restrictions are temporary.

FYI, DH is in the kitchen with our seed collection planning out a garden, not sure he sees this as temporary. Gotta keep him firmly grounded, although it never hurts to have fresh veggies.

Candy,

Great post. Says it all.

I do think people are misconstruing self isolation with only staying in the house. People are encouraged to take excercise outdoors. Keeps us stronger. We just don't want people in a large gathering in a small space. If people actually stayed home except for essentials, food, meds or doctors appointments that cannot be pushed back, the spread would be less severe. I actually hope that there is a mandatory lockdown so people are forced to stay home besides essentials

My SIL came to the apartment door and dropped off a mask she had left over from before this corona thing started. She sewed some Star Wars fabric over it. Looks pretty cool to me. Really sweet. I miss her and my brother.

Dodgersgirl, that is great that you have a shopping to help you out. I feel more comfortable with a mask for getting groceries also. Going to stick to places that don't require a bus more often.

Dodgers- Angel Program sounds good. Wish we had it here. I hope you get all items on your list---scavenger hunt !!!!!!

Mara- Fancy. Star Wars mask !!! Take a pic.

Mel- Maybe I can try to dress my cat. Not. Hahaha.

Hello Everyone,

just checking in. It’s been a strange couple of weeks with all the virus happenings. We just got a “stay at home” order here in Ohio. More stores and businesses will be closed. I’m staying home happily, worried like some of you, about my immunity being low.

I finished radiation on Thursday, just when the hospital was starting screening measures like questioning at the door and required handwashing before treatment. Nothing too severe at that time, but on Saturday they halted all visitors. DH and I are happy to be done with those daily trips. I have an even greater appreciation for healthcare workers. They keep showing up in scary times for the good of others, such dedication. Next up for me are scans on Friday, unless something changes. I haven’t had a bone scan for a year, (just chest, abdomen, pelvis CTs) so more nerves about that!

Take care all!!

Morning all.

Dodgers- I will see what I can find out about the Angel Shoppers. Thanks. Glad you got everything on your list but 1 item--Woohoo.

I need to vent. I have a guy friend. He is a guy and my friend, but not my "boyfriend". But we talk on the phone frequently. He is single like me. His life seems unaffected by all this virus thing. His job is one that is considered "essential". How do they determine what is "essential" I don't know. Anyway, he loves his job. So today he is excited about starting a new workweek. 8 hour days, 5 days a week. So no change there. He is remodeling his house. So he mentioned going by Lowes or Menards to pick up some items after work today. Yes, both stores are open--"essential" ??? He has a favorite restaurant. They ARE closed, for dine-in, but open for carry out. So he is going there for his supper. He went shopping for groceries this weekend at Kroger. Yes, out of some items, but he said he got what was on his list. The only sacrifice I see for him is that his church cancelled services on Sunday.

In the meantime, I am jobless due to the cancer. My volunteer activities have been cancelled. I have to shop online and/or wait for someone to volunteer to shop for me. I am fearful of going out in public and catching the virus. My counts are low. Even when my church reopens, I am fearful of being in the crowd. AND I have MBC.

Oh, and my neighbors across the street, husband and wife, both left for work this morning too.

I am getting to the end of my rope.

Candy, I am feeling the same. I do live alone like you and I think it gets to people like us that much more. My position is a little different than yours, I don't feel afraid of covid, as I think my dealing with cancer so long has helped the fear of the unknown of the virus. I do take it seriously, only go for essentials like groceries and come straight home. I only keep track of the bullet points of what is going on here in Canada. I cannot watch constant coverage as I am an anxious person and don't need to stress out. I just need to know what is and is not allowed right now.

I had a bad, weepy day, very depressed and though SIL dropped off my wonderful mask she made from an old one she had, I knew that we have to stay away from each other. They will want to distance. Normally, it would not bother me not to see them for a couple weeks but knowing I am alone just hit me hard. Cried far too long. I realized last night, I have to maintain myself through this. Not being fearful of the disease, because I honestly am not worried for myself, I do take the rules seriously for quarantine, I am fearful of regressing back into my black days after Mom died and all of that.

For this reason, I have institued indoor walking regimen to combat this as exercise helps me best. I do 5 minutes of a brisk walk and take 1 minute rest and do this till the 5 mins go for an hour in the morning. I may do this throughout the day. I hope this will help my mood keep stable as I am very resistant to taking drugs. I also will abide the rules set out where I am and hope people do the same.

The only people I pity as I embark on my own mental health journey with the treadmill and songs is that my neighbours don't hear me singing. I tend to mouth the words to the song, even in public when walking but sometimes I can hear my voice. I am a terrible singer.

May we all be safe and find something that helps our mental health during these uncertain times. Once thing I know for sure, dealing with our disease is stresssful enough, let alone daily lives and family, we need to protect ourselves from too much covid 19 stress. Do not watch the news all the time or cut off coverage hours before bed. Do whatever you can do, just catch the bullet points, don't pay mind to worldwid events like Italy etc. Pay attention to your country and region as this is where YOU will be possibly affected. Good luck.

Thanks Mel. My mind is feeling better today from the exercise I did and I do my best thinking afterward.

Other than my exercise, I listened to updates about covid from my prime minister and then my Ontario premier. Keeping up to date that way. Not following too close otherwise.

Just doing some laundry and only outdoor activity today is taking garbage out. I have plenty of supplies. Just checking my spinach in the fridge and taking out the paper towel keeping them dry in my dryer, then putting back in package. Makes it last long enough for me to eat. I also wound up with a lot because my niece brought me a lot of it and I already had a nice big bag of it. No room in freezer to keep it either, lol

It’s gloomy and rainy and doesn’t help with the mood. I think this is anxiousness setting in for a lot of us. I’m trying to stay positive and realize somehow it has to disappear but what if we keep re infecting each other. I know we build immunity to it but we have none to start with. Makes me fear listening to anything. I’m just worried I don’t want to get sick. My son is still working. He’s essential. My DD is also essential. So they both work. I have a little tummy ache. But I’m thinking nerves?

Pots~Hello darling I always have you and stilivin in my mind. It’s good to see you and you can only self distance with your own. My dh and I don’t know what to think as far as when it is safe to go outside and talk to people. Regular store runs. Shopping just because we want to Maybe the good thing to come out of this is companies will see they can still be productive with telecommunicating. Especially, since id love to have my DH here more often. Then just weekends.

Hope everyone is sparkling sanitized!! Wipe a door knob for me.

My day ended pretty well. Did take the garbage out. Made a few dollars on my earning sites, watching videos, answering surveys etc. Talked on the phone with a good friend. Watched a couple of tv shows. Good day after my walk all in all. Whitened some socks soaking in oxyclean a few hours. Very mundane but good.

thanks for sharing Mara! It’s SUNNY outside today.... no rain. Maybe we will walk. My son and dd got essential Letters From their employers saying they can be on the roads. But the rest of us are “sheltered in place” crazy feeling just hearing that, something I have never experienced before....