Waiting

I posted a few days ago about the issues I've been having. (Topic- Not sure what I'm looking for), but I need to brain dump. I hope that's okay. I have a lot going on up there.

As I wait for my appointment, I worry about what's going to happen. I've started getting a pain in my left armpit and I'm worried that maybe it's in my head. That i'm conjuring up more issues to go along with what I've been dealing with for the last 6 weeks. What if all of this is all in my head? I'm worried that their going to find something and I'm worried that they won't. I want to know what's behind all of this.

I keep going over all the reason why I have nothing to worry about (cancer-wise). I'm young, I have no history of BC in my family, I had children young, I never really took oral contraceptives. ( which is how I have 3 children at 28), I don't smoke or drink, but I'm overweight and I don't always make the best diet choices and I could probably exercise more. My odds of having cancer are very low, but there's that small voice in my head that keeps telling me that it's not impossible.

I think once I know, either way, I will be able to accept the results and move forward from there to the next step.

Thursday can not get here soon enough.

I feel like I'm going crazy.