Lumpectomy tomorrow

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etnasgrl
etnasgrl Member Posts: 650
edited February 2020 in Surgery - Before, During, and After

I just need a safe spot to vent for a bit, before my surgery, to folks who "get it."
My lumpectomy and sentinel node biopsy is scheduled for tomorrow morning. My husband and teenage son are coming with me. I am so blessed that they will be there for support. But....I still feel so incredibly alone in this "journey." I believe it's because I try not to share too much of my feelings because I don't want to worry them. They are worried enough.
Today, when I woke up, the first thing on my mind was the sentinel node biopsy. It dawned on me that this time around the tumor is more aggressive, since it is HER2+ and the chance that it has spread to the lymph nodes is greater than the last time I went through this. Yes, it's smaller than my previous diagnosis at less than 8mm, but given that it is more aggressive, it can spread faster.
I know that there is not a single thing I can do about it, yet I can't seem to stop my mind from going down some seriously dark paths. Granted, I just had the biopsy last week, learned it was cancer on 13th and am now having the lumpectomy, so things are moving fast.....which is GOOD....but I swear, my mind NEVER SHUTS OFF.

I hope that y'all are doing well and thanks for reading this.

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  • orangeflower
    orangeflower Member Posts: 146
    edited February 2020

    Hi etnasgirl. I understand, I'm going through a similar experience. My surgery is Wednesday and I'm terrified, all I can think about is cancer ever since I was diagnosed a month ago (at age 41, like you). I'm so sorry you're going through this. Hang in there, and please keep us posted on how everything goes.


    Danee

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  • etnasgrl
    etnasgrl Member Posts: 650
    edited February 2020

    Hey there Danee78!

    I'm so sorry that you find yourself here. It's the club no one wants to join, that's for sure! Although I will say that this place is truly amazing. There are SO many incredible people here and I have learned a ton over the years. These message boards are truly a great resource.
    That being said, I do know how terrifying all of this and overwhelming and life changing. I wish you all the best for your surgery on Wednesday, you are going to do wonderful!! ((((Hugs))))

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  • bcincolorado
    bcincolorado Member Posts: 5,758
    edited February 2020

    So sorry you are going through this. Glad you have support at home. Hope you can get results soon to get past this part and into treatment soon.

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  • keepthefaith
    keepthefaith Member Posts: 2,156
    edited February 2020

    It is good that things are moving along quickly.You may feel a sense of relief after the tumor is removed; at least I know I did. You will probably get your results fairly quickly. The surgery for me was pretty easy. Just make sure you don't lift anything heavy for a while, use ice for a few days and maybe get an open-front sports-type bra to wear for a wk or so. Rest when you need to, take care of yourself and allow others to help!:)

    Best wishes to you both:)

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