So overwhelmed!

I felt the same way, etnasgrl, in the beginning. I had myself at deaths door. As you can see from my signature I have both at the same time. I was originally diagnosed as HER-2 negative so Im halfway through my TC treatment. Then an amendment came to my biopsy which suggested I had enough HER-2 positive that I also need to take Herceptin for a year, so Im starting that with my 3rd round.
Im sorry you're having to deal with this. I am working too. My boss is very supportive. I take off 1 day for chemo because it takes so long and then on Friday after my Neulasta shot kicks in because it puts me flat out for 2-1/2 days.
Once I had time to wrap my head around all that is going on and do lots of reading, I am much calmer and just ready to get on with it. I hope that for you too.

I had done a lot of research, especially on this site, so knew what treatment would be recommended before I met with my MO. Taxol is sometimes called "chemo lite," and many women tolerate it relatively well. I took a half day off on treatment days (Friday mornings) but worked the rest of the week. I chose Fridays because I knew the first day or two you feel good (thanks partially to the steroid you'll get with the pre-meds) and wanted to preserve my weekends. I'd start to droop a little late Sundays, feel kind of lethargic Mondays, and by Tuesdays was starting to pick back up. I never felt nauseated, never felt sick--at the worst, just low energy and heavy--like it was harder to get up out of a chair than normal. My husband took over most of the food prep. I'd recommend a *lot* of protein--I really pushed it, including eggs every day, red meat 4-5 times a week, a protein shake every day. My blood counts stayed good throughout. (In fact my MO told me I was the only patient she'd see who was actually making blood through chemo.) Some foods will taste weird and I believe a lot of us find the exception is sweets, plus chemo is a time to treat yourself. I ate chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream every day.

There are great dx- and tx-specific threads--look for the Triple Positive one (it'll have good info on Herceptin) and the Weekly Taxol one. There will also be a "Starting Chemo ___ 2020" thread that you should favorite. It's great for giving/getting support from people going through what you are at the same time. I also kept an eye on the threads that started one-two months before I did--lots of great advice from people who were farther along in the process.

You'll get through this and come out the other side.

"Overwhelmed, scared, dreadful.....yea, that about sums it up, lol!"

Yup. This whole journey has been a roller-coaster, and finding out I would not just finish out my herceptin//perjata and be on my merry (hormone-blocking) way but instead need 10 more months of Kadcyla was another horribly discouraging turn. But I keep trying to remind myself to be grateful we have this therapy available! Doesn't always work, but we made it through chemo and I am confident you can as well. And these therapies really are game-changing -- our prognosis is so much better than it would have been even 20 years ago!

Hang in there!