Roller Coaster

I don’t think anyone likes this ride of waiting. I’ve been here reading all of you since early December and my heart and thoughts are with you all no matter what part of the ride you are on.

In early December I went in for my routine mammo, thinking “yuck” but fully believing it would be as it’s always been “all normal”. Let the ride begin.

I was informed there was a suspicious area and I needed to come back for another mammo and an US. Ok starting up that hill of anxiety but still feeling it’s nothing. On the US there’s a decent cyst. Still not concerned. Radiologist brings me in and shows me the little cluster of microcalcs. First dip and heart drop.

I’M a researcher. I know this is most likely nothing serious. The radiologist wants a core biopsy so I’m more anxious about that procedure than the results. I meet with a general surgeon thinking I’m going in for the biopsy that day and “whoop” no we don’t do that here have to send you somewhere else. Grr

I finally make it to the breast specialist, who is wonderful, I’m told that it’s a cyst let’s aspirate and these calcs should “layer”, fluid is right color, no blood cyst deflated, no worries most likely b9 see you in six months. Yay ride over.

Two days later I’m back on the roller coaster. Fluid comes back with atypical cells and lets do a core biopsy. Now the waiting has begun again. I’m at a loss and trying to stay positive. I hope there’s some room left on the ride with you all. I’ll hold your hand if You hold mine.