First post and in need of some perspective

Did you have a CT scan? If not, I don't understand how something was found on your liver from just a mammogram. But you are at an age when a fatty liver is not uncommon - found on CT scans.

As another poster said, I watched Netflix, and asked my doc for some Ativan, which helped a lot. Honesty even if I didn't take it, it helped! I also took walks. I bought a few books (Mayo Clinic's was the best) but soon learned not to research until I knew what I was dealing with and also learned to avoid info that increased my anxiety.

This site is great. But even here, wait until you know what your tests say.

These days a lot of us escape chemo thanks to the Oncotype Dx and other tests. It's hard waiting but you'll know what lies ahead soon.

The holidays really make things harder. A friend of mine is dealing with possible ovarian cancer and has been assertive about hearing back from them but it still took until today.

Hi there Samibel,

First, let me tell you you are going to be fine. I needed to hear it from others who are some years out with their dxes. 9 mm is pretty tiny, and please remember that odd things in our bodies don't necessarily mean cancer. I hope your doc will order a PET scan and put your fears to rest. It is perfectly normal to have high anxiety during this time-your life is threatened, for pete's sake, and anxiety is an expected reaction to having some threatening entity seemingly trying to invade your body at present. By now you've probably got some more information and that helps, some.

First, don't fight the anxiety. Some say keep busy, and I kept working throughout all my dx tests, meetings, and tx. THAT helped (I'm a university professor and found working with students kept my mind fully engaged when I was in classroom and for a bit I wasn't thinking of cancer). I read a bunch of inspirational posts here from women who are decades out from their dx; that helped. Cancer isn't an immediate or even distant prediction of death anyway--remember that. It's just a disease, like heart or diabetes or arthritis, that can be treated and often cured--a "one and done" (only we don't ever really know that-so we have to be vigilant the rest of our lives). Finally, I asked my surgeon for a low rx of Xanax and used it judiciously during the first weeks. He was glad to give it to me, so select your medical team wisely and make sure in addition to their expertise that they have good rapport with you, too.

Hope this helps.

Claire in AZ

Everyone is giving you good advice about distracting yourself, asking for anxiety meds, etc. As Claire said, your tumor is very small and grade 1 which are both very favorable re: treatment. The finding in your other breast could be something as minor as a cyst. I had a small (7mm) tumor in one breast and a fibroadenoma in the other. If you read my stats you will see that I had bilateral mastectomy but that was only b/c I have the BRCA1 mutation, not b/c of severity of disease. Hold on tight and try to remember that your odds are very good.