My Husband, My Life, My Love, My Family, My Cancer

Booboo, I really did enjoy myself at my brother's house. The mexican food was awesome, just the way I like it. I was able to eat quite a bit as well thanks to digestive enzymes. Those are little miracle workers. It was good. They gave me a gift certificate to a restaurant I like to go to, some Ferrero Rocher, and a thermal knapsack to bring groceries home in. Will be filling with about 10lbs of weight and using on treadmill tomorrow. Unfortunately, everyone except my DB was kind of sick but they still came and celebrated. I did ask for no singing as I did not need it, just blew out candles and made my wish. Hope it comes true. Nice to have family that still looks after special occasions. It is very much appreciated.

Sondra, glad to hear they wll be discharging you tomorrow. You'll sleep so much better in your own bed I am sure. Glad you are able to move with the crutches as well.

Mel, I hope your back took it easier on you today. Glad you have something that does let you tell people to go away. Nothing worse than having to get up when not feeling well. I have controlled entry and certainly have not missed solicitors since I moved away from my condo.

Good Evening! It was a ca-ca-crazy weekend with my mother here. She is 91 and requires a lot of management. She still thinks she can help with dinner, or host all the guests and then she quickly gets overwhelmed, exhausted, wheezing and emotional becuase she can't do things anymore. She's lost her filter and just "stuff" comes out of her mouth. She hurt several family members' feelings last night at the big dinner, and then felt awful about herself after she realized what she'd done. But not enough to apologize. So she's a lot. I will be tired tomorrow....it was a lot of cooking and cleaning up and then having two big dinners with family, then her flight was delayed. I'm glad to be home and will be in bed soon. But here are my sister and I being goofballs at the airport becuase we promised my mom we wouldn't leave the airport until her plane took off.

Thank you so much Chicagoan.

Moomala, sorry to hear about the stress your Mom caused. Even if you know what it's like, still hard to deal with it. Glad you had your sister with you. Love the picture.

Sandra F, good luck with rads. May they offer well needed relief. Ask for nausea and indigestion meds ahead of time. May help to avoid the worst SE.

moomala~Love the pic... you look alike.... looks like you're having fun with your sister. Mom are always semi-annoying regardless, I know I am. It's all out of habits and love. Get some rest. I am resting my back today. Have no choice Love to all

waving to Tanya!!! candy~ Sondra~ hope you're coming home soon!!!! Hope you got some rest. Pain free..

Sondra, so was the sacral met the only dx that came out of this? Did I miss something? Pinched nerve? Bulging disc? I am SOOOOo glad you are going home. You're going to be so much more comfortable there. Now - keeping in mind that I took a giant leap with my finances and was nowhere near ready to retire but I'm 63 and sometimes you just have to take that leap even if it seems uncertain. Your comfort and happy factor is so much more important and I'm guessing your partner may just be willing to help you with that confidence. I hope you can negotiate the terms to your liking and get into a nice new place with a walk-in shower.

Runor, I have some hair-curling stories about the things my mother said this weekend to vulnerable people who just want a mother, sister, aunt, grandmother, mother-in-law who is proud of them and loves them. Largely she is a man-hater and although I'm a boomer and could have easily stayed in the man-bashing zone along with a lot of my friends I have long side dropped the idea that men are really any different than women when it comes to emotional health informed by trauma. She is offensive and thinks she's being funny. I think what's different now that she is older is that she won't give up. I can tell her she's hurt someone's feelings with a certain sort of comment about their work, or how loud they're talking but just a few moments later she's back at it again.

Big snow coming today so I'm going to get groceries early and make some soup for tonight's dinner.

I realized yesterday that now that I've gone part-time at work I am working just to pay my insurance. My insurance premiums and deductlbles all just went up so I am fairly certain that to cover myself with insurance is more than I make per year. Not happy with this information so since I am 63 and not yet eligible for medicare I think I may need to re-visit SSDI and get myself kicked over to Medicaid. Ugh. I hate doing this. I don't mind utilizing the resources - it's just all the maneuvering. I would so much rather spend my time at my piano or withy book.

exactly. Like my spine? Ugh. Noooooo I guess for sure cancer just happens. My Bff’s closest aunt and I am close to her as well. She just found out she has aggressive cancer and she is a getting a double mastectomy this month. I’m so upset for her. I know how she feels I know that fear. Seriously. Enough of cancer. Enough for us all.

Oh Sondra, what an awful night, sorry for you and the family.

Scans are done, results tomorrow. Gonna try to relax now.

Thank you for the birthday wishes everyone.

Sondra, I am so sorry you had to experience the pain of the other family. Your issues do matter and your worries matter as well. Yes you are lucky you are going home but making your home the way you like with the challenges you are having is a big stressor for sure. Hope it will ease up soon.

Mel, I am also so sorry your back is being awful to you. Cancer certainly does suck and when it makes us unable to do what we need to, it is terrible. Healing thoughts to everyone here.

I did not get much done. Decided to get one more piece to complete my at home laundry. I have wanted to be able to wash my fuzzy blankets. I could not fit them in the tiny spin dryer attached to the portable washer. If the water is not spun out, it takes all day to dry a blanket. To that end, got a panda spin dryer which will hold a lot more laundry and I can spin the water out. Then toss it in the tumble dryer and it will take way less time. This should be all I need now. Just did not want to kill my little tumble dryer by running it the whole day. This new system should run very well. It should come Wednesday. Looking forward to it.

Sondra, glad you are home and slept in your own bed. I can relate to the crying without feeling sad as well. It is a way to relieve emotional pressure for sure. Thanks for listening to my tales of laundry too.

Daniel~ waving to Leslie and Gabriel! Thanks for touching base. Loving the news!!

Another OG checking. Loving that!

yassssss Mae!!!!! Yessssss!!!!!!

Hi all. Well winter hit here. Last night temp 9 degrees with wind chill below 0. Snow on the ground. So didn't go to the church this morning for the secretary thing. Pastor said he was ok with that- texted him. Still waiting on PET results (done Saturday).

Mae- Woohoo on stable scans.

Sondra- Glad you are back home.

All with pains- Moomala, Sondra, Mel- hoping the pain eases today.

Quiet day for me.