Life, or spiritual coaches during survivorship

I have to put a disclaimer in this post before I get into to my question under this topic...I am fortunate to be in the place I am and I acknowledge there are much bigger "fish to fry" for other people, and maybe even myself. I am now 37. I was diagnosed with BC when I was pregnant and 34 when I was diagnosed with BC. Went through chemo, surgeries and radiation. I had my last reconstructive surgery a year ago. And right now, I am cancer free. So like I said, I am fortunate. I'm not sure if anyone else has felt this way, but even when I was diagnosed and in the trenches of treatment, I felt like there was a bigger purpose for this having happened specifically to me. Not getting into the science of all of it. Now that I am beyond the bulk of my treatment, I have been trying to navigate and sort through these feelings. It's not so much a depressed feeling. But I definitely feel a heaviness on my heart and a calling for something....not sure what...YET! That being said, I have spent time in the last year, reading the self-development books, watching video's, on the search for self-discovery, etc. Some of it has been great for mindset. But not a lot of action on my part. Admittedly, that's on me. I definitely need someone to keep me accountable. I am in a spot where I would like to would with a life coach, or spiritual coach. When you go through something like this, I almost feel like it should be integrated in our treatment. Anyway, here's my question...has anyone ever heard of financial resources that contributes to the cost of something like this? It is an investment. I know the investment can vary of course. It's not that I don't want to pay for some of it. It's my choice. I must be reasonable with that. But it is difficult to prioritize the cost of this, when there are so many other things in life that this could be used for. I'm not sure my husband gets it, so it's difficult to explain, and get him on board, with spending money on something like this. I could maybe save up for it, but it's tough to put in the waiting. When I have already had this heaviness/ calling for almost 3 years. I almost feel guilty bugging people with a question like this. But I suppose this is what happens for some people during survivorship. And I guess I just never know if someone knows of a grant or sort of scholarship. Thanks friends!