33 year old, recent bride, frightened (breast lump)

Hi everyone,

I just turned 33 last month and got married last week. Life was finally looking up. 2 Days before my marriage, my husband felt the change in my breast he was like what is that? I touched it and immediately said "uh oh, this is not good"

We have no history of cancer in my family but still..

It was a HUGE, HARD lump, felt like at least 2 cm / 1 inch.. Felt like I had a marble inside my breast. (outer right side corner) Sometimes I feel like it moves, sometimes I feel like it's attached. I am losing it

Immediately went to my gyneco, who touched it and was like "yep, I feel it". He said wait until your period is over and then do a mammography and ultrasound.

Thankfully I was somehow able to enjoy my marriage and blocked it off my mind. No one in my family knows but my husband.

It's been a little over a week of torture. I wanted to do the tests earlier but the doctor said to wait until my period is over (in 2 weeks)

The lump shrunk, I could swear. Even my husband confirmed it, he said it definitely shrunk from about 2 cm to now the size of a chickpea or even a pea.

I called the doctor to say it shrunk, he said do the tests anyway (which makes me concerned maybe he believes it's something serious and wants to make sure?)

I am extremely frightened. I still haven't told a soul, and I'm braving it for my husband like it's no big deal even if it is cancer. But deep down, I am terrified.

I know I have no right to say "I don't wanna die at 33" because there are people younger than me who lost their lives. But yeah, I don't want to die now. My life just FINALLY fell into place. Finally found the man I want to spend my life with. Finally found success in my career. Finally accepted and loved myself. I want to enjoy it even for a little bit.

I know I shouldn't "google" but I couldn't help it. I found academic articles that say if it shrinks to a smaller size, it could be a deadlier type of cancer.

I don't know what to think! I am sorry, I just needed to tell someone I am scared

Thank you moderator for your kind words of support, I really, REALLY appreciate it. I am feeling some relief in knowing that I am not alone at least. I am trying not to be nervous (when I read my question now it sounds ridiculous) but my brain is spinning

Alea, 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻 Great news!! Now you can focus on moving forward with your new fabulous life!! So, so happy for you!