Terrified!

well said yogatyme!

Sweet 52 year old. Us women have way too much guilt in our lives. Going to the Dr. to check this is a form of self care. So happy that you have already decided to take control of your health and are modeling this for your daughters. You are so smart already. This community will be here for you. Sometimes when we can't sleep it's because we are doing something really really good♡

Dear Slg1324 - We just wanted to welcome you to Breastcancer.org, and let you know that we're so glad you've found our Community. As you can already see, this is a wonderfully supportive place, so please stay connected to us.

We know the waiting is hard, but there are many other benign mases that can be found, so try to think positive and stay focused on other things in your life until your appointment.

Best of luck,

The Mods

Hang in there slg - sounds like youve got some severe anxiety symptoms. I am also in the diagnostic phase and suddenly started getting worked up on Saturday for no reason in the middle of buying a new sofa. Similar situation where I thought I was either going to faint or barf in public and elevated heart rate walking around most of the day. I was convinced it was The Cancer actively killing me right then and there. Rationally I knew that was impossible, its had a while to hang out and didn't rear its ugly head until it grew so fat it was obvious. But its tough to be rational when your mind starts getting on the crazy train and worries about the life upheaval hit.

I had to come home and get off the internet (also, dont Google during this phase!) and clean out a cupboard. Two shots of bourbon helped too. Tomorrow you start to get real answers to questions and can start to formulate a plan. That's a good thing!

Sig, I hope things go well for you today. All the anxiety is probably the main culprit to your feeling so sick. Hopefully you will have a clearer picture soon!!

Sig1324, I hope and pray you get some answers soon! This forum has been so valuable to me, reading everyone's encouragement! I am currently waiting on MRI guided biopsy results from Friday 10/4. They told me I should hear something by tomorrow. The waiting is awful but I try to keep myself busy and not think about it, but that's easier said then done for sure! Just try and take each step at a time and you've come to the right place for support. Everyone here has been in the same place we are now...sending positive vibes your way and keep your head up!

And SondraF good idea with the bourbon but I guess that would be frowned upon at 11 am in my case haha

sig1324- I am so sorry you are so scared and alone. I can relate to being terrified. Take a deep breath and blow. In the absence of a professional opinion, it is easy to think the worst. Try not to go there. Instead know that you have lots of things going for you right now: you found this site (which is amazing), You have family that loves you, You have people all over the world who also care about you very much. Sending you lots of hugs and prayers for an easy and benign outcome. Keep us posted-we care

Slg1234. I am convinced the discovery phase is the worst. I missed mammograms for a variety of reasons, and literally told the doctor that doing one was a waste of my time....good health, nursed my kiddos 2.5 years. The next day mammogram, U/S, biopsy and blam--cancer. Yogatyme had the best description. Its a roller coaster, but once you get started on treatment I found it much easier to deal with.

Best wishes.

Hi Slg1324: don't worry about the biopsy, mine was uncomfortable but it did not hurt. It took about 10 days for my results to come in. All through my process, the absolute worse was the waiting during which time I was just imagining the worst outcomes possible. Someone told me "just remember there will be a time when the first thing you think of in the morning and the last thing you think of at night will no longer be cancer." and that thought kept me sane. I hope you have an easy biopsy tomorrow and good results. We are all here for you. Hugs