BIRADS 4 mammogram 2 years ago - didn’t know

Hi all

I don’t want to offend anyone on here by throwing a pity party so forgive me in advance.

I’ve had a lump in my left breast for years. After a sonogram, that lump was flagged as a fibroadenoma.

2 years ago, I started feeling intermittent pain in my breasts, mainly in the left one. Since I’m experiencing early menopause, I thought it was hormonal but wanted to be safe.

I had a mammogram, the Dr didn’t say much to me afterward, said he didn’t find anything knew but asked for my previous sonogram for comparaison.

That’s where I messed up big time. I couldn’t find the sonograms and completely forgot to call back. They were supposed to send my results to my obi gyn. He didn’t call neither so I thought everything was fine.

A few days ago, I get a call from the lab that did the mammogram 2 years ago. They said I have to come and take my file. I assumed it was a routine procedure for them (giving back files after x years). I took the file and left, no one said anything to me.

I came back home and started reading the results: the lump is flagged BIRADS 4 with no sub classification.

I cried my eyes off, made appointments to get a biopsy ASAP.

Now I’m barely able to function. Fearing breast cancer is one thing but now I’m facing possible advanced breast cancer. If this lump was indeed cancerous, in two years, it had all the time to spread.

I’m now questioning every single thing. I don’t feel real changes in my breast. The lump actually feels a little smaller than before but i often feel tired, often have colds, sore throat, dull pain in my lower back etc. The breast is also more often painful (stabbing, burning or itching sensation )

I’m a mess right now