My Husband, My Life, My Love, My Family, My Cancer

I seriously have no idea why I bother even trying to move my body at all. I was getting ready for bed and the dog was making it clear he had to go out. So I went downstairs the same way I do every night, every day. Except this time. DH wanted to dry out the dishwasher because we washed a lot of Tupperware. He opened it to get the Tupperware to dry overnight. It wasn't pitch black, but I honestly would have no reason to look below. 🥺😔

I didn't know it was open and smashed my leg on the dishwasher door so hard I could barely walk. I thought my shin was broken. I was so upset. I didn't need another injury. I guess he figured someone would close it by then. He had left a few hours before. But damn. Come on people. I don't need things put into my way to hurt me. My leg is really hurting me again. My other rug burns haven't even healed yet and since I have a compromised immune system. My wounds take a little longer but these are directly on my knee. As soon as I bend my legs. They crack. It's a mess. But this one really made me so upset because it shouldn't have happened. I. Could have again broken something serious. 🥺💔 I'm falling apart and my shin is throbbing. Ugh! Walk safely tonight ladies.

Mae hope. You're ok and the burn is ok!!

We're a team for sure. Love you Gracie

Moomala~I sure did give it a good kick. Not a good luck streak here for falls. But hopefully I've had my years quota. It's rained all day here and I slept from 11:30 until 3:00 on and off. If I drink coffee, forget it. Up and down I go to the bathroom, every hour. Now I do drink a lot and I mean a lot of water. But I just don't want to have to go every freaking hour. I get all comfortable, and then I have to get up and trudge to the bathroom. Maybe I'll have to bring it back down to one cup a morning. Lately Ive been having 3!! But I honestly do love the taste!!!

Have a good rest of your day and I hope your shin bruise improves and I don't end up with red dots. Knowing my luck, I will. Hugs to all~M~

Santa~ thank you very much. I’ll give it a try. Hope it’s a big bottle. Got lots of bruises.

I have a puzzle/question for you. What do you ladies see in this picture ? A car door B a beach scenery at nighttime... ?

Micmel - Both. But saw beach scene first as I love the beach...and wish I was there right now...

Gumdoctor

Just got the call about Xeloda dose reduction starting next Saturday. Very hopeful I will do better with this tx regimen.

Gumdoctor

And now for your viewing pleasure..... is my softball sized egg on my shin. I have new meaning to that commercial “I’ve fallen and I cannot get up”. You could connect the dots Ouchie.

lmao at another contusion. Lol that made me laugh out loud. It was a car door! But many people said the beach as well. It’s always what you least think it could be, it's always just too obvious. I know I need a bubble like that’s 70’s movie the boy in the bubble! I am constantly getting injured. If I’m honest, I have always been that way. Hope you’re doing well tonight ! ~M~

Ooooh! Shin busting! That's going to be there a long time! Can you imagine if you'd done that with a full glass of wine? And you dropped the wine? And SPILLED it? My god, the tragedy that was actually avoided. What a relief. Sheesh. (I am kissing the booboo while keeping a firm grasp on my glass of wine).

micmel. When is the long awaited day you and your DH get to live in the same house together? That can't come soon enough, I think. Everything will be better on that day. Let's do a count down, months? days?

Gumdoctor so glad you're getting a dose reduction. I'm sure it will help. I still can't believe how magical it was for me on my off work. But, here I go again cycle 5 starts today. Ugh. I better stock up on groceries, etc today before the foot fire begins.

I've never had a garden but I have found that I really look forward to it every morning. And, I don't have a green thumb, at least I never did before now. Maybe age 71 is the magic age for me to grow stuff. My first tomato and cucumber tasted so good. My squash not so good. 💞

grannax it takes a couple of years to see what succeeds and what doesn't...

Janet~Hello sweet sister. I know now that busting your shin isn’t such a. Good idea. It’s getting a lot better already which is good. Now I believe I am dealing with a cold. It’s been a good three months since I’ve had a cold hit me. I don’t really want one at all. This cancer life sucks. I adore seeing you here my sweet friend. Hugs to you and hope you’re feeling well..🥰

BooBoo~ Hi honey. I’m a train wreck let’s face it. I don’t know what line I got into when they were not only assembling body parts. But brains apparently too. It’s like a marathon we didn’t even know we would have to run and never had the chance to train. I sleep constantly. How are you sweet woman? 💜

Grannax~I love home grown tomatoes. Just some salt. And I am in heaven. I am hoping you’ll have one for me! My DH makes too much money where his house is and I have lived in mine for 20 years I love it, and I love this area and do not like the DC area at all.

Santa~our tomatoes and cucumbers dug in. One year we didn’t have to replant them. They just appeared ! Delicious, And big and flavor galore!

Mae~I’m glad most of the burn cleared up. I hope you’ll see those red spots disappear. You wore yourself down, Miss travel guide correspondence.! My counts are trash this week and I’ve gotten a nice cold as well. Nothing like a summer cold. Feel better honey soon. Love the RV! Jealous.

Yndorian~I don’t think I have ever seen anything like that plant. That’s amazing. Looks like a rubber tree plant. I love the deep color. I always wished I had a green thumb. My mom liked to garden but it was something she did to get away from us kids. So I never really learned. I spent a lot of time alone as a child. I guess that it’s fitting I’m alone a lot now, that I am sick. Hugs to you lovelady!

Tanya~LOL at your adorable post.. you made me laugh and your comment to Runor! I promise I hold The banister. Ever since my ac heavy chemo my feet haven't been the same. Clumsy clumsy! Your entire post had me giggling. The driving and the NY crazy cab driver references!! I felt like I was watching you in your own movie. Lmao. Thanks for the smiles ! I adore you ladies !

Gracie always in my mind and heart...

Hey Mel,

I’m doing ok. After the bronchoscopy showed no cancer, I saw my Pulmonologist about the Sarcoidosis. She put me on 20mgs. of Methotrexate. So I’m on 2 chemo meds, and it’s kicking me pretty good. I know what you mean when you say you take a lot of pills. I’d be embarrassed if anyone opened my med cabinet. So many pills!

My onc gave me a script for another PET scan in August, so everyone is waiting to see where I stand after it. I suspect the Xeloda has stopped working because I have pain in both hips (one of the met areas). But we’ll see.

Looking forward to our Maine vacation week after next. I will be trailing Mae with eating some lobster and seeing the sites. It’s so peaceful there. I absolutely love Maine.

Anyway, hope all is well with my MBC sisters, and hope you are healing from your injuries, Mel.

Love to all,

Boo

P.S. whenever I type my name, this app cuts off the “e” in Laurie....so I’ll just sign my nickname....

Micmel- Gotta love Corey right. They need to have commercials that show the reality of MBC. But they won't.

Hugs.

BooBoo~I am glad the endoscopy was not cancer good grief the things we start to Go through, once we have cancer.

It feels like we got stuck in the colonies. While everyone else was a handmaid( not that I would ever want that, to me that would be another form of torture we'll say MS) or a house keeper, or food preparation group.then there are the elite, who have the best of it all always. But us in the colonies are bare knuckled, drinking toxins to kill other toxins, while some sores fester in the inside and the outside of those who have the colony disease (cancer), clumps of hair lay places where we sleep and every morning a new person feels a sickness like a cold or chest wheeze starts to settle in and everyone gets worried.

It's like living in a place you'll never get out of. In one scene they say. We sleep, we work, we live to die here. For us it's: we take medicine to extend our lives to live for our loved ones. We live to live. It's just a dark cloud following us all. The pains that pop up are like little terrorists, sticking us with stun guns. Always on edge. Filled with worry. A lot of parallels in our lives and that show for sure!

August is a while off for the pet scan those pain most likely will fade. Are you being more active? I know it had pains in. Places I didn't know existed until I was working with taking care of my father. July 11 it will be two months since he passed, yesterday his golf magazine was delivered. It was a tough thing. The love is always there. The pain also never leaves. Everyday I rip the same scab off. Clean the blood and move alone. What choice do we have ? Love you sweet woman

Grannax~I agree I was also cracking up at thinking about Tanya driving all crazy around NYC. That is so funny. You ladies always keep me laughing. I. Adore your humor. (Mae). lol. (Runor) lol

Marianelizabeth~clapping hands. Hello sweet woman. I know I had asked about you several Times. I like to think that when you're not here, then you're working on living and being happy. I love seeing you here. Please don't worry about “keeping up" just be yourself. We adore you anyway! ❤️ Glad you're back 🥰!!

Candy~ lol first there was Julie, then I remember Alice, then the dressed up college professor. If that were me. I'd have goo hanging out of my mouth on the desk asleep two hours into that class. I could never ever work. With the levels of medicines I take. They once suggested I sit and monitor shoppers, I said sure I'll give it a try, but I'm telling you, you'll probably loose a lot of merchandise, because I'll be napping by noon. Guess they didn't find that attractive.

Love you ladies Love you Gracie, you're on my Mind..