Chemo Starting September 2018

sunocean - I so hate for you that you are dealing with this at such a young age. I’m glad you’re healing up well from the rads. I have to disagree with your sister - my forties were a time of remarkable growth. I started walking and running regularly and learned a lot about myself through a divorce and buying/fixing up an old house on my own. But yeah, cancer makes your life go to shit. Maybe not permanently, but it sure does fuck you over. I’m find myself getting impatient with people who complain about getting old. I WANT that privilege and I’m terrified I won’t get it. Like you, I try to stay thankful that I’m here and feeling better than I did last year.

wanderweg and brink thank you for your words.

Wanderweg thank you I hope these are years of growth and also agree with you too about getting impatient with people who complain about getting old. I WANT to grow old! Bring on the wrinkes..bring on the gray hair and varicose veins!! I want that privilege!

Today is my birthday and I turn 40. This morning I was so emotional reading all my birthday cards. I'm thankful for every day and pray I get 40 or more years!!

As much as this board has helped me, it also reminds me every day about the what ifs, the possibility of recurrence and all that shit goes to my head. So for that reason I am gonna lay off the board for a while. I think my body and spirit need it. I need to focus on myself. And i thank God everyday for having PCR after chemo and surgery and having a good outcome so far. I need to train my mind to stop thinking about the what ifs, recurrence, and only keep focusing on the what is ...the now, the present. Today I am alive and healthy. Today I beat stage 3 breast cancer...today I am happy. Love you all. Thank u for so much support.

Happy birthday sunocean! I was really enjoying my 40s before bc. Hoping to enjoy them again, now that, like you, “today I have beaten stage 3 breast cancer." I also went off the boards cold turkey last month and it has been really good for me not thinking about cancer and recurrence all the time, though it has still been hard trying to figure out what my life is or should be now. We miss you on the FB group but I think you are right to refuse to use it! Good luck with the next steps. I'll be thinking of you.

Being, same to you! I was sorry to read about the Xeloda SE's, but glad your MO agreed with the decision to quit. Wishing you the best.

ucfknights - After finishing AC I just had 1 follow-up appt with my MO to discuss hormone therapy, which wouldn’t be needed for your mom’s case. I will have a 3-month follow-up with my breast surgeon (along with mammogram and ultrasound),and then every 6 months after that.