Waiting for biopsy result (again)

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mom2e
mom2e Member Posts: 10
edited April 2019 in Not Diagnosed With a Recurrence or Metastases but Concerned

Hi. Haven’t been here in a while. I’m over 8 yrs since my last Dx. After BMX did 5 yrs of letrozole, which was hellish. Prior Dx was 6 years before that, so I’m 15 years into this swamp.

Found a small lump in my left tram flap last week, right under the skin, same quadrant as both prior cancers (2004 and 2010). Saw MO, got US, BIRADS 4. Had surgical biopsy yesterday. Results expected Mon.

I’m a single mom of 2 (12&15) and I’m losing my mind. Living on Xanax to get through these days. Last recurrence was a complete shock. Stats don’t seem to apply to me. I’m terrified I’ve got stage IV.

I suppose I may get a good news kind of shock on Mon, but I’ve been through too much to feel hopeful. Found metastatic thyroid cancer on PET scan after last recurrence (test was not indicated, but I insisted), so had total thyroidectomy and partial neck dissection (22 lymph nodes removed) immediately after my BMX/TRAM surg infection resolved.

I hate this I hate remembering all the details of my previous trauma. I hate not being able to believe this could be ok.

Thanks for reading. Blessings to all of you








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  • AliceBastable
    AliceBastable Member Posts: 3,461
    edited April 2019

    Sending you a big gentle hug. I've had the cancer buffet, so I know how you feel (even though they're different ones). And I'm waiting to get a biopsy scheduled that could change the grade of one that I thought was over and done. Try to do something nice for yourself this weekend.

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  • Moderators
    Moderators Member Posts: 25,912
    edited April 2019

    Hi mom2e, and welcome to Breastcancer.org,

    We're so sorry you're here and worrying (again), but we're glad you've found us. As you can already see, our community is a great place to find support. We're all here for you.

    Sending lots of love and positive vibes for benign results on Monday. Please keep us posted with what you find out.

    --The Mods

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  • KBeee
    KBeee Member Posts: 5,109
    edited April 2019

    Waiting is the WORST!!!! I am so sorry you are dealing with this stress again. Hoping it is benign. Please keep us posted.

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  • mom2e
    mom2e Member Posts: 10
    edited April 2019

    Thanks to all for understanding, kind words and being there. Only one day to go until results. Every ache and pain is making my mind race. Keeping busy today and cancelled my work meetings for tomw, when I’m supposed to get “the call.” Someone needs to invent the instant biopsy result. This is cruel and inhumane.


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  • edwards750
    edwards750 Member Posts: 3,761
    edited April 2019

    So sorry mom and Alice. No one should be subjected to dealing with cancer issues again. Once is more than enough.

    Diane

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