How do you cope?

Ugh - I hate the "no results over the phone" thing!  It creates unnecessary stress, in my opinion.  I don't have much advice, unfortunately, except that this part will soon be over and you can move ahead with whatever comes next.  Best of luck to you!

Do all the fun things you'd ordinarily do, plus some new ones. I went to an awesome concert the day after my biopsy. I remember the concert better than the biopsy almost a year later.

cecyc,

I'm not much help but wanted to say to please consider that you have not been diagnosed and you may not be. You absolutely have to allow yourself to have a little hope. The odds are definitely in your favor at this point.

Please consider calling your breast center and asking to speak with the nurse navigator. Your center should have one. Mine was so helpful and she gave me general information (not about my specific case) and after speaking with her, Ihad hope that I desperately needed. She also told me to download the calm app (blue cursive) and go through that several times a day. That helped. I also downloaded candy crush and made a goal to get through 20 levels a day. I also agree about Netflix.

My Bi-Rad was 4C and turned out benign. Please have hope. I'm praying for you.

Cecyc,

I am waiting too. I do have a definite appointment for the 10th of April, which is fine by me. I wouldn't want to be told over the phone, that is brave of you to ask. I will go alone to get my results but want to be able to ask questions then and there, over the phone would feel so cold and impersonal to me. I shall have some questions written down and shall take a note pad with me.

I had the biops on Saturday 30th March - went straight to buy a packt of cigarettes ( having stopped I absolutely needed one then!) came home and went to bed with healthy sandwiches and ginger and turmeric tea and watched who-done-its until I went to sleep. The next day I was out and about but yesterday only did what I had to do and back in bed with junk tv - ditto today, so far. I am not thinking about it all of the time but of course it is always there - I am sure my lumps are not benign but am now resisting 'researching' anymore on line. We shall both know soon enough and 'it' will or will not have a specific name. Our medics will tell us what treatment they can offer, if we need it, we can then go away and do some specific research and decide what we want to do.

Tomorrow I have arranged to go for a long walk with dogs and a friend but for most of the time, I know that I will just curl up. The waiting game is alway tough, isn't it? The waiting always ends though and meanwhile we just have to get through as best we can - anyway we can.

The Artist's Way by Julia Cameron - or some such, is not a bad idea at times like this --- I think I might do it again tomorrow but I just feel wounded at the moment - and need to just curl up.

Love be with you all xxx

Strength comes in many forms. I am using this waiting time to let 'it' sink in slowly - 'it' not being certain but possible and in my case probable. I am allowing myself a sort of freedom, a freedom to do what I feel like doing as opposed to what I should be doing but in that I am lucky, lucky that, apart from darling pups, I live alone and have no everyday responsiblities now that I have deferred my studies until this adventure/ordeal is over - I do think I might be a bit grumpy to live with at the moment so it is just as well I'm alone.

For those of you who have loved ones at home it must be terribly hard in other ways than it is being alone with it.