Tomorrow cannot come soon enough!
I know you all know what I am feeling but I wanted to write it out and vent a little.
I feel like I have been waiting forever to meet with the medical oncologist for Oncotype testing results when in reality, it has only been two weeks since the surgeon referred me to a medical oncologist and sent my sample for Oncotype testing.
So many decisions are riding on this appointment.
I met with the surgeon twice and had the usual batches of testing, from genetic testing for BRCA status(negative) to MRI and core biopsy.
When I went for my 2nd appointment with the surgeon, I was stunned when she told me it wasn't 1.3 cm, it was 3.8 CM! and she wanted me to consult with a medical oncologist to see if it can/should be shrunk before lumpectomy.
As a backstory, I also have an autoimmune disease, so I am petrified that some therapies, like immunotherapy, are not available to me. (not that I am a doctor, I just google too much, as we all do

The tumor is Estrogen and progesterone positive ( over 90%), HER2 - so I have my fingers crossed that I can take hormone therapy not chemo.-there I go again playing doctor

So, here I sit, until 9 AM tomorrow morning, rolling all the options over in my head again and again, and trying to plan for every eventuality. I know it is impossible.
I will think positive thoughts, keep my fingers crossed a little while longer, that chemo is not the plan just hormone therapy, and then a lumpectomy.
I never thought I would be HOPING for such things.
I am keeping you all in my thoughts, as we all struggle with the waiting,
Thank you for being here so I can vent!
Catherine
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Hi Catherine (same name as me - lovely name obviously).
I feel for you. Waiting is so hard. I am due to get results of my second biopsy tomorrow afternoon and just want to get on with things! I believe we might not even get to talking about treatment options then, so will have to wait even longer. It’s torture!
Sending positive vibes for your appointment tomorrow. I hope you get the best news as can be under the circumstances.
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Catherine,
We're so very sorry for the anguish you're experiencing in making your treatment decisions -- we know this is a very difficult time, between diagnosis and treatment, and we're all here for you!
Just know you'll feel much better once you have a plan in place. Keep us posted on what you decide!
--The Mods
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Thank you! I will keep you in my thoughts as well!
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Catob, I hope you get your plan in place soon because it does relieve some anxiety and part of the fears goes away
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hoping you get some good news soon (it’s amazing what we think “good” news is at this point!). Hang in there
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Oh Catherine we truly do feel your pain. No words can begin to describe how nerve wracking it is to wait on test results. I am the poster person for worrying so it’s especially difficult for me. My internist prescribe the generic version of Prozac and it does helptake the edge off.
I waited 2 weeks for my test results too. Pure unadulterated hell. The results of my test would determine whether I needed chemo or not so I can definitely relate. My results came in the day before I was supposed to meet with my oncologist. She ordered the test. My score came back@11 so I dodged chemo. Whew! I did have radiation treatments but they weren’t bad at all.
Hoping you get a similar result. Keep the faith and keep us posted.
Diane
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It was nerve wracking. Every time my cell would ring I'd jump,.torture. I actually missed the call and heard my dr's voicemail. Then I called her to make sure I heard her correctly . I hope all goes well for you.
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Thank you all. I have a very solid treatment plan that I am comfortable with. Your support and kind words helped get me there
Catherine
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