Concerns about indent and anxiety is taking over!

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micmash
micmash Member Posts: 39
edited October 2018 in Not Diagnosed But Worried

Hello everyone!

A little background on me. My mom was diagnosed with breast cancer originally at 41 yrs old. It returned and metastasized when she was 49 and she passed away only a few months later. In 2013 I had a large fibroadenoma removed from my left breast and have had 3 other biopsies at other times. I am 40 years old and still night nursing my 2 year old. Last week my left breast felt tender in one spot and my mind went in to overdrive. I have since over analyzed and given myself 32 million breast exams. Earlier today when laying flat on my back my left breast seemed to sink in a bit down toward my nipple. It looks totally normal when standing and only seems to be noticable when laying with arm lifted above my head. Now naturally I went in to a panic. My anxiety is off the charts. I had my husband check it out and be sees it but says he also sees it on the other side it's just not as prominent because my right breast has always been bigger and it stretches the skin out more when laying down so the dent/trough is not as noticable. I was tested last year for the breast cancer Gene and do not carry it. I see a breast specialist nurse for a breast exam every 6 months. I saw her in April. Had my yearly with my OB in late July and now have my 6 month breast exam with my nurse gal on the 18th. My OB gave me a very thourough breast exam in July and obviously had no concerns. Am I freaking out for nothing? I'm not sleeping and my anxiety is through the roof. I have two small children and and sick at the thought something serious could be wrong. Thank you for taking the time to read.

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  • micmash
    micmash Member Posts: 39
    edited October 2018

    I know noone has commented yet but I actually went in to see a Dr at my OBs office today. He did a very thourough breast exam and found nothing suspicious that concerned him. I feel a little bit better. But I was so worked up going in to this appt my blood pressure was 160/100. Any similar experiences or thoughts to share on this whole situation would be much appreciated.

  • Julysun
    Julysun Member Posts: 3
    edited October 2018

    my doctor said that breastfeeding can damage the tissue and if you have large breast cause them to sink in because of damaged ligaments. I had a private health check for a similar thing indent and sunken dimpled looking skin when lying down and he recommended I have a scan just to rule out bc as I have dense tissue . But i didn’t have money for private scan and nhs free doctor said it’s just damage from breastfeeding so no scan needed. I want to believe second doctor

  • Kalonis52
    Kalonis52 Member Posts: 134
    edited October 2018

    WinkingHi Micmash, Oh goodness..well, I really would not worry so much. It may be from the Breastfeeding so long on that Breast. I do not think it would be BC honey. Im sure your Doctor told you correctly. He will know for sure.  Im sure its the Breastfeeding. All that Tissue can be damaged from doing it so long. Having an US done would definitely let you know. Even more, a MRI with having the dense tissue. Just go with what the Doctor says. Its not good to over worry this. I know it is hard not to worry. But, I really think you are good. Just keep a watch out on it. Were all here for you honey. Good Luck and Blessings!

    Kaloni

  • micmash
    micmash Member Posts: 39
    edited October 2018

    Thank you Kaloni for the reply. Anxiety is such a funny thing. I really shouldn't be worrying, I'm in good hands. I see a wonderful breast specialist nurse at an oncology practice every 6 months. Once I am done breast feeding she will be sending me straight for a baseline mammogram and MRI and the I will have them repeated yearly. I'm not sure why my anxiety about this has spiked now, most likely my age and my mom's original age at diagnosis etc. Just breathe!!! Thanks for the words of encouragement! ❤️

  • Kalonis52
    Kalonis52 Member Posts: 134
    edited October 2018

    Hi honey, Oh yes, you are welcome. Please feel free to just come here whenever you start feeling Anxious. All of us go thru all this up and down rollercoaster stuff when it comes to our Breasts and Cancer. Its never fun. Yes, just tell yourself Breathe.....Maybe try a little Meditation. Meditation is a little hard for some people, but, when they can, it helps them so much in dealing with all this. .Its hard for me. My Brain wont shut off for even a second. ha. Well, let us know what happens. We be here....Blessings! 

    Kaloni

  • Floflo123
    Floflo123 Member Posts: 22
    edited October 2018

    H,I finally got my mammo results after a month.....in my letter it stated that there was 1 founding, dense breast....now my doctor just called me saying that that is a small density abnormality on my left side.......on my left side is where I can see/ feel a dent type of something(almost like when u take off sock and there's a line ) going for a ultrasound on the 31st I'm going crazy tho

  • Each_day_2018
    Each_day_2018 Member Posts: 154
    edited October 2018

    Micmash - I had finished breastfeeding about a year before my indentation started to appear. At first it was very subtle, not really noticeable except in certain light/positions. I went to my annual pap and mentioned it to the dr. Because I had an aunt pass away from BC in her 40s, she sent me for a mammo and US. Nothing really came of it, but I followed up with a breast surgeon and he told me it was natural changes from aging, breastfeeding, etc. I was only 29 at the time, so they really kind of brushed me off.

    Well Fast Forward 1.5 years. The indentation was becoming more pronounced and the nipple started to change directions. Again went for mammo and US. Followed up with the BS and he recommended a biopsy this time. Stage IIIC.

    Sounds like you're staying on top of it, but if at any time you don't think they are doing enough, PUSH BACK. I wish I had done that the first time I went. Everyone kept saying "Oh it's probably nothing", so that's what I assumed too. People sweep this under the rug and don't want to make mountains out of mole hills, but sometimes it's better to make a mountain that turns out to be nothing. I worried all 1.5 years until I had the biopsy done. If I'd just had it done, I would have saved myself all that worry. For me, the worry was validated, but I'll tell you, since finding out I have BC, I haven't worried one bit. I think it's the NOT knowing that is the worst part. If that will may the worry go away, do what you need to do!

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