Waiting for biopsy is killing my heart. Thoughts?

Literally I think. I've had 2 heart ablations and my heart has been racing steadily as soon as I get stressed/start thinking.

So me.

I'M ONLY FREAKING 40!

i do have an extensive medical history but nothing on the cancer spectrum. No family history of BC. I do have very dense breasts I was just told, and have always been told at every OBGYN appt.

After procrastinating when I was told I needed a mammogram a few months ago, my doctor handed me the script again after I went in for a UTI infection. I had to do a MRI so I scheduled both at same time. Insurance hadnt approved MRI and so I cancelled both appts and waited for MRI to get approved.

It finally did and I went on the 17th of Sept and had both tests done. Mammogram came back and I was told to come back for additional testing, but they only do this testing in the hospital. Ok, fine. Nothing to it I thought.

I'm barely thinking about this appt. I thought all was going to be ok.

Went into hospital and had another mammogram and then ultrasound. At the end of mammogram and during my ultrasound I got the bad vibe. Like the ladies were putting on a face. I can read people really well and especially at ultrasound the tech would not say a word. I want to shave it off as being a rough friday but I had a bad feeling.

My report states the following.

Findings: There is a persistent mammographic nodule in the 9:00 posterior right breast measuring up to 1.2 cm. Ultrasound evaluation was performed and demonstrates a complex multiloculated nodule measuring 1 x 0.6 x 1 cm. This has both solid and cystic components. There is some internal blood flow in the solid component. There is no acoustic shadowing. By ultrasound this is in the 9:00 right breast at 9 cm from the nipple. Refer for ultrasound guided core biopsy.

The more I google and the more I read scientific case reports the scarder I get. I know, I know, I shouldn't do this. Well what else am I going to do with my time. My biopsy is on the 16th. That was the soonest they could get me from my ultrasound appt on the 29th. I'm even on the call if there are cancellations list.

Some case reports state I have a 1 in 4, a couple others say 1 out of 3. Apparently I have a higher chance of BC because of the vascular (blood flow) in the solid part of the nodule, according to the stuff I read.

I'm so sick of waiting, it's hurting my mind and my body.

I have a feeling this is cancer. I'm trying to prepare myself for worst case scenario and than hope for the best. I've kinda been in the category of this is a 1 in a million chance this would happen type medical thing. I had it happen twice so far, and both times I ended up in emergency surgery. I feel as though I kind have bad medical luck. Recently had surgery back in January too. Not planned either but after a few day stay in hospital went into surgery to fix me. So medical shit is my thing. BUT breast cancer medical shit ain't my thing!

I need other women to talk to. Hear their stories, please ladies give me something to take my mind off of this.

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