Waiting game

so it's 4 weeks since I was told that I had breast cancer..my tumor was big, 10cm and had spread to the armpit. Then they wanted me to take all this testes : ct scan, mri, scanning of the skeleton and lots of blood testes...the answeer would be given to me when I had a appointment with a doctor..I have had pain in my hips and thighbone + lowerback and some stomach pain, and felt tierd.. so automatic I thought it must have gone in my bones + the cancer can still working "free" while waiting for treatment..so today was the day, I had my sister with me and when we came in the room with the doctor I told him that I had to stand because I had a hard time breating :0 BUT all my testes was fine, 5 lymphs was affected and stage 2..I don't know exactly what I want with this post..I just want to tell you that this is the hardest part and if you are feeling tierd or having some pains does not have to mean it has spread far I know I was a wreck during those 4 weeks..Good wishes to all of us