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Jadedjo
Jadedjo Member Posts: 469
edited July 2018 in Mental Health: Because Cancer Doesn't Just Affect Your Breasts

I noticed as I was trying to make supper and was going to fill the sink with water for dishes. 

My hands are literally shaking,like actual tremors, so bad that I gave up on doing dishes because I couldn't properly hold them without losing grip.

I know it's stress.

I've been trying to ignore the diagnosis all day just watch Netflix and relax. 

Guess I haven't been succeeding at the relaxing part I thought I was but didn't realize it til I tried to do simple housework.

All that's going through my mind now is not only did stress feed this darn tumor now it's taking away my ability to do daily tasks.my dishes can wait a day but I'm angry that this diagnosis is causing even more issues the i had to start with. Hopefully by tommorow I will have calmed down some that the shaking stops.

I should have known.i thought it was my fat fingers that were causing the typing issues when I was answering posts. Nope it was shaky hands.i don't know why I didn't pick up on it until I was making my chicken wrap for supper.

Not quite sure how to deal with it since docs office is closed until Monday and this is not urgent enough for urgent care. I guess I will just hope it fades enough for me to function later on.

The other one is my appetite which has gone nonexistent. Before diagnosis I would have been elated because less food means weight loss ( and I've lost 7 pounds since tuesday so it's been doing that) now I'm just going "what now what's next?isnt cancer enough?" 

Sorry I seem to be overflowing this forum. I think the most taxing thing since diagnosis has been the hit to my already fragile mental status and while  I'm seeing people  or calling the crisis lineabout it there's still gaps when I'm on my own and very,very lost.

Probably doesn't help that I'm only in the second day of actual diagnosis and have no clue about anything yet.

Thank you .

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  • WC3
    WC3 Member Posts: 1,540
    edited March 2019

    Jadedjo:

    A cancer diagnosis is an understandable shock to the system. You might have read in another thread that I knew I had cancer when I saw it during the second ultrasound. I literally walked out of there knowing it was cancer and I was fine for a while. Then I had to go off some medication...I did not know doing so would cause withdrawal. Then I got the actual ultrasound report and saw the size they measured it at and that there was a suspicious lymph node and that is the first time in my life I ever asked a doctor for a tranquilizer. I ended up not taking it but it was a rough few days.

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  • Scrafgal
    Scrafgal Member Posts: 631
    edited July 2018

    jadedjo

    I lost my appetite for the first week after diagnosis and didn't sleep much either. Once I had a treatment plan in place, one week later, things got better. Hang in there.

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  • Jadedjo
    Jadedjo Member Posts: 469
    edited July 2018

    @wc3

    I'm so sorry that you went through a medication withdrawal while dealing  with diagnosis. One of them is bad enough.both together must have been a nightmare.

    I pretty much knew too from both doctors reaction  but was in denial. The fact nobody would give me the info I asked for like lump size (I know every test measures differently) and stuff didn't help. Nobody is telling me anything about lymph nodes either even though I know they checked. I don't really trust doctors they don't take me seriously when I say something is wrong and say it's just because your fat. I had two not too serious issues that were not fat related and treatment was delayed.i haven't fully trusted them since.i question everything.medication they gave me ruined my stomach lining for the rest of my life because they "forgot" I was on it.

    Pretty sure I'm going to ask my doctor for something light on Thursday. Between the the staying awake for two days at a time  then passing out from exhaustion,the shaking I know I need something even if it is just a half dose.

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  • Jadedjo
    Jadedjo Member Posts: 469
    edited September 2018

    @scrafgal

    Thanks. I'm trying.

    I think the issue is they are treating me like a five year old. Don't worry little girl we'll take care of it. And I guess a lot of women do exactly that. I'm not  one of them I got burned too many times so I question everything.I don't trust them. And I have to wait three weeks just for the consultation with the BS.just a consultation. Before I got the diagnosis I was ok with the wait time but now I'm like how long do you plan to leave the bloody thing in there?!?

    With the wait times here who knows how much longer I will have to wait for the surgery itself especially if I have to go for  scan tests before but it's going to probably be 6 weeks or even longer more likely longer because they are going to do more serious cases first which they should but there are people like me with a killing poison in their breast wondering if it's spreading further.And that wait  is time for it to go from barely any treatment to all kinds of treatment because it got more serious.

    And that's making me angry and scared.

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