Ultrasound tomorrow, swollen lymph nodes and lump

I guess I just need to vent.. I've actually had swollen lymph nodes in my neck since mid April. I never suspected BC as my gyno has done exams, and I actually had an ultrasound in Sept. last year for my left breast. I check myself (not as diligently as I should apparently). After breastfeeding my daughter, my breasts changed a lot too. I had to try and get used to the new normal lumpy lol. Also, no swollen lymph nodes in my armpit which is where I thought it almost always heads to first. I've begged for a biopsy also and had to see a third doctor to finally have that referral which is also tomorrow!

After months of tests that I pushed for thinking it was my neck, I felt the lump in my right breast... I also got lovely c diff that was diagnosed as IBS until I pushed for that test too. Ended up losing about 14 lbs because of it!

So far I've had CT scans from my head to my pelvis and it only showed swollen lymph nodes in my right neck and right groin. Had an exploratory lap for the abdominal pains and all came back clear except for some bowel irritation. Also had hip X rays which only showed mild degeneration in my pubis symphasis.

I have had sharp searing pains in my sternum, neck, ribs and hand only on my right side. The only pains that have stuck around are my neck and hand. I wake up with a severe stuff neck every morning and can't lay a certain way. I also can't bend my hand under the pinky back and forth without extreme pain. Went to the walk in clinic and they said arthritis (no imaging as it's not swollen or bruised).

Keep in mind, I am only 28 years old. Every single doctors answer is that I'm too young to have a serious illness. It's so frustrating! I know my body very well. I even knew I would go into labor early with my daughter because I felt it. I'm hardly ever sick besides sinus issues, I work out, I eat healthy except for the occasional junk meal like pizza or ice cream. I just know I am not myself and I'm so deflated at this point because of the newly found lump and bone pain that I can't attribute to any injuries.. I have a little girl turning 3 next month and I'm just about to finish up my degree for teaching that I put off for years as I traveled with my husband during his military enlistment. We just bought a house 11 hours from our families so I'm also all alone.

I've been praying and trying to convince myself it's all in my head. Then I kick myself for not noticing the lump sooner given my last scare and my grandmother having had it years ago (caught very early and went into remission with only a lumpectomy and radiation). I know the "what ifs" are pointless, especially since I haven't been diagnosed with anything.

The lump: slightly above the areola, seems very small like a BB, but fixed and not moveable. Nothing like it on the left one.

Just hoping tomorrow yields good results and I'm going crazy for nothing 😔 I'm usually very upbeat and energetic, never sitting still and always outside doing something like hiking or at the beach or lake. So to say I hate being in this anxiety funk is an understatement!!

Shew! Glad to get that all out finally! Prayers to all you ladies struggling, fighting, or just looking for answers too!