Sickened with BIRADS 5, so scared and sad.

Hello everyone,

I am always looking in and reading these inspiring stories. The support system formed here is unreal, I posted up over a year ago and since then became a lurker. For years, I had this cancer halo hanging over my head due to my dense breasts and family hx.

I was told today I have more cysts in both breasts, typical since I was in my 30s. I never miss my mammo and sono appts! I had the usual heterogeneous dense breasts, no significant masses, no calcifications....what I never had before was the Birads5, now I have that.

Highest before was 4😣....

Now, there is a complex cyst in my right breast 1.7cm, mild interval in size and 2 hypoechoic nodules in left breast 0.62cm, and 2.3cm. The rest are cysts, 7 checked out okay in right breast and 6 checked in left breast.

My heart sank and yes, I was alone when that info came in, and immediately felt scared. The Breast specialist was clear that I need to biopsy on Tuesday both breasts. Walked out and cried in front of that hospital, could not do that in front of them😢.

I have fibrocystic breasts and always felt they were deathtraps....forgive me. Spent over a decade of repeated mammo and sonos. Now, I am thinking, my family is tiny but I must figure out how to tell them. I am a 47year old woman who spent 15years in bodybuilding and pays attention to nutrition, worked since I was 14, care so much about life and people in it. Had plans to work towards personal training so other women can know why I have no life😥, What now? Djmammo has been on point so much here, and so have you all. Thank you for making me feel we will all be okay, yes I am worrying if anything is spreading, and if it is cancer what are my chances, but I want you all to know this forum is really making me feel I can still be okay. I love what yall do!!❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

Hi Sabrina and I'm so sorry you are in such an awful waiting phase. I know it's really hard, but do continue to be optimistic since nothing is final until the biopsy results are in. Plus you betcha, so many of us went through a period of not-so-fun treatment but came out the other side cancer-free and stronger in many ways. And this is indeed a warm, safe environment with lots of smart, brave women to help see you through. Keep the faith.

I like the others am so sorry your here and you don't know until it's biopsied... I will say this... if it's not cancer time spent worrying is wasted happy moments.. If it is cancer you may find yourself in treatment later and wish you had found a way to enjoy the time of not knowing and being able to do something. I can say this because I have been there and I'm going through it again my biopsy is next Friday. No matter what it is you will get through it .. it just may not be a fun time. BC is not a life sentence for everyone... Best wishes and air hugs

Sabrina, I too will be thinking of you. No matter what happens, I think you will find that you are stronger then you knew, and probably stronger than you really ever wanted to be. You can do this. Hugs.

Rebekah

Rebekah, thank you so much for your well wishes!!! I am sending you the same ❤🤗I am sitting at my kitchen table in a completely quiet apartment thinking wayyy too much. I must finish up this dish and watch a movie. This crying thing is really not good until YOU really have something to cry about😢

I praise you and everyone up here, we need to keep going because we have stuff to do!!!

Big hugs, thanx❤

why worry yourself when nothing is proven yet? Who am I kidding? I was a basket case. And looking back, it’s okay to be a basket case. There’s no harm in that. Seriously. Cry all you want. Don’t let your feelings go unnoticed.

But, then you have to gain control. Whatever this is, you’ve got it in the bag!!

My best friends MIL was dx’d back in 2000 with stage 4 IBC. She went through vigorous chemo. But guess what? She’s sailing the Caribbean right now... 18 years later!!!

I firmly believe in the power of positivity. On the flip side, Allow yourself a “time” of day to get your negative feelings out. During your morning shower? Maybe during your run? Give yourself the pity party for 15 minutes. And then, like that, turn it off. Before long, those 15 minutes will get shorter and shorter. You can do this, whatever it is. You don’t have a choice. Fight, my friend, fight.

When are you expecting your biopsy results? Over the phone or at an actual appointment time?

Sabrina,

Movie sounds great. I got though this binge watching medical dramas. I never liked them, but i've seen them all and now I go to hospitals and talk to doctors with ease and a sense of humor. During my surgery, I told my anethesialogist not to fall asleep (Grey's Anatomy) and made sure my MO was giving me the shortest radiation therapy (16) and not over treating me for the money (Residents). BC is serious stuff, but modern medicine has many ways to cure it. So don't worry. You will be fine. Good luck and praying for a B9.

Mimi

PS. I have yet to find a hottie doctor in the oncology department.

Nonomimi, I thank you for your humor and kind words. I realize you just had a radiation tx, upbeat and funny as ever! So many women here are going about the daily lives, you all are amazing💪🤗Yep, it is serious stuff, and I am afraid of just how serious things can get! Thank you for sharing your resources😘, big hugs and well wishes!!❤💪

Sabrina,

I don't know much about cysts, but until your biopsy report comes back, you should not be worried. You are wasting precious time. Please go back to watching a movie. Everything is going to be fine. We are strong. We get through it. One day at a time. Be grateful. Celebrate today. I binge watched 12 seasons of Grey's Anatomy in the last 3 months and saw people with horrific injuries and gigantic tumors that it made me feel like my problems were nothing. Keep yourself entertained. Stress is bad.

Mimi

I feel for you-I still want mine off, and my biopsy was benign. Benign only means what they removed was benign at that time. What perturbs me the most is the money aspect of what they will/won't do.

Mom had breast cancer age 50 and is now a very healthy 88 who exercises every day. I hope you have the benign result, but if you don't, you deserve to get what you want done.

keep an open mind and get second opinions. Depending on the results, lumpectomy + radiation has the same recurrence rate as mastectomy.

Nonomimi, I love your attitude and how well you make lemonade out of everything. I hope you are doing well and in good spirits...So funny, I am always the one to look for the brighter side of things. So much to the point when folks say I need to get me head out the clouds! Lol! I want to tell you, there is a kind woman at the Womans Breast clinic who does scheduling and insurance. She was reminding me my next appt date. Also, She secretly told me my right breast biopsy was okay, it was benign. 😢😢😢😢😢😢❤ I am so extremely elated about that, but the left one report is not out yet. Biopsy for that was last Thursday and my appt for Breast clinic is June 21. I am still consumed with this , happy and then sad, crying and then quiet. I CAN feel my lumps more now...Tuesday I was feeling the left one and swear I popped a couple cyst on edges of lump. I know , disgusting...but the lumps are sliding up and down my outer breast. 8 lumps in that breast😢. I am not a wimp, I am strong but after 15years of these events, my heart has become very heavy over last few years. I realize the totality of the possibilities years ago and I am sick of it. But, I love writing to you and all the awesome people here. Thank you for your kindness. Sorry for rambling 😯

Sabrina,

Congratulations on your right breast! I will be praying for your left breast. Whatever happens, there is a cure for it. You will be at a better and more peaceful place. Just hang in there. We are here for you.

Sorry to hear of this mass Mydogjaxon, 🤗, what you did was proactive and totally understood here. I am hoping your mass is dealt with, heaven knows you already made what had to be one of the toughest decisions in your life.😯

I will never understand why these things, growths, lumps, tumors have come as they have for us. I resent it, 😐am scared and consumed with it. But, I will tell you what the Breast clinic women told me, we should realize we are STRONGER than we thought because we do address these issues. She told me some patients never respond to follow ups, letters or annual mammos😢. I am proud of all of us for checking on our selves and seeking help.

Sorry your mom was affected twice by this, my mom had a mastectomy on one breast. This is an awful thing, but Nonomimi just wrote me and reminds me no matter what it is , it is curable❤Sending you big hugs❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

Hi Nonomimi,

Thank you so much for this posting. Very thoughtful of you. I have been seeing those posts for over a decade. Why? Because I suffer yearly with waiting for results of abnormal breast exams. I appreciate you so much, but please know, I feel I have seen them all...very informative, thorough and at times a lil rest for the mind.

My new lump came fast and has not went away, since biopsy, it does feel different though and yes very moveable, firm ...still scary. Feels like a giant firm grape. Pay my crazy self no mind, I am feeling a lil more better, the Birad5 never helped me. And since I found the lump in the right breast was okay, now I wonder which is worse.... complex cyst or hypoechoic nodule? Are they the same?

See the craziness??