Third Breast Cancer Diagnosis, this time Metastastasized

Thank you so much KBee for reading my blog and for your comments!

The symptoms that led me to contact my oncologist were: Right after Christmas, I had a terrible night of "sleep - or lack thereof" as I was in severe pain through my left shoulder area. I could not get comfortable and the pain was unrelenting. When I got up the next day I was feeling around my shoulder area and found a large lump just under my collar bone. It was then that I contacted my primary doctor and my oncologist. I was also having some difficulty breathing and experienced pain when attempting to get a deep breath. My previous two breast cancer diagnoses were on the left side, so I had that sinking feeling that something was terribly wrong.

Thank you for your well wishes about my symptoms and the effectiveness of the meds!

--Kathy

farmerlucy,

You are so welcome! Thank you for reading my blog and for your comments about Niksen - I hope it brings you some quiet, healing moments!

Thank you, also, for your comments about my diagnosis and your hopes that I find peace of mind very soon. It seems you truly spent a lot of time reading my blog as your comments reflect being touched by passages that are in differing places in the blog .

Peace of mind is cyclical and elusive. More times than not, it just happens before I am aware that the change has been made. Other times a phone call, a passage in a book, time spent with those I care about and God's intervention bring that much valued tranquilty.

I pray for your good and long-lasting health, and a future full of beauty and life!

Many thanks, LiMa!

I agree that cancer sucks. I don't think there is a word to adequately describe the hideousness of cancer. The limit of its destruction seems boundless, on so many levels.

My concept of "lucky" has changed with each diagnosis. My motto has always been: It could always be worse. And though it has gotten worse, I can still hold on to that motto.

A friend recommended a book: A Man's Search for Meaning by Viktor Larkl. I ordered it Friday for my Kindle and have started reading it. You might find encouragement in this book. Just a thought...

Thank you very much, Micmel! I appreciate that you have read the blog and for your comments! Sending those hugs right back at ya! :-)

Again, thank you for all your thoughtful words. As for it being a legacy - it is a journal: As my signature says, " Life goes on, and I intend to do the same."

Kell001 - I am so very sorry to hear you, too, have received a third diagnosis and the it is stage 4. Reading your post, I noticed the years we received each diagnosis are close, as is the distance between the diagnoses.

I am sorry you are feeling drained and sad! My thoughts and prayers go out to you, as I, too, have and will again feel those emotions. I talk about them in my blog - my cathartic way of getting rid of some of the bad and finding a way to move forward and live.

Sending you {{{ spirit hugs }}} and love, as one sister to another.