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Gic1430
Gic1430 Member Posts: 10
edited February 2018 in Waiting for Test Results

i went for a mammogram and they found a lump. The lump was sonogrammed and they said I have 25% chance of it being cancer. They are calcium formations that look suspicious. I read somewhere that that type of cancer could be for a very invasive decís with a high mortality rate. Please forgive all my ignorance, I am the only caregiver of my husband who is in a wheelchair and has had a stroke and has MS. I’m not trying to throw a pity party here, but you guys don’t know who I am so I m not embarrasesed to say I am miserable. If I do have cancer who will take care of him? We have no family, if I don’t work I don’t pay my bills! to top it off I am deaf. Biopsy is FFriday. 1239 out of pocket with insurance. I do have a nice job but how can I afford all this. I am a simple school teacher

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  • Paco
    Paco Member Posts: 208
    edited February 2018

    Gic1430

    I'm so sorry to read this. Praying that your biopsy on Friday will turn out benign. Please keep us posted.

  • Georgia1
    Georgia1 Member Posts: 1,321
    edited February 2018

    I'm so sorry you are going through all of this. Odds are that it is benign, so please try to be optimistic if you can. Most often these scares turn out to be false alarms. And even if it is breast cancer, it is very treatable now and microcalcifications do not indicate an aggressive form. You will, however, want to get copies of all of your test results and we can help you figure them out if that is helpful to you.

    On insurance, are you in the US? And are you perhaps eligible for Medicaid?

    Wishing you all the best for good test results.

  • Beatmon
    Beatmon Member Posts: 1,562
    edited February 2018

    I’m so very sorry you are going through this

  • Lmq
    Lmq Member Posts: 1
    edited February 2018

    I'm so sorry you are experiencing this. It's normal to go to the worst place in your mind but I hope you are able to breathe through it. Somehow it will all work out. Cancer doesn't automatically mean death anymore and there are lots of ways people will step in to help if it turns out to be cancer. Sending you hugs and let us know what you find out

  • Gic1430
    Gic1430 Member Posts: 10
    edited February 2018

    thank u everyone, I am in Tx. I do have insurance but if I have to stop working how would I go? Any resource groups or support in Dallas please? Not Komen please. I didn’t like it at all. My personal view only

  • marie5890
    marie5890 Member Posts: 3,594
    edited February 2018

    Gic, one step at a time. :)

    Biopsy first :)

  • Khawkes
    Khawkes Member Posts: 8
    edited February 2018

    I am so sorry. I completely understand the fear, as I have recently had a biopsy, which was thankfully benign and am waiting for another procedure and pathology. As much as it's easier said than done, focusing on the present and not thinking of the what-ifs is really what we need to do. The majority of scans and biopsies are benign, so as hard as it is, think of that when you start to stress. My mom, who is a BC survivor, told me to have a 5 minute "pity party" when it's overwhelming but to then move on. This has helped limit me overthinking and planning for the worst. Chin up! I'll keep you in my thoughts.

  • Beesie
    Beesie Member Posts: 12,240
    edited February 2018

    Gic, take a deep breath. As Marie said, take one step at a time. And be careful what you read.

    If there is a 25% chance that that your biopsy will find cancer, then that means there is a 75% chance that it won't, and the result will be benign. Those are pretty good odds.

    I think I know what you've been reading and I understand why it might scare you. But you are making assumptions and drawing conclusions that you shouldn't be. Having calcifications on your mammogram (which I assume is what you mean when you say "calcium formations") does not mean that you are likely to have an aggressive invasive cancer. It's the opposite in fact. Most often, if calcifications are not benign, then the finding is DCIS. DCIS is a non-invasive cancer, or by some definitions, a pre-cancer. DCIS is as far from "very invasive" and "a high mortality rate" as you can get with any diagnosis of breast cancer.

    Good luck on Friday.



  • Gic1430
    Gic1430 Member Posts: 10
    edited February 2018

    I read about suspicious casting pattern in calcification s of the Breast that almost always mean a more invasive for of dcis or cancer coming from somewhere else. My husband is so upset. He cries and tells me how much he loves me, and it breaks my heart to pieces. We are panicking, really. Mostly it is the fear that we don’t know how to face it in OUR. Set of circumstances

  • dtad
    dtad Member Posts: 2,323
    edited February 2018

    Gic1430....so sorry you have to be here but welcome. Try not to panic. Remember they have to prove you have breast cancer before you do. We are all here for you. Good luck and keep us posted.

  • windingshores
    windingshores Member Posts: 704
    edited February 2018

    A more invasive form of DCIS is still DCIS unless it had broken out of the ducts, in which case it would be invasive ductal. If it is small, and hormone-responsive, and HER2-, treatment options may not be as bad as you are imagining, nor the odds in terms of outcome.

    But first, and foremost, you have a 75% chance this is not cancer. Try distraction and get some Ativan from your doctor to get you through until you have results. I don't think your husband needs to worry yet either, so reassure him.

    There are many posters on this forum with special circumstances like yours, and they will be very supportive if you do indeed have cancer, but odds are, you don't, or you have a pre-cancer that might be easy to deal with.

  • anotherNYCGirl
    anotherNYCGirl Member Posts: 1,033
    edited February 2018

    Gic, as others have said, - the odds are in your favor that it is benign. So trrrrryyy not to think the worst!! Even if it is malignant (which it probably is not) many of us have worked and continued living our lives throughout treatments. Yes, days off needed after any surgical procedure, - but cross that bridge when and IF you get there. There's lots of help and support (such as the American Cancer Society and various other organizations) if needed.

    Take a deep breath and wait to see what you are dealing first!

    Hugs from NYC

  • Beesie
    Beesie Member Posts: 12,240
    edited February 2018

    Gic, does your mammogram report indicate that your calcifications have a "suspicious casting pattern"?

    Or have you just read that this is a particularly concerning type of calcifications?

  • marie5890
    marie5890 Member Posts: 3,594
    edited February 2018

    Gic, like Beesie asked, what does your mammogram report say? Calcifications can show up in all kinds of patterns, and most are benign.

    If your report uses words like "linear" or "clustered", then there may be an issue of DCIS. DCIS is considered Stage 0. Some breast cancer experts don't even consider it cancer, but a pre-cancer.

    But you are so far ahead of yourself. You haven't even had a biopsy yet. Most biopsy results com back benign.

    Dont do any research on google. You don't know enough about mammograms, radiological vocabulary, breast cancer, etc to be able to understand what is being said.

    STAY OFF OF GOOGLE.

  • mustlovepoodles
    mustlovepoodles Member Posts: 2,825
    edited February 2018

    Gic, Im not exactly in your shoes, but i understand what its like to be a caregiver. My DH has been disabled for 12 years with heart & lung disease. He relies on me to direct his medical care (I'm a nurse) and I am his caregiver during acute exacerbations. I was also the main caregiver for my severely handicapped son for 17 years. So I really do get that fear.

    Try to keep your hands moving: cleaning, painting, building, sewing, etc. Busy hands will help you keep your mind from persevarating on your fears. Try to limit your time on the internet. Much of the info you see on the internet is out of date and incorrect. And none of it is specific to your particular sitiation.

    I sympathize with you. You're in the WORST place now. Very little information and lots of uncertainty. It will get better. Once you know what you're dealing with you will feel more in control.

  • Gic1430
    Gic1430 Member Posts: 10
    edited February 2018

    ladies, i really love u already. My world is spinning and I can’t see the way to deal with it. Fear is my worst enemy and I am full of it. Being alone in this beautiful but inhospitable country is tough. I need support and I can see you are there for me somehow. Radiologist said suspicious. That word is killing me. I have to go for biopsy by myself tomorrow after a whole day of work, and I a m a chicken. I see in your posts all you have been through and I admire u and also feel even more scared. Please pray for me that I don’t have cancer. Thank you. Your posts surely help a lot

  • mustlovepoodles
    mustlovepoodles Member Posts: 2,825
    edited February 2018

    I pray this is benign and that you have strength to endure. You are not alone. We have your back.

  • marie5890
    marie5890 Member Posts: 3,594
    edited February 2018

    Radiologist have to use certain terminology in order to get insurance to approve a biopsy and to communicate to other professionals.

    As much as 80% of all breast biopsies come back bengin, and the radiologists said that the area is "suspicious".

    The medical field uses words in different ways than we lay people may. We hear the word "suspicious" and we think CANCER!!

    They use the word "suspicious" and often times it's more like them saying "Hey, we just need to check this out, out of an abundance of caution"

    Hang tight. The wait is brutal. We know this. Keep busy, BUT NOT ON GOOGLE :)

  • Beesie
    Beesie Member Posts: 12,240
    edited February 2018

    Gic, calcifications are very common. About 60% of women get them at some point.

    Most calcs are benign and harmless, and often this is quite evident from the appearance of the calcifications on the mammogram.

    Other times, the calcs may have an appearance that is usually benign, but also could be a sign of cancer. Because the Radiologist can't tell, those are deemed to be “suspicious" and a biopsy is done. The word “suspicious" is scary, but in fact about 75% - 80% of these biopsies turn out to be benign. If cancer is detected, it is usually DCIS.

    Then, in a small percent of cases, the calcifications might have a pattern that indicates a high probability cancer. About 95% of the biopsies in these cases do in fact find cancer and only about 5% turn out to be benign.

    Everything you've said suggests that your calcs fall in the 2nd category, “suspicious" but likely to be benign.

    This document explains all about calcifications: http://www.radiologyassistant.nl/en/p4793bfde0ed53/breast-calcifications-differential-diagnosis.html You can see that most often, even suspicious calcs are benign, but when they're not, they are usually DCIS, a non-invasive cancer

    Good luck tomorrow.

  • Gic1430
    Gic1430 Member Posts: 10
    edited February 2018

    biopsy in two hours, I can’t breathe. It looks like pp said my calls may fall in the pattern of a probability for cancer I am so scared, please pray for me

  • moth
    moth Member Posts: 4,800
    edited February 2018

    Hang in there hun. Soon you'll know and once you know, you'll know what to do next. One step in front of the other, don't rush ahead.
    The biopsy will be fine. They'll numb you and you can use icepacks and take tylenol after.
    Breathe in, breathe out. Focus on the breath. One. Then another one. Then another one. When your thoughts run away, just go back to the breath.

    You can do it. You're stronger than you think.

  • KBeee
    KBeee Member Posts: 5,109
    edited February 2018

    Praying all turns out benign, but whatever is the case, just breathe. Distract yourself. You CAN do this. There are resources to help you. Do keep us posted on the results.

  • Paco
    Paco Member Posts: 208
    edited February 2018

    Prayers going up for you Gic. Keep the faith that everything will turn out okay.

  • Sassa
    Sassa Member Posts: 1,588
    edited February 2018

    Hang in there, Gic. We are here for you no matter the outcome.


    Believe it or not, many of us can tell you knowing one way or another can actually be a relief.

  • Gic1430
    Gic1430 Member Posts: 10
    edited February 2018

    thank you all, u r a special group of friends to me already

  • Beesie
    Beesie Member Posts: 12,240
    edited February 2018

    Gic, do you have your biopsy results

  • Renee1976
    Renee1976 Member Posts: 2
    edited February 2018

    some times churches will help quietly with these types of expenses or contact your local Salvation Army

  • Gic1430
    Gic1430 Member Posts: 10
    edited February 2018

    good morning ladies, I got the biopsy back saying it is benign!!! The way the dr. Described it was itis almost like a scar type of thing. However, he has to x ray me again in six months, and I am so grateful to God for this, and to you for your kindness. I am still worried that in six months things may change? How does it work!? After the results I felt that every bone and muscle in my body aches so much. I hope it was just the stress. Thank you all for caring for me. Love and gratitude to all of you

  • Beesie
    Beesie Member Posts: 12,240
    edited February 2018

    Gic, that's great news! See, we told you not to be so worried because of what you read on the internet! Dr. Google is a mean old guy who scares people and who too often is wrong. Of course, there was the possibility of cancer - that's why you were having the biopsy - but based on what your doctor told you, the odds really were in your favor, and thankfully your results landed you on the right side of the odds!

    The 6 month follow-up is normal standard of care after a benign biopsy result. It's just a double check to confirm that everything looks the same. Think of it as the one last safety check. It's nothing to worry about.

  • anotherNYCGirl
    anotherNYCGirl Member Posts: 1,033
    edited February 2018

    WONDERFUL!! thank you for updating !

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