New relationship and new diagnosis at same time

GoGo, I don't have a similar experience, however I was single and 38 at my diagnosis and treatment, so I do remember really having to give thought to when to tell someone whom I met several years later, and who is now my husband. It is really hard to advise someone about something as personal as this; but let me just say that taking your time to tell him, waiting until you have a plan you feel good about and actually know what is going to happen, sounds like a reasonable thing and not misleading at all. The fact that he lost his mother to lung cancer is certainly an added piece to your puzzle. I think that him knowing too soon, when you don't know your plan and things are therefore uncertain, would be potentially worse for him. That time of uncertainty and learning all about the options and their related consequences (as well as their risk reduction) is very difficult for most women (and the people who love them) and to wait spares him that. There may be others who disagree, but I would wait until you have a plan; and then I'd choose a time when you can sit down together and tell him, allowing him to have whatever reaction he has and ask whatever questions come up. So sorry you're having to go through this! gentle ((hugs))

Hi Gogo..Let me say a few words from just one guy's perspective who is in a somewhat similar situation, in fact it's why I joined this community, to read and understand better what women are facing and mainly listen, but here, I offer my thoughts.

I met and started dating a simply amazingly wonderful beautiful woman 2 months ago via an online app (still can't believe that part!). . I'll spare the details for sake of brevity but lets just say we fell for each other-- for me, it was head over heels; we clicked, intellectually, physically, sense of humor, the works. On our third date, no less, we were sitting in the car after a nice evening and she slowly began to tell me something that I could tell was difficult to get out, saying, something like "i'm not sure I should tell you this now... and you may run away and I don't blame you..but I am having an MRI & biopsy soon and..." She not too long thereafter found out it was DCIS.

As for me running away, nothing could be further from the case.I told her, without flinching, I was there for her no matter what. Maybe I was dewy-eyed and clueless, and yes, it was jarring and a little frightening, but, my heart is my compass and I was falling in love with HER, not a part of her body.

But then, after some thought shortly thereafter , she let me know that she couldn't take on a relationship now with so much uncertainty ahead of her and, she had to break up with me saying, it was a very hard decision but just something she couldn't handle now. Also she said with kindness it wasn't fair to me that she wouldn't be able to give me the attention I deserve (Of course, I poo-pooed this). Naturally, this was and continues to be deeply saddening to me. I consider myself a sensitive, empathetic guy, and she has been constantly on my mind, but, as hard as it's been, I understood she had to prioritize for her life. And of course, the hardest part is that as a new person in her life (she's separated and divorced yet with has two younger kids.), I have to accept that I take a back seat to her top priorities like her recovery, her kids, her family/friends and her job. I have been coming to terms with not be able to be by her side; it's not been easy.

She had the operation two days ago and I have no idea about her condition... and I now await, hopefully, word at some point that she is recovering well while I hold out hope that some day, not too far into the future, she may trust me and invite me back into her life. I just have to be patient, and present when -- and if --she decides it's time.

I'm grateful to have found this community to express what it is like from a caring man's point of view. There are guys like us out there but, like people say, even in the best of circumstances, finding a person you click with is a "numbers game," "a needle in a haystack" and all the other bromides. For you now it's even tougher but something tells me when you will know the right time to tell him -- and you'll probably know in your gut when that is. I think you'll also know right away if he's the right chap for you. My hope is he indeed is.

I will be making her a card today and sending her a book of poetry (we both share a love of poetry).

Love truly is a potent medicine.

jamkam- What a great guy you are. I would stay in touch with her. Maybe text her on occasion to see how she's doing. Doesn't mean you can't be friends right now.

Hi again...Thank you all! It took me a while to be able to reply to you, GG (and Arista and Minus, but when I read your posts last night, I just basically completely lost it. It was a cry I needed desperately, finally.

Of course, I've certainly not gone thru the dx and all mountains of fear and anxiety that follows and of course, children -- especially a teen--create another level of sapping your energy cuz you want them to feel safe and loved.

Yet, as much as loved ones/friends/family SAY we try to understand, we just can't. We can only be, to someone we care about, someone who cares. As for me, I feel that no matter what happens, for now I need to repeat her wishes and retreat and, maybe one day, she will want my care, affection and attention. But, I really am starting to begin to comprehend the trepidation a woman must feel post-op. And from the spouse threads I've poked thru, too many seem to end sadly with separation and after many years, at that. For me, that's impossible to fathom.

With some perseverance — and maybe a little note card and a book of poems and a cheese basket (!)-- she will appreciate me more...or maybe not , and then it wasn't meant to be. But if one truly cares for someone, it should be all between the ears and the any physical changes should matter less than specks on fly's antennae.

One thing I will say with sureness: Countless men could learn volumes in life lessons from the steadfast will, bravery and strength women demonstrate amidst trying times like these and how they persevere with silent dignity.

Hi GG (and all)...I hope you're doing well in advance of your surgery and if it's happened, that your making good progress and not in too much discomfort. As for Diane, I know you must be right, there are definitely others like me who care about and love a person —not the changes that will occur— but unconditionally. Of course, that is not to diminish or even claim to know, as a man especially, what it's like for a woman facing this, but we can all certainly learn volumes from a women's courage and determination on the journey back.

As one might expect, I've still not heard from "S", the woman I was seeing that I mentioned before, she is 30 days post-op. I've been told (by an oncologist I spoke with, more on that in a min.) to just give her time, which I plan on doing as I steadfastly refuse to give up on her. As for you, maybe the guy will be back, if not, you clearly deserve someone who will stick with you no matter what. Everyone does.

I've learned so much from this thread and the wonderfully supportive folks writing in here. In my quest of knowledge and understanding, the brief exchanges here have been so helpful as a man, in countless ways but I need to know more. In fact, I've taken my desire to want to help "S" And being unable to, into helping others somehow. Thru this exploration of my own feelings I have: contacted an author (who wrote of her own experiences and others on this very subject of being a single post-op mastectomy patient; the book is called "Upfront: Sex, Dating and Post-Mastectomy Woman); a support group locally and a breast oncology surgeon. For me, the research was my way of channeling (i'm a filmmaker/journalist) my energy to do something to help being light to a topic that is probably misunderstood by men and frustratingly frightening to women. The topic so effected me that I dove in to get involved more closely with the subject wanting to help patients and their loved ones, so I'm now beginning a collaboration w/ the aforementioned NYC-area support group to create a film project on the subject.

If anyone is in the NYC area and might want to cooperate with us on this film project, we'd welcome participants who would want to share their stories and of course, there is no cost. As the project takes off, I will list a link here and if nothing else, hope to provide more insight for patients, family and of course, the men in their lives, all of whom struggle with the dx and the long road of acceptance returning to an eventual idea of finding a lover one day who will embrace one for who they are—inside and out.

My gratitude to all for listening,

Jim

thank you for saying this jamcam…my boyfriend just told me he needed to take time for himself ( 4 days after my reconstruction) and cancelled the trip we scheduled to celebrate the end of active treatment. I was devastated but then I remembered the strength and internal knowing that BC has gifted me.