Single life after a mastectomy

Jazz, Peregrine, so funny! One would think Jazz has no life! Ha, keep posting Jazz. We need your wisdom as we fumble along.

New Year's day is always my time for self reflection. Jazz, you had your hot springs get-a-way and sounds like that was productive. NYD will be my time to reflect back and forward. Ugh....I find myself dreading it. I think my problem is that I never have realistic expectations. I will try to keep it simple and achievable for 2018. If I can just accomplish exercise and a new friend that will be a major win.

I second that! Being newly diagnosed these posts are very helpful! Especially from those who are years out and thriving.

I think 2018 is looking up! I’m 2017 my mother passed away suddenly, I was diagnosed and my relationship ended. Two years prior (New Years day 2016) I was moving out of a house I owned with my fiancé at the time as that relationship ended New Year’s Eve. Lol. I sure know how to start a new year! Here’s to 2018! 🥂

I use to think my parent's lives were kind of sad as it was so quiet, boring, and predictable. That is exactly the life I want in 2018!

wow jazz I want to thank you too.

You always keep us positive and I love your travel pictures and new Mexico became a place to go to beacause of you.

Keep it up girlfriend

I must be honest I only feel at home in this tread.

I used to be very close to the insomnia ladies but then something happened and I went off.

These group is just home ..

about the BC and mother....when i told my mom on the phone, she was howling. i'd never seen her like that. broke my heart.

and yes this place really feels like home.

2017 has been quite roller coaster for me, lots of ups and downs. good times and bad times. i understand there's ups and downs in life but man, i hope 2018 will be a smooth ride...or smoother ride.

hi friends

Well only hours away from a new year .hopefully it won't be as shit as the last.

So I watched a sad movie last night called Breathe and it was sad but at the same time it shows true love. I don't believe in other lives but if it was true then I wish one day I am born again and find that kind of love.lol a must watch movie sad but so beautiful.

Anyway June I was nona be to tell my mom I was sick and I hide it from her even though I knew she knew I never spoke about it . We were in the same apartment and she knew cuz every day she would ask "how are you feeling today?"

I will say I am better mom. What will you like to do today? Should we crochet a new hat? Or maybe go for a walk? I managed to always make it fun but there were days I could not get up from bed and my sister used to tell me how mom kept asking for me all day.

I think to tell a parent about this sickness is just not something I could do? It is even hard for me to tell my siblings I know this will destroy them and I wish they could be strong but I know they are not?

But so far I are looking at it in a positive way. I always do that to some extend

I think if is not too cold I may go skating alone today. By my place where I took classes is an outdoor place i may go do that late in the afternoon.

I will break the news too my tenants on the 2nd. I don't want to say anything just now. Hoping they don't get piss and all can work out.

Not broken did you watch the video of the jar cut? What did you think?

Another thing I wanted to tell you Is about

A nasty cold sore i got right on my nose. It apeared on Monday and it is going away now. This is the first time I manage to get rid of this nasty thing so fast. Lol I did an experiment I used vinager and baking soda. I wanted to share not sure if you ever had one.

I remember how I got infected, at a job there was a lady who had one and we used to tell her to stay away from us . Then one day I got it and all my coworkers said they bet she used my phone ha ha ha I was 32 at the time and had never had anything like that then I read it is a nasty virus herpes and never gets cure. Anyway mine comes no often I haven't had it in years but I think been exposed to -26 last week just brough it up. Or maybe the stress.

The good thing is that I discovered a cure like something that cut in half the healing process cuz in the past it could take almost 2 weeks to heal. Discussting thing right on my nose lol

Sorry for sharing this lol

But keep it in mind baking soda and white vinager morning and before bed.

Took care of it.

E - it's something i spoke briefly with my sister and my sister-in-law, and my host family i still keep in touch (some international student program my grad school provided)...both families told me i should tell my mother. both came from the parents point of view. there's no black and white answer to this one i guess.

my dad is a mean man, so it does curb his rudeness towards me.

June- my mother died six months before my diagnosis, a few months before my sisters bc dx (she was June, I was Sept of 2012). My sister and I commented to each other if there was anything

to be grateful for, is was that it happened after her passing. . We were both helping to take care of her in various ways and to tell an aging parent both her kids had cancer would have totally freaked her out. And plus, a mom's hearts break too when their children have serious health problems. My father was never particularly concerned about his kids health problems. But it broke his heart when my brother died.

E- with all that has gone on in your family, it is understandable your family will be very upset. But despite that, I am sure they would rather know. Less stress for you to keep the secret. And yes, I have done it too with friends and family, mostly to protect myself professionally. I am looser about sharing it now, but still careful. I would not worry to tell people if I had something more advanced too. We just have to pick and choose when and how to do it.

I think it is good to wait after the holidays. You have your plans in place for treatment now too and can share with them the other things you are working on too. We all have to tend to the what ifs around property in life too. One less thing to worry about and hopefully some money for the condo you can use.

The hardest part for me was telling my kids. I assured them it was "curable" and just a little bump in the road but my youngest broke down when I told him I would lose my breast while my oldest was snarkey and said it outlived it's usefulness. As to my mom she seemed to not comprehend and did not react at all but because of my DIEP I asked if I could stay with her for my recovery. She immediately became animated, excited and was off planning meals and so crazy happy! I thought this bizarre behavior but I will share some but will need delete this post. My son had battled an opiod addiction a year prior which he hid from me but when it was disclosed he assured me he had it under control and I believed him. One night he crawled home to me all beaten down and desperate for a safe place and my response was much the same as my mom's. I was so happy to have him with me, ran out to get all his favorite food and I wanted to spoil and care for him. As he detoxed he wanted me to sleep on the couch with him but I could not sleep with his feet in my face and giving him all the room but still I was so happy he was with me and safe. Now I understand my mom's odd response better.

As to chemo NO ONE was on board with that. In hindsight their instincts were better than mine.

Sunrise colors today and full moon over the mountains at sunset tonight

beautiful!! thanks jazzy

that’s a very good idea....I think I’ll just do that.

And this is for you jazzy...