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Shyann30101
Shyann30101 Member Posts: 43
edited December 2017 in Waiting for Test Results

I have had a small lump on my left breast for probably a year and didn’t have insurance so just prayed it wasn’t cancer but now I have insurance and my dr is concerned as it also has a indent now I am going to go for a diagnostic mammogram and I am freaked out, nobody knows how scared I am I don’t want to worry anyone until I know if there is something to worry about, just wish I had someone to talk to about this

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  • Moderators
    Moderators Member Posts: 25,912
    edited November 2017

    hang in there. NO reason to panic. There are many reason this could happen. One step at a time! We're here for you!

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  • Shyann30101
    Shyann30101 Member Posts: 43
    edited November 2017

    thanks , just wish I could talk to my husband or my girls but I know they will fall apart before I even know anything definitely, I just don’t want to cause them sadness but it’s also so hard to not be able to lean on them. I have always been the so called strong one when everyone was around so this is my nature but sometimes I hate holding stuff in ugh!!!

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  • anotherNYCGirl
    anotherNYCGirl Member Posts: 1,033
    edited November 2017

    Shyann, - You havent shared much, but please keep in mind, as the moderator wrote, that there are many possible causes of a lump! The majority of biopsies are NOT cancerous. Drs are cautious and thorough, and you wouldnt want it any other way.

    Of course, we dont know your husband and girls , but he is your partner, and you may want to reconsider telling him about your concerns.

    Take a deep breath and don't let your imagination run away!


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  • Racy
    Racy Member Posts: 2,651
    edited November 2017

    When is your mammogram appointment?

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  • Shyann30101
    Shyann30101 Member Posts: 43
    edited November 2017

    I was suppose to go this week Tuesday but my car broke down the day of my appointment and just got it back yesterday so Monday I will make appointment for either 11/14 or 11/16 what ever day I can get in ,since they only do the diagnostic mammogram on Tuesday and Thursday

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  • Shyann30101
    Shyann30101 Member Posts: 43
    edited November 2017

    thank you I’m tryin

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  • gb2115
    gb2115 Member Posts: 1,894
    edited November 2017

    How old are your girls?

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  • Shyann30101
    Shyann30101 Member Posts: 43
    edited November 2017

    I am 53

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  • Shyann30101
    Shyann30101 Member Posts: 43
    edited November 2017

    I have my diagnostic mammogram set for Tuesday the 14th at 9:30 a

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  • Georgia1
    Georgia1 Member Posts: 1,321
    edited November 2017

    Hang in there! I kept everything from my husband and sisters too, until I was clear on what the tests meant. Odds are everything is fine, but do check back with us. Best of luck.


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  • Shyann30101
    Shyann30101 Member Posts: 43
    edited November 2017

    thank you , and nice to know I'm not the only one who wants to keep the ones I love from freaking out if things turn out to be good. I will post my results as soon as I know anything. I also have a new mole underneath the breast with the lump and it’s rough that’s another reason I’m scared with the lump the indentation and the weird mole just scares me , but I’m trying to stay po

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  • JenniDS
    JenniDS Member Posts: 1
    edited November 2017

    yes! I had a needle biopsy Friday and waiting for results! The wait is horrible!!

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  • Moderators
    Moderators Member Posts: 25,912
    edited November 2017

    Dear JenniDS,

    We are sorry that your biopsy and the wait for results brought you here to our community. Keep us posted on what you learn. Sending you positive thoughts. The Mods

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  • Shyann30101
    Shyann30101 Member Posts: 43
    edited November 2017

    tomorrow is my appointment and I’m sure praying hard for good results 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻, I will post as soon I find out anything. Prayers to everyone on her

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  • Shyann30101
    Shyann30101 Member Posts: 43
    edited November 2017

    prayers being sent hoping for great news for you

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  • anotherNYCGirl
    anotherNYCGirl Member Posts: 1,033
    edited November 2017

    Sending hugs and BE WELL wishes to all here!!

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  • Shyann30101
    Shyann30101 Member Posts: 43
    edited November 2017

    had my mammogram and ultrasound and didn't go as well as I was hoping they did find a mass and radiologist doesn't like the looks of it so now I need a biopsy so still 🙏🏻, but so very nervous this waiting is pure to

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  • AgathaNYC
    AgathaNYC Member Posts: 473
    edited November 2017

    Hi, Shyann. So sorry you're going through this.

    This part is really tough, waiting for the biopsy and then waiting the results. So far that has been the hardest part for me when I was most scared.

    Have you told your husband yet? I'm not married but I waited to tell a few people closest to me right at the point you are at now. It was too much to go through alone. I'm really independent and like to handle everything myself, but I needed the support.

    Do you know when you'll be getting the biopsy?

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  • Shyann30101
    Shyann30101 Member Posts: 43
    edited November 2017

    I have told my husband and not sure that was the right move now he is so scared, I should know Monday at my appointment when they will be doing the biopsy for sure. I know this is torture and the waiting is so hard been through all this stuff with my mom and just never thought this would happen to me. I am trying to stay positive but omg I can’t stop searching things and it just scares me even more. I have not told my husband how very scared I am he is such a worrier that I know I need to stay strong and fall apart when I’m alone which I did today after my appointment. So do you mind if I ask how you made out after your results and how long did it take to get results after your biopsy?

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  • gb2115
    gb2115 Member Posts: 1,894
    edited November 2017

    I knew my results the next day, but I think it's usually slower than that. If it helps try not to search so much. There's really nothing you can do until you have the biopsy and get some answers. Until then you wait. Try to fill your time with pleasant distractions!!

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  • Georgia1
    Georgia1 Member Posts: 1,321
    edited November 2017

    Hi Shyann. I didn't get my results for three days so as others have said, try to stay busy to keep your mind occupied if you can. And once you get the results verbally do make them email you the complete report. At that point you will have solid info. and can allow yourself to search the internet as much as you want. :)

    But seriously, all best wishes to you and let us know how it goes. My husband was also a wreck and I know that doesn't help.

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  • AgathaNYC
    AgathaNYC Member Posts: 473
    edited November 2017

    Hi, Shyann.

    I had the biopsy on a Tuesday and got the results on a Monday. I did NOT handle the waiting for results patiently. I was told that the pathology testing would be fast tracked and the results would be back Friday - they weren't. I asked for the pathology report to be sent to both my OB/GYN who requested the biopsy and then also my GP who I knew would be batter about getting me results quickly. I was pissed I had to wait over the weekend (being pissed was a nice respite for me from being scared) and must have called the radiologist who did the biopsy, OB/GYN and GP about 3 times each on Monday (receptionists guessed it was me calling before I gave them my name!) I finally got the call from my OB/GYN at the end of the day on Monday that it was malignant.

    Hopefully you won't have to deal with ANY of this. The majority of lumps that are biopsied come back benign. Don't get ahead of yourself. But here's what happened to me:

    I had already decided what hospital I wanted to be treated at so I made a call there the same day to get the appointment ball rolling. I had my first appointment with both the oncologist and surgeon that Friday. I was prepared to get 2nd or 3rd opinions but I was very happy with the two doctors I met so progressed with them. My spirits improved dramatically after I was set with a care team and started working on the job of getting rid of the cancer. My tumor is pretty big so we decided to do chemo before surgery. After only 2 treatments the tumor shrank by more than half, so I'm encouraged.


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  • Shyann30101
    Shyann30101 Member Posts: 43
    edited November 2017

    thank you for sharing your story it helps to hear stories like yours and I will do my best to stay busy and keep positive thoughts and I will post as soon as I know when my biopsy will be and as soon I I know the results. I also want to thank everyone on here for your support at least I have people I can be honest about my fears to. I will be praying for each and every one of you, god bless you all and I’m so thankful for finding this site

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  • Shyann30101
    Shyann30101 Member Posts: 43
    edited November 2017

    I've been trying to stay busy to keep my mind offfthings but today was my day off and was doing good then my family Dr called to check to see how I was doing and that just made me worry more. I knew she was worried about me I could tell but her knowing my mammogram and ultrasound didn't get good results she wanted to check on me and I'm great full she is so concerned with her patients but then again it makes this waiting and wondering even harder for me. I try so hard to be strong and I do really good when ever I'm around anyone but when I'm alone my mind races and the tears roll this is just pure torture. I am a fighter and I can and will fight no matter what the results are but can't fight what I don't know so just hope Monday they set up the biopsy really soon so I know what I'm fighting or not fighting .i have been praying so much . Well need to try and get some sleep 3:30 am comes early, good night ladies

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  • Georgia1
    Georgia1 Member Posts: 1,321
    edited November 2017

    Good night Shyann. Thinking good thoughts for you.

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  • Shyann30101
    Shyann30101 Member Posts: 43
    edited November 2017

    thank yo

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  • gb2115
    gb2115 Member Posts: 1,894
    edited November 2017

    That was so nice of your doctor to call and check on you!!!

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  • Shyann30101
    Shyann30101 Member Posts: 43
    edited November 2017

    yes it was I was kinda shocked but so happy she is like that makes things a little easie

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  • Shyann30101
    Shyann30101 Member Posts: 43
    edited November 2017

    well I have appointment at 12:40 at the women’s center today to find out what type of biopsy they will be doing ugh I hate the waiting just wish they were doing the biopsy so I could get some answers. I just need to know what I’m facing so I can start this fight and I want so bad to tell my family but want to know what it is before I do after all I don’t want them stressing until I have a definite prognosis . I just hope they schedule it ASAP so I can move forward, this makes it hard to get in the holiday spirit when I feel like I’m in limbo

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  • anotherNYCGirl
    anotherNYCGirl Member Posts: 1,033
    edited November 2017

    Shyann, - As other have said, trrrrry to keep busy. It does help, even if just a bit! The waiting is always hard - but one day soon, you have will answers and be ready to move on!

    GOOD LUCK today!

    Keep us updated!

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