So scared.... waiting

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samzie24
samzie24 Member Posts: 1
edited November 2017 in Waiting for Test Results

Hi all. I stumbled across this forum whilst waiting for my results. I found quite a seemingly large painless lump whilst on holiday a couple of weeks ago... and now I am waiting for biopsy and CT scan results. I can’t even believe how much can change in just a a few weeks.

I had an ultrasound and mammogram last week which lead to a biopsy as the radiographer didn’t like what she saw. She more or less confirmed that what was seen was highly suspicious and that it was probably cancer. My consultant echoed this. I feel like my world has come crashing down around me. She did say that there was no evidence of swelling to any of the lymph nodes and she checked this thoroughly during the ultrasound. I initially thought this was a good thing but have since read that cancer can bypass the lymph nodes... so I’m back to being absolutely terrified of what I’m going to walk into on Thursday when I get all of my results.

I’m just so scared and can’t even believe this is happening to me. I’m 30 with no history of BC in the family and I feel like my life is now over. I feel sick with worry... constantly. I keep crying at everything and the worry is totally consuming me.

All I keep reading is horror stories and just can’t see any light at the end of the tunnel right now. :(

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  • MBPooch
    MBPooch Member Posts: 229
    edited November 2017

    Hi Samzie - Sorry that you have found yourself here but this is a great place to come for support! I was recently diagnosed and you sound exactly like how I felt a couple of weeks ago. Try not to worry yourself to death this week, easier said than done I know, but it could be absolutely nothing (the majority of biopsies are negative, especially at your age and with no history) I was diagnosed with Paget's and an underlying DCIS that both mammogram and ultrasound missed. After MRI, two other masses were discovered. They also said that it looked highly suspicious with a Birads 4. I worried myself sick for days. I went in for an ultra sound guided biopsy of both new masses and was certain both my breasts were filled with cancer. As it turned out both masses were Fibrodenomas and benign. Google can be a scary place so stay away from that! I am choosing aggressive treatment and opting for a double MX with immediate reconstruction at the end of the month (I just turned 46 yesterday and feel like I'm too young for this!) but that will hopefully be the end of this chapter with no further treatment needed. Take it from someone who put the cart before the horse, it's a lot of senseless worry! Keep yourself occupied till Thursday and focus on your results then, every cancer is different and this might be nothing at all for you! Will be wishing for great results for you, please keep us posted!

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  • keepthefaith
    keepthefaith Member Posts: 2,156
    edited November 2017

    samzie, we are here with you. Wishing you B9 results:)

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  • Larlaw
    Larlaw Member Posts: 21
    edited November 2017

    I'm right there with you. Waiting is the worst. So is googling so stay off the internet as much as you can. I've been bad at that and it panics me every time I look. I'm getting an MRI tomorrow - usually its a 3 month wait at least but the radiologist went to med school with my best friend and is fitting me in. Hoping for good results for both of us. Hugs.

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