INSOMNIACS place to talk in the wee hours

Hi Owlies, Happy Halloween. Getting the things ready. We are a drop off street. So lot's of kiddos. Dini loves it. Schatzi hides. Inadvertently Dini got outside the gate last year and started walking with the kids. Wagging his tail. He was so disappointed when I said he hade to come back.

It's chilly here. Most of you would laugh at what we think is chilly. Have moved to the phase of opening the house The breeze is wonderful. Fresh! It drops the energy use to average 2.00$ a day (I'm such an energy nerd).

Have fun tonight!

Welcome here 2tires (loverly has already given you a nickname)

Mamma I wondered whose b-day it was too. Then promptly forgot. Junie's is coming up .I should have written it down.

We had a couple of hundred kiddos, it was great fun. Donnie stayed home, so, Schatzi stayed out versus running to hide. The dogs were great sticking there noses through the gate to get petted. I didn't dress up this year as it was very cold. I did a special basket thingy to hand over the fence to the parents for the older infants to pick a piece. It was so cute .I told the parents it was getting them ready for next year. Lot's of laughs. Lot's of great costumes. Very impressed this year with how many kids said thank you without there parents encouragement. Great night

Ma111 started the Death and Dyeing thread. I was with her for the first 28 pages then wandered off after Ma111 died and I didn't. I expected too, but again didn't. In those first pages there were a lot of us that talked about preparation. Bon had created a masterful page on 26 of that thread. It was a synopsis of all the early pages. Plus Bon's bag that was a piece of beauty in that it had everything in it that was needed after death or for bugging out in a crisis like fire or wind.

Bon left BCO b/c of a tussle latter on in the thread. She asked BCO to delete all her posts. Bon's Bag had never been copied by anyone. No thought that it would ever be gone.

How reading those early posts may help now? The things we need to plan for are there and for some pages after. D&D then turned into a discussion group of those preparing to die. But in the early days Ma wanted it to be about what to do to get ready.

Mags his loss will take years to subside in your heart. Strange words. I understood the Victorian year of grieving when Greg died. I looked at the ceiling a lot for a year. Grieving takes a long time. Anger takes a long time. Anger that they could have done different. Anger that there docs could have done different. Hade you known about the cirrhosis could you have changed things. No. Yes, Maybe. Even if he had changed things. NO.

You stated he couldn't deal with you and BC, yes that might be true, but the damage was already there.. Please, dear one, don't blame yourself or think you are in anyway related to his outcome.

We choose our way. You found that he chose his way.

You now have a mess to deal with. Some will read that statement and think it cruel. But I've known others that didn't have a plan. It is so hard not to delete this because it sounds so cruel. I know what Mags is going to have to go through in the next year. Had things been prepared it would have been an hour with a lawyer. It's awful the things that she will have to do, and grieving on top of it.....

Love you Mags