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Icandoallthings
Icandoallthings Member Posts: 54

Hi everyone...

I guess like the rest of us, I'm just looking for some hope.

I was diagnosed in February 2016, had a lumpectomy followed by 4 treatments of taxotere/cytoxon and then 6 weeks radiation. There were microscopic cells found in my sentinel lymphode. Since then I've been on tamoxifen.

A few weeks ago I went in for my check up with some concerns that my breast was hardening. The doctor agreed, and sent me for a mammogram and ultrasound. The mammogram came back normal, and the ultrasound found a very small spot (.75) that the doctor decided to biopsy. He found a 2nd spot while doing the biopsy and decided to biopsy that one too. He also decided to blind biopsy the larger hardened spot as well as a precaution. Well I got my results today... and all 3 spots he biopsied came back cancerous.

I'm going on Wednesday 8/30 for a surgery consult to talk about mastectomy. I will most likely have a double... but I'm still thinking about that one.

I am just beyond disappointed, and angry it's back. I only made it 16 months.

I'm just looking for hope after reoccurance. Does it exist?

I have a 16 month old... I just want to see her grow up. We adopted her right before I started down this road. Im so sad I'm only 29. I just hate that last year was essentially in vain. I'm starting all over!

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  • dtad
    dtad Member Posts: 2,323
    edited August 2017

    Hi there. I'm so sorry you are going through this at such at young age with small children. It's just not fair! Since you don't have your stats posted its a little hard to advise you. However may I ask where you are being treated? IMO its very important to be treated at a major university teaching hospital. Have you had a breast MRI? I think its essential before you make any treatment decisions. Its the best screening tool for young dense breasts. Good luck and keep us posted...

  • Kimm992
    Kimm992 Member Posts: 135
    edited August 2017

    I can't even imagine how upset and angry I would be in your situation. I'm so sorry you're going through this again.

    Hopefully since the spots are really small, surgery will take care of it and you won't need chemo again.

    Do keep us posted. Sending good vibes.

  • sbelizabeth
    sbelizabeth Member Posts: 2,889
    edited September 2017

    Icandoallthings...I'm so sorry you need to endure this rodeo again.

    "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." Isaiah 41:10

    Gentle hugs.

  • Shellsatthebeach
    Shellsatthebeach Member Posts: 316
    edited September 2017

    Did you have all your lymph nodes removed? I guess if there is a bright side, it was caught early. Hugs, hoping all goes well!

  • Icandoallthings
    Icandoallthings Member Posts: 54
    edited September 2017

    So I had my appointment.

    Im going in for a mastectomy just on the right side on September 8th. Both my Oncologist, and Surgeon said that they think doing both sides right now is overkill. If I still want to do both sides when I do my reconstruction he said we can take the left side at that point too.

    I am just believing that my lymphnodes and my margins will all be crystal clear.

    I have been holding on to this verse:

    It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear, or be dismayed.

    Deuteronomy 31:8


    My oncologist thinks that the whole hardened area could be cancer... its like from 10:00-12:00 on my breast (if it were a clock) My surgeon is not so sure about that, and neither am I. I have always had hard masses on my breast. I am believing that most of it is just scar tissue.

    The crazy part of this whole thing is, the mammogram shows NOTHING. And thats what so many women are relying upon for comfort. So scary.


  • Icandoallthings
    Icandoallthings Member Posts: 54
    edited September 2017

    @dtad

    I have not done an MRI this time. We will do one on my left side soon. At this point. Im totally fine having a mastectomy. I wish I had it done in the first place-- but not I cant play the I wish I would have game.

    I added my stats :-)

  • GreenEyes81
    GreenEyes81 Member Posts: 389
    edited September 2017

    Good luck with surgery. I am 4 weeks out today. Just take it easy, don't do too much. If you hurt, stop. Easier said than done. :)

    My mammagram only found one spot out of 3 spots as cancer. I am 36, got an MRI and it found 2 more spots never seen in the mammogram or several ultra sounds. This is the kicker though, NOTHING would have ever been found last month had I NOT got a 3D mammogram. It's my new rant to everyone, get a 3D!! :)

    Please be sure to follow up with an MRI asap. I know surgury is very soon, but honestly if it was me, I would cancel or at the least get an MRI squeezed in now. It's concerning at your age and history your doctor did not automatically have you get an MRI. Once you have surgery, who knows how long it will be before you can handle an MRI. You have to lay on your chest at an odd angle. I could not in a million years imagine myself doing that right now or anytime soon.

    Either way, good luck.

  • sbelizabeth
    sbelizabeth Member Posts: 2,889
    edited September 2017

    GreenEyes, if Icandoallthings is having a mastectomy on the cancer side on Friday, with a precautionary MRI planned on the other side soon, why would she want to delay the mastectomy and sentinel node biopsy?

    Postponing definitive treatment of the side with confirmed cancer, to image the side where no malignancy is suspected, might not be a good idea.

  • GreenEyes81
    GreenEyes81 Member Posts: 389
    edited September 2017

    We all have to make the best desision for our selves. I was only putting that out there as personally I would hate to have gone through my current mastectomy only to find out a few months (guessing for healing to get an MRI) that something was missed and I have to have more surgery that could have been done at the same time. This is really only coming from my own expirence. If I had NOT had an MRI, I would have ended up with a lumpectomy....which would never have delt with two other spots of cancer that was on the oppiset side of my breast.

    I would have ended up with a 2nd surgery at some point...when those spots were bigger and who knows where I would be at that point. With Friday being around the corner, it may not be possible and that is ok. ;)

  • mrswrightstartsthefight
    mrswrightstartsthefight Member Posts: 1
    edited September 2017

    GOOD LUCK in surgery! You'll do great. I had a right mastectomy one week ago today with a tissue expander and am very pleased with the results and CLEAN MARGINS! I was diagnosed with IDC, and pathology reported 8mm IDC and 6.3cm DCIS. I was then concerned for my for my left breast having cancer with such a large tumor found on the right side, but was reassured that bilateral cancers are rare and they will be monitoring closely. That's being said, my mammogram was clear the first time (I can't believe these are the standard screening tool with so many cancers missed!). However if you are getting a tissue expander, know that you cannot get an MRI until that is out-- it has a magnet in it. Mine was found via ultrasound, or perhaps the 3D mammo for you until you can get an MRI :

  • Tara17
    Tara17 Member Posts: 386
    edited September 2017

    dear icandoallthings ....hope things re goign well with you, sending you gentle hugs. Given your young age, have your doctors talked about genetic testing ? That can be empowering and help guide further decisions

    Sending healing vibes your way

  • marijen
    marijen Member Posts: 3,731
    edited September 2017

    Sorry, misposted, don't know what I was thinking

  • Icandoallthings
    Icandoallthings Member Posts: 54
    edited September 2017

    I just got done with my post op.

    I have to keep my drains in a few more days ugh!

    My tumor was 8CM... holy cow.

    It spread to my sentinel node as micrometastasis .4mm, and was not in the following 4 nodes he took out.

    Tara17 I have been gene tested, and found a gene of unknown significance... super helpful!


    I guess Im considered stage 3a at this point. mrswrightstartsthefight we might be in the same boat!


  • GreenEyes81
    GreenEyes81 Member Posts: 389
    edited September 2017

    Icandoallthings, I am very sorry to hear this. Is there anything we can do to help? On the slight chance, I am in Montana and traveling to Idaho next week. Not sure if you are near me at all, but if so please let me know. PM me right away. As you are healing would love to bring you and your family dinner. Had a couple ladies come and it was so nice as I was healing from surgery.

  • Icandoallthings
    Icandoallthings Member Posts: 54
    edited October 2017

    greeneyes! You're so sweet! I am in Southern California. A bit far 😊

    I start chemotherapy next Wednesday, I'm doing AC-T.

    I just spoke to my radiology oncologist. I am not eligible for any more radiation, I maxed out last year. So I'm just doing chemotherapy and endocrine therapy. Talking to her was a bit stressful, she basically just use words like aggressive and concerning… Which makes me just kind of feel down about the whole process. I'm worried I'm going to go through chemotherapy once again and it's not going to work.


    Everyone so concerned because of my age and time of re-occurrence. I just feel like the doctors have these numbers stacked against me. I asked for statistics and numbers, but the doctor said but I'm not really on any chart, that they don't see this ever.

  • GreenEyes81
    GreenEyes81 Member Posts: 389
    edited October 2017

    I'm sorry we were not closer! Sending cookies virtually!

    Ya, the statitistics are not the same when looking at the younger group. The 1 in 8 goes out the window. My MO was so happy to tell me my stat for reoccurrence a few weeks ago since it was so low, I looked at him and said, "So I am 3x more likely to have a reocurrance than I was to have breast cancer in the first place?" It made him stop and think....and then slowly shake his head yes. I don't think he had ever thought about it like that.

    One day at a time, keep asking questions. For me, what ever I decide to do long term has to come from knowledge. Knowing will give me the best change to at some point find peace and not look back when an occurance might happen. It's ok to be frustrated, it's ok to cry, it's ok to not have good days and it's ok to need help! Praying you have great support around you!

  • Meow13
    Meow13 Member Posts: 4,859
    edited October 2017

    After my mastectomy the pathology showed normal tissue everwhere except the 2 tumors, one idc and one ilc. Special attention was paid to the tissue inbetween the tumors and nothing. With 95% confidence they believe the 2 were totally separate occurrences. It meant I didn't need a mastectomy I could have easily had 2 lumpectomies but had I not had the mastectomy I would not have known that information. I take comfort in that extra knowledge and no radiation. DIEP fixed me up pretty good overall please with my mastectomy.

  • Tereza_C
    Tereza_C Member Posts: 2
    edited October 2017

    Hello lovely ladies -- so glad to find you. We are all going through similar health challenges and trying to calculate our changes of re-occurrence in our heads.. The terror of the randomness of cancer, and of going through it all over again -- and perhaps in a worse version than before, can be hard to manage. I have not been able to put the stress aside.

    I am new to this. I was diagnosed in May 2017-- by accident, and no family history -- went in for a regular scan -- came out with extensive DCIS on the right breast. Could not avoid mastectomy because it was a 8cm*4cm area (almost the whole lower part of the right breast). Biopsies from mastectomy showed more DCIS on upper right side, behind the nipple too, and a small Invasive Ductal Carcinoma HER2+, fast growing but too small to require chemo. None of the new cancers were identified with the MRIs, mammogram or ultrasound i had prior to the mastectomy. They removed it all they say, and also removed 4 lymph-nodes which were reactive but clear in the end. Last week I had my 3-month MRI scanning also the left side. Naturally I am worried. I have to wait for results next week and a meeting with the doctor on the 18th.

    I am trying to decide --- preventive mastectomy on the left, so I can live in peace? I have two little ones, a 6.5 year old and a 3.5 year old and I do not want to risk any re-occurrence if I can help it.

    The alternative is frequent bilateral MRI scans instead. The NHS (I live in the UK currently) only allows annual MRIs but I would go privately every 3 or 6 months.

    I do not have full faith in the scans as in my case it was the post-mastectomy biopsy that picked up the invasive aggressive cancer. DCIS won't kill you but the invasive HER2 positive, estrogen negative little cancer I had would have needed chemo if it was found a few weeks later than it was found.

    Two questions for you in case you have more knowledge on this:

    - Is it possible for cancer to return to the breast that had the mastectomy (I have implant now)? My doctor says no -- having no breast means cancer does not come back on that side. I know the implant is not the risk, but I am wondering about skin tissue or anything else around it.

    - Is it likely to have no re-occurrence (or independently identified) cancer growing on the other side? DCIS does not travel -- Invasive does, through the blood, through the lymphnodes.. I think the odds are stacked against me getting cancer on the other side. How independent are they?

    Big hugs to all -- we will get through this -- i wish we all had more certainty, on the science, the scans, the rates of progression.. What frustrates me the most is having to deal with probabilities rather than certainties..

    Many thanks -- Tereza


  • GreenEyes81
    GreenEyes81 Member Posts: 389
    edited October 2017

    Hi Tereza, welcome!! Yes, you can still devolpe cancer after a mastectomy. You just reduce how many places it could start in. I am considering haveing my left removed as well just to reduce my risk. To my knowledge there is no way they can remove 100% of the breast tissue. The very small amount left is where it could grow.

    As for the other side.....to my understanding you have the same risk in the left as you did in the right. BUT--having cancer in the right does not increase your risk on the left. Hope that makes sense. As for how much that risk is....depends on a lot of factors. Family history, life style ect.

    Could not agree more with "frustrates me the most is having to deal with probabilities rather than certainties". One day and at time!

  • Tereza_C
    Tereza_C Member Posts: 2
    edited October 2017

    This is very helpful -- thank you -- and it is comforting to know we all go through very similar thoughts -- our lives don't seem as unique once you account for how we all deal with loss, illness, love.. why would cancer be different -- our human condition unites us all :)

    I am a bit of an oddity with the stats. No family history of breast cancer, i am 43, i swim and I am a diver, never smoked, no exposure to drugs, chemicals, tanning, etc, I have always been eating healthy, slim, breastfed two kids 9 months each... You think you do everything right and you will never have to worry about this crap, right? ;) So many of us are in the same boat -- I keep thinking if the right breast had cancer, and of two kinds (DCIS and IDC), and spread out in at least 4 different locations, why would the left not have it, at some point sooner or later? Same body, same use, same diet, same genes. The randomness of cell changes is always unpredictable but the more i think about it, like you, i think preventative surgery is the way to go. Or MRIs every 3 to 6 months -- but they don't identify all the cancer -- in my case, they missed the IDC and a few locations of 3-stage DCIS... There are no perfect solutions yet.

    My doctor was emphatic about there being no need anymore to scan the right side that had the mastectomy and implant. She said, there is nothing there to scan, period. I will take her up on your point -- how much tissue is left behind and what amount of risk that carries.

    In my case they suggested no chemo because DCIS does not need it and the IDC was small. 20% chance of metastasis via the blood stream.. And not much benefit of taking tamoxifen because my IDC was Estrogen negative.. (but my DCIS was estrogen positive). Another confusing diagnosis. One day at a time -- that't right! xxx Thank you!

  • keepthefaith
    keepthefaith Member Posts: 2,156
    edited October 2017

    Tereza, you may want to ask your MO about taking the Onco-test or mamma-print before you decide on chemo, if you are on the fence. I'm not sure how "small" the IDC is and it may be too small to test. Just food for thought. Are you triple negative or do you know?... TN can be aggressive Yes, one day at a time! Best wishes.

  • KBeee
    KBeee Member Posts: 5,109
    edited October 2017

    I just saw this it's. I am sorry you are facing this recurrence so soon. I had a similar situation. I did TC and then did AC -T the second time when I recurredbin 2 places, 14 months after finishing chemo. So far, so good since then. PM me anytime. Thinking of you. I hope you tolerate the AC ok. I did

  • Icandoallthings
    Icandoallthings Member Posts: 54
    edited October 2017

    thank you Kbeee!

    It's so tough to feel like it's not going to work again. I've had so many people ask, why are you doing Chemo again if it didn't work last time?

    :-

  • GreenEyes81
    GreenEyes81 Member Posts: 389
    edited October 2017

    Tereza - I might just add though we are not a 100% on the mastectomy side, I will not be getting any mammograms ect. There is nothing there. lol My surgen said that if anything starts growing you will be able to feel it with your hand. I wouldn't worry about imaging....just stay villigent and self exams.

  • TwoHobbies
    TwoHobbies Member Posts: 2,118
    edited October 2017

    Icando, so sorry about your recurrence. I just wanted to give you some hope. I recurred at two years - as you have learned, kind of a scary statistic. I'll never rest easy, but feeling more confident the longer I am cancer free. I believe that the tamoxifen just didn't work for me, and it seems that ovarian suppression and an aromatase inhibitor is working. I am over four years out now and still good - hope I don't jinx that by saying it out loud.

    Let me know if you need anything.

  • Icandoallthings
    Icandoallthings Member Posts: 54
    edited October 2017

    thank you TwoHobbies!

    Yes the numbers dont look great... but as my doctors have said... those numbers are not for the patient to look at but the doctor in order to plan the best treatment plan. Those numbers dont look at ALL variables, and dont look at general health of the person and fight in them before cancer came in to the picture.


    My God is bigger than cancer, and Im going to kick this with His help :-)

    Glad youre doing well!

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