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Arielyn
Arielyn Member Posts: 14
edited October 2017 in Just Diagnosed

I posted a few weeks back about having to have a stereotactic biopsy and my fears regarding the procedure. I postponed, cancelled and finally convinced my dr. to give me Valium to get through the procedure. My friends, family and coworkers all kept telling me that the odds were in my favor. I guess I never have been one to follow the crowd, and to be honest, I’m feeling a little pissed off about that! Even the radiologist who performed the biopsy said she would be shocked it it came back anything other than perfectly fine. Surprise! When I mentioned that little fact to the patient advocate I spoke with this morning, she reminded me that no one there had a crystal ball. No kidding.

I almost erased that whole first paragraph and started this post again, as it sounds whiny and childish, but I’m giving myself a little leeway today. I’m scared, and my defense mechanism has always been rather confrontational. I need to check that attitude and breathe.....I’m trying, I swear.

So all I’ve been told is that I have been diagnosed with DCIS. I was assured that I would get more information when I see the surgeon on Monday. I also have an MRI on Tuesday that was scheduled when they called with the results, but I’m not sure what an MRI shows that a mammogram doesn’t. That is just one of the dozens of questions I have right now. I’m a researcher by nature and want to google the hell out of the term DCIS, but I am feeling a little burned after having googled “stereotactic biopsy.” I feel like my whole life changed at 8:30 this morning. Before that, I was just a 54 year old woman raging against the machine and getting older. Now, I’m a woman with breast cancer and a hundred questions I never thought would need to be addressed.

Thanks for the opportunity to vent. I’m so scared.

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  • vampeyes
    vampeyes Member Posts: 1,227
    edited October 2017

    Arielyn I am sorry you have found yourself here. {HUGS}

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  • MTwoman
    MTwoman Member Posts: 2,704
    edited October 2017

    Arielyn, I responded to you on another thread, but in case you missed it, there is quite a bit of research you can do right here. If you go to the DCIS forum, there is "A layperson's guide to DCIS" where you can get a good start. That whole forum will most likely be of interest to you.

    Good for you for giving yourself a bit of leeway right now. We all have initial reactions that are not necessarily typical for us and just have to roll with them a bit. Let us know what you need from us, we're here!

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  • Legomaster225
    Legomaster225 Member Posts: 672
    edited October 2017

    Sorry Arielyn, Its ok to express anger, sarcasm, tears... whatever you need to get through this. Your life did just suddenly change. You will feel better once you talk to the surgeon and get a plan in place. You sound like a pretty organized woman. MRI will show more detail and even node status. That will help with a plan forward. I agree with MTwoman. You can get good info here or American Cancer society. That might help you a bit if that knowledge would be comforting. If it will stress you out more then do your best to stay away. It sucks, it's not fair, and yes, your reaction is totally NORMAL.

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