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  • Odalys
    Odalys Member Posts: 2,103
    edited January 2007

    Oh dear Kim, Glad the first treatment was uneventful. You are a true warrior. Sending lots of love and hugs your way. God bless you.

  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited January 2007
    Danise, welcome to our club (the one you never wanted to join.
    I agree with Kim and Margerie about coumadin. I have had my port since Oct of 05 and have never needed to take it. I had chemo from Nov. 9th through May 18th. I'd only need my port flushed when I was on every 3rd week for my treatments. Now I am told to go every 6-8 weeks.

    Granted, I will say the port flushing has never been my favorite activity. I am one of the people who reacts strangely to it, and gets a wacky head rush like I am about to pass out. Then, suddenly, I am fine.

    Just thinking back about the Adrimyacin/Cytoxan (same thing I started on as many of us do) makes me feel icky. However, as you can see, we are all still doing well after going through it. The drugs they give you will help you tremendously.

    I also had to do pre-op chemo. My tumor was somewhere between 7-10 cm. initially. It shrunk to .8mm after having all the chemo they could possibly give my poor body. Pre-op chemo is not such a bad thing when you think about it. That way, you know how well your body responds to the treatment. Also, I liked (in a strange, after the fact way) the fact that I lost my hair right away. Once I started to feel better after chemo was done, I started to look better. Then, my hair came back. By the time I had surgery, I was definitely "bald," but going without my hanky-hats.

    And, Danise, as far as the cardiotoxic character of the drugs, the doctors watch you like a hawk. Any ache and pain you have will be looked into (for quite some time after treatment, too!)

    Where are you in Illinois? I am in Peoria. I am originally from Chicago suburbs. Please PM me if you need too.

    We are all here for you.

    In other news (wow, I am wordy today). My gyno visit was ok. I just had a sebacious cyst. My doc popped it right away and showed it to me! Eew...I asked her about my raging sore throat, and she went to look at it with a tongue depressor (did I spell that right?). When she did, I shrieked and grabbed her wrists! I hate that thing.

    Odalys, your story about Steven cracked me up insanely. Too cute. I miss teaching because I loved the way kids would tell me stories like that.

    Gotta get going to bed. Love and prayers, Deb
    Kim-you sound like you are hanging in there! Fantastic!
  • Odalys
    Odalys Member Posts: 2,103
    edited January 2007
    I know how scary this whole journey is at the beginning. I was terrified of chemo and my terror grew as I learned about all the side effects (SE). However, I decided this was my best chance at beating this beast so I felt the fear and did it anyway.

    As for the drugs...cytoxan was in my cocktail. The doctor and nurses monitored me very well before, during, and after each treatment. All went well. I felt great comfort and piece of mind in knowing the medical team is competent and know their specialty very well. It did not eliminate my fear...just allowed me to give up control and let them take care of me.

    As for the port, I had mine in for almost six months without any complications and no coumadin. I made an agreement with my doctor to only take meds as needed. While on chemo, port was flushed every 3 weeks preceding each treatment for 18 weeks; after chemo, flushed once a month in doctor’s office until it was removed. Although I did not like having a port, I believe it is worth it and would have it put in all over again if needed.

    May God grant you peace of mind and courage to fight this disease and win. Feel free to PM me if any questions.
  • AnnaM
    AnnaM Member Posts: 1,387
    edited January 2007
    Gosh, I have missed coming here these past few days and look at all that's going on!

    Kim, I am glad your first session went well and I am praying that all your sessions will go as smoothly. I totally agree with you about the value of taking your mind to a place you love. I still think about my virtual kitty, the one who helped me through post-surgery sleeplessness and chemo fear. Anyway, I wish you strength and ease for these treatments.

    Danise, I have had my port for 15 months now and yes, I take 1 mg of coumadin every morning. I need my port a little longer since I don't finish my Herceptin treatments till the 15th. My port has been my best friend through this experience and I am very glad I have it. I got Cytoxin along with the Adriamycin, too. Exhausting, but very doable. You'll lose your hair, but you know what, mine is thicker now than it was before. Curlier, too. And it's growing mighty fast.

    I understand that if I decide to keep my port I will need to go and have it flushed once a month. The flushing hasn't bothered me up to now. I was a little scared when I had a very new chemo nurse a while back, but the experienced ones make the whole thing absolutely unnoticeable.

    Debbie, I'm so glad your scare was a false alarm.

    Mary Lou, sorry to hear your mother was in the hospital. Yes, next time you are up here we have to get together. How's the trimming coming along for you? I have put every little pound right back on! Gotta get healthy again. Remember the English toffee that helped me through chemo? Well, our real estate agent sent us another box this year. Yikes, that stuff is yummy!

    Love to all my sisters,

    Anna
  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited January 2007
    Sounds sooo good. We got a box of candy from our neighbors for the Holidays, and I am ready to rip into it and see if there is any toffee in there!

    Anna, I agree about putting the lbs back on! I have put on about 8 pounds (anywhere between 2-9 depending on the day of the month) since tx. ended. I am almost happy about it, as I didn't like the "chemo diet" all that well. I have to watch myself though, because I bought all new "skinny clothes" after dropping so much weight initially, and I got rid of the old clothes. I gain too much and I have to wear my jammies during the day!

    I got a clear bill of health from my PS today! No infection is present!

    Kim-the countdown continues! How tight is tight for the mask?

    I'd better go-we got back late from PS and Daniel just went down for a nap at 3pm. Usually he wakes from his nap around 3:30, so I don't know how much time I have!

    Love and prayers, Deb
  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited January 2007
    Hee hee.....I totally have been eating from that candy box for the last day. I also found a carton of eggnog that we never opened, and it is still good, so I chugged that down last night (not the whole thing, thankfully....).

    Gotta get going, someone from church is bringing is dinner, and I don't want to be sitting on the computer when she gets here! I should at least get up and say hi!

    Love and prayers, Deb
  • kim825
    kim825 Member Posts: 284
    edited January 2007
    Sounds yummy Deb. The mask is around my face and buckled down to the table on both sides. So it feels like everything is pushed back and down. It is not comfortable. I keep my eyes closed and just keep waiting to hear the zap go off. I just wish I wasn't leaning on the mass because that makes it hurt more. BUT 2 down and 8 to go.
    Enjoy dinner.
  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited January 2007
    Kim, you are getting there....it's a slow road, but you are GETTING THERE! I'm really proud of you. I bet all of your sisters here are.

    Time for bed! Love and prayers, Deb
  • Margerie
    Margerie Member Posts: 526
    edited January 2007
    Kim after this week- only 3 to go right?

    I hope it goes by fast for you!

    My sister made THE BEST toffee this holiday (with nuts and choc chips) and she should be emailing the recipe soon. I will post it here when she does. It was so good, my 5 yo put some in a zip loc baggie and hid it under his pillow!
  • AnnaM
    AnnaM Member Posts: 1,387
    edited January 2007
    Kim, I am concentrating on you and picturing you healthy and strong.

    Toffee recipes? Did you say toffee? That yummy delight I can't keep away from? That deliciously fattening concoction that we got three, repeat, THREE boxes of for the holiday? Help!

    I had my next-to-last Herceptin treatment today. Everyone asks me if I am going to celebrate. Why do I want to cry instead? I already miss my chemo nurses!

    We will get through this. We can get through anything, right?

    Love, Anna
  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited January 2007
    Wow, Anna! That is a major milestone for you! You should do some big celebration. You made it. YOU MADE IT!

    Wait, I'm trying to jog my foggy memory....Marg, you finished already, right? Odalys....I can't remember....Ugh, chemo brain is still raging in me.

    Of course you want to cry, my dear sister Anna...we grow so close to our nurses/medical family during all of this. I am sending my rads nurse a baby gift because I found out she was pregnant. They really do become our family, and share every victory and tear of our lives with us.

    Oh, how I will celebrate with joy when everyone in our little group is done with all of the "stuff" breast cancer does to us. The surgeries, the treatment, the radiation, the after-treatment, the cosmetic surgery.....the constant monitoring of our diet (well, at least the constant guilt if anything naughty goes into my mouth).

    I want us to say that while this is in the past, we have continued on in living. Yes, this experience has changed us and molded us into different beings, but we will never be "free" of cancer, will we? It is always going to lurk.

    It's tough to move past that......at least for me.....
    However, I know that you all will be by my side and carry me along. You've gotten me this far, and I hope I can help carry some burdens for you, my dearest sisters!
    Love and prayers, Deb
  • kim825
    kim825 Member Posts: 284
    edited January 2007
    Anna, that is so wonderful about your next to last treatment. I can understand you wanting to cry. It is emotional.
    The toffee sounds delicious.
    Today's treatment went well. Amazing that everything set up perfectly on the first time and it was done w/in 10 minutes. I was so grateful. I told the radiologist that I hope it goes this way the rest of the week. It just happened to set up and it went fast. Yeah!! This week and then 3 more. I can't believe how much I've blown up from the decadron. My face, cheeks, neck, chin is so bloated. I must have put on 30lbs since Thanksgiving. It is making me so depressed looking at myself in the mirror. I think this is what is bothering me also. They are supposed to cut back on the decadron soon, so hopefully the swelling starts to go down.
  • Margerie
    Margerie Member Posts: 526
    edited January 2007
    I have my last herceptin tomorrow to tally up one year!!!!

    But don't congratulate me yet! I am crazy and am going for 2 years. I even got a port placed in my upper arm (love this little port- called P.A.S. port- it is small, "slick" as my surgeon says, and very esthetic) to cement the deal. I went this whole year without one and my veins just crapped out. So there was no way I could continue herceptin for another year without it. Anyway, if my heart holds up- it will be next Jan. that I will cry and celebrate! Good luck Anna- it will be happy tears for you!

    I surprised myself and cried the last day of rads- it's like going off on your own to college- you are excited to be free, but scared to leave your care and protection at the same time!

    My bad news- I have a hernia- can you believe it? Good news is it is tiny, not painful. I started freakin' thinking I would need ANOTHER surgery (it is outpatient and very easy to repair them these days) because i will have had 5 surgeries in the last 15 months after my second phase of reconstruction. I heard today that my general surgeon is again going up to San Francisco to do the hernia repair while I am getting my stage 2 reconstruction done. He already went up there (4 hours away) in September to do my prophylactic mastectomy. He is such a great man- can't seem to do a surgery without him! But I would have had to have 9 surgeries instead of the 5 if he wasn't so flexible and willing to team up with my other docs.

    I mean how do I thank someone for that? I already made him a cocomut cake, goodies and a thank you card. He justs laughs and says "Don't you think I'm fat enough already?" His receptionist says he likes a change of pace- I guess it is an adventure operating in a big city hospital.

    Anyway, my surgery got moved to Feb. 9th. I am not surprised about the hernia- I have horrible abs, had flapsurgery, my last baby was 10+ pounds (can you say stretch out those rectus abdominus, and I am allergic to sit ups. It was lifting the 25 pound turkey into the oven at Thanksgiving- I am sure of it!

    Kim, Deb, Odalys, Mary, Lat56 and Kay- hope your burdens get smaller and your joy bigger!

    Love,

    Margerie
  • Odalys
    Odalys Member Posts: 2,103
    edited January 2007
    All this talk about toffee is making me want to try some...Mmmm.

    Kim- I also hated how bloated I got with the decadron. The good news is that it all goes away soon after you stop taking it. I'll continue to pray all goes well and you finish soon.

    Deb - yes, I finished chemo in March and RADS in May. I still go in to the chemo treatment area once a month for the Zoladex implant and I'll be taking Femara (aromatase inhibitor)for 5 years (wow 2011). Compared to chemo, this is a walk in the park now that the body has adjusted to the low hormone levels.

    Okay at the risk of sounding uncaring, I'll admit I was thrilled to finish chemo and rads and don't miss the nurses at all. I just want to put it all behind me. As a matter of fact, I got a call last week from the rads center asking me to come back for a follow up. Oops...I forgot to return for my 6 month check up.

    I'm worried about Kaye. It's been a while since she dropped by. Her blog has not been updated since August. I hope she hasn't lost the battle.

    Got to go now. I took an Ambien, hoping to get a full night sleep, and it's starting to take effect. Also, the alarm will go off brfore I know it.

    Love and hugs to all my courageous and beautiful sisters. God blessings.
  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited January 2007
    Oh man, I am worried about Kaye too. ML said she hasn't heard from her for a long time. I wish there was some other way we could know.
    I just don't even know what to say about that. It scares me that this lousy disease may have won the battle with her already.

    Time for bed and ambien.
    Love and prayers, Deb
  • kim825
    kim825 Member Posts: 284
    edited January 2007

    4 down and 6 to go!!

  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited January 2007

    YES!!!!! Halfway point is on it's way! Deb

  • Mary-Lou
    Mary-Lou Member Posts: 2,230
    edited January 2007
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    Here is the newest picture of Sebastian. I finally got one picture with his eyes open!

    I will post later after I have a chance to catch up .You all have been busy.

    I did see some posting about weight gain, LOL.

    I weighed in last night after two weeks . My meetings are on Mondays. Christmas and New Years Eve took them both, so last night was pay the piper.

    I did lose 2.2 and I'm at 212 now. I was at 203 before the holidays hit at Thanksgiving.

    I just had a great holiday and got back to work after it was over. Last year was treatments, so I allowed myself to indulge. And it was soooooo good!

    I know what to do, so it's all good.

    I miss my dear sisters.

    ML
  • Odalys
    Odalys Member Posts: 2,103
    edited January 2007
    Alright Kim...you go girl...half way there...soon you will be done.

    ML - I totally understand why you've been away. He is a d o r a b l e!!!!!! Are you baby sitting often?
  • kim825
    kim825 Member Posts: 284
    edited January 2007
    YES, HALFWAY DONE!!! I can do this. LOL!! Thanks for all the support.
    ML, so so cute!
  • Margerie
    Margerie Member Posts: 526
    edited January 2007
    Yeah Kim! I was thinking about you today! Now you can count 'em on one hand!

    Hang in there,

    Love,

    Margerie
  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited January 2007
    EXCELLENT, KIM!!! You are so strong. I can't wait to meet you someday, along with all of our sisters who keep me inspired.

    ML-what a sweetpea! I want another baby.....
    Love and prayers, Deb
    PS-my baby (ok, boy) fell out of his big boy bed today at naptime and looked at me with a stunned expression and said, "Uh-oh." Then he burst into tears. I giggled at the uh-oh and then wanted to cry right alongside him!
  • Odalys
    Odalys Member Posts: 2,103
    edited January 2007
    Deb - I smiled reading your post. It reminded me of the one time Steven rolled out of bed, landed on his belly and kept sleeping. Talk about a deep sleep! We ended up putting his bed in a corner of the room with one side against the wall and bed rails on the other. Ahhhhhh, I miss the toddler years!
  • LAT56
    LAT56 Member Posts: 79
    edited January 2007
    WOW!! Lots to catch up on!!
    I've been away due to computer problems but all of you have been in my thoughts & prayers!!
    LAT56
  • kim825
    kim825 Member Posts: 284
    edited January 2007
    Yes, down to one hand. Set up seems to go faster but these machines are so tempermental. LOL!! We were back up about 1/2 hour today!
    Going out to lunch with the girls today.
    Glad Daniel is ok. Isn't it funny how we laugh at the expense of our kids. Yeah, then we cry with them. Gotta love it.
  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited January 2007
    Hi ladies! I had to go to the hospital to pick up some records today, so we stopped to see my rads staff. It was so good to see them, and they were all so excited to see Daniel they gave him packs of stickers and filled his hands with candy. He wasn't sure about where he was at first and played "shy," but pretty soon he was dancing around in circles like he did back in the summer.

    The best part was that there was a lady there who I had met a year ago in the "Look Good Feel Better" class. She was the one who referred me to the place to get my head shaved. She looked so fantastic (she started her rads last week). It was just really good to see that someone that went through chemo the same time as me looks so normal. Does that make sense? It assures me that maybe, I, too, look normal?

    Anyway, better go and take advantage of Daniel being asleep (he didn't fall out of bed today, but he did smuggle some Nerds candy in with him. Stinker!).

    Love and prayers, Deb
  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited January 2007
    OOPS-forgot to say, YAY KIM!!!!!
    How are you feeling, anyway?
  • Odalys
    Odalys Member Posts: 2,103
    edited January 2007

    Kim - almost done, just a few more days. Glad to hear you have energy to go out to lunch with the girls. How are you holding up? Any SE's?

  • kim825
    kim825 Member Posts: 284
    edited January 2007
    Amazing what candy can do for a kid. LOL!!

    I am just very tired. (which isn't unusual LOL). Went to lunch yesterday and came home with Sami and crashed until it was time to pick up the boys. I am so happy it is Friday. The rads staff always has "breakfast" on Friday for the patients. It is a nice way to end the week.

    Hope you all have a great weekend.

    Kim
  • AnnaM
    AnnaM Member Posts: 1,387
    edited January 2007
    Kim, you sound strong and determined. You are more than half way there now. I hope you have a wonderful weekend!

    Margerie, I kind of wish I could have a second year of Herceptin. It'll be hard not doing anything. I've been actively fighting for 18 months. Now what?

    Sebastian is such a cutey. I'm with you Mary Lou, we can get it all back off.

    I wish all of you a peaceful, wonderful weekend.

    Love, Anna

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