Told I have Breast Cancer- waiting for biopsy pathology report

I found a spot on my left breast and I knew it could possibly be concerning. I had to wait two months to get into my OB/GYN. In that time I felt a growing and it's also been pretty painful. I then was referred to Solis for a ultrasound. When I got there they wanted to do a mammogram diagnostic. I went to the motions like nothing was wrong and then when the radiologist came in he point-blank told me you have what looks to be clusters of tumors growing in your left breast and your lymph nodes look swollen. I am sure this is related to what's going on in the breast. we needed to biopsy what he is very concerned as malignancy. I didn't really know what to ask but I was able to mumble out one question 'why are we biopsying? Are we biopsying because it's just the next thing to do at this point?'

He replied 'I am sure this is breast cancer I need to get this biopsy to soon as possible so we can find out what kind and get you in the best course for treatment.'

All I could think was that I was only 31 years old and I didn't know how this happened. I have two small children, 3 and 1.

When I got home I went to the motions but I ended up getting pretty upset later that night. I called the office back and ask them to read my results again. I spoke with the radiologist assistant and she read the findings and she told me he is a highly accredited radiologist who has over 20 years experience and he has a mentor for other radiologists. He also fellowship at the Susan B Komen breast center in Dallas.

She also told me he would not even remotely say that it is breast cancer if he wasn't for sure based on his findings. I've been called to move up my biopsy because he wanted my biopsy done as soon as possible and they put me in within two days I called the next day and asked if I could come in that day and they did. There was my shot that was my chance to talk to him again and get all these questions out that I have been asking myself.

When I saw him again he then confirmed that he is been doing this for a long time and you sure this is breast cancer he did say that it is not diagnosed until the biopsy comes back but he is pretty sure he knows what the biopsy will read. I asked for an educated guess of what type and he said IDC. He also believes that it is in my lymph nodes.

I have second-guessed of this doctor twice now and every time I have gone back to get additional information they have just been more than wonderful giving me that information and confirming what they say. I don't have the best support system around me because I live so far away from my family and my in-laws love me but my 3 of my sister-in-law hate me, mainly for my relationship with their parents. And now it is actually been said that I am lying about this and I'm using it as a ploy to get more attention. I don't know how anybody can be so hateful to someone when they're going through such an emotional roller coaster. I know that I don't have the full diagnosis until Monday but if the doctor was willing to give and had to get a guess of where he thinks this will fall on the type, how could he possibly be wrong about just claiming breast cancer? I have read other posts about the same situation with the radiologist told you this is cancer we need to biopsy to find out what kind and get the treatment going. So I am not trying to second-guess my doctor again since I already have done so and he is been more than happy to explain everything to me. I am just going crazy inside my head trying to figure out what is the next steps and what I am supposed to do. It is hard to function on a day-to-day basis well you have this looming over you. Not to mention the multiple biopsies but he pulled out yesterday have basically crippled my left side. That was incredibly painful he said that the tumors are on the nerves and that it was going to cause some discomfort.

I guess I am just nervous as to what lies ahead of me. I am a working mom I am a busybody and I am always on the go taking care of the house, the kids, and everything that surrounds it. I am not sure how this is going to affect my every day life or if this is just going to knock me back to give me that realization that I cannot do everything. Before my youngest daughter was born, I was pregnant with another daughter and I had lost her due to genetic disorder. That was one of the hardest things I had to go through. Prior to that my husband was in a coma, and I had lost my mother. I just don't see why every year for the past five years I keep having a very large dramatic life changing experience. I know God only gives those to his strongest soldiers, but I just don't understand why I am looked as being the strong.