Waiting for biopsy results

where to start? I was adopted and 2 or 3 years ago I found a half sister who is almost 22 years younger than me ( I'm 42 in august) she told me about the horrific number of our paternal relatives who had passed away from breast and ovarian cancer and a few who had survived or were fighting cancer at that time.

At the time my now 8 year old was having genetic testing with the 100,000 genomes project as he has severe genetic issues and is severely disabled.

They talked to me about family medical history and offered to test me for the ovarian and breast cancer genes.

Unfortunately we won't get any results back until the project is completed , which could be years and in the mean time I just did self checks every 4 weeks.

Almost 10 weeks ago I discovered my husband was having an affair with a work colleague and my world collapsed. I threw him out the day I found out.

I lost a lot of weight and felt very unwell but put it down to stress, my breast checks went out of the window because I was extremely depressed and I also have a ten year old son with hemiplegia cerebral palsy.

I have a lot on my plate and just didn't think.

Three weeks ago I was in the shower and I felt a very hard, immobile lump on my left breast . Just about an inch above the nipple slightly to the left.

I went to my GP the next day who referred me to the breast clinic and I was seen within two weeks ( a week tomorrow) I saw the consultant breast specialist who was very rude and roughly examined me.

I was on my period and my breasts literally grow a cup size during menstruation.

He said it was just glandular tissue but said I should have a mammogram and ultrasound because of my family history.

Both showed a mass of irregular shape and I had a fine needle biopsy.

The radiographer said she was concerned because the fluid and cells she retrieved were red and the lump was very firm and immobile.

She said it was definitely not a cyst and I needed to see this very rude doctor again.

He told me it was nothing and I shouldn't worry myself but he would send me a letter within another two weeks to come back in and discuss the results.

I know several woman who have been to this breast clinic , including my mother in law and all were told they had cysts or some other issues that were harmless and needed no treatment on the same day.

They only saw the Dr once also.

I also know two women who were told to come back and they both had BC.

The receptionist told me on the way out that if the biopsy came up clear they would ring me by tomorrow and I wouldn't likely need to come in but if I needed treatment they would write to me .

Now my newly found aunt who has BC at the moment ( reaccuring ) told me blood is a very bad sign from a fine needle biopsy ( she's a nurse ) and basically any colour is ok apart from shades of red or pink.

Is this true ?

Also since the biopsy I've been have nasty sharp stabbing pains where my lump is, like being stabbed with a hot needle and it's at random times not just when I'm being active .

I've also had an annoying dry cough for about three months and all kinds of things are going through my mind.

I was diagnosed with a kidney infection on Monday also. So I'm just generally run down .

I'm so tired and just feel awful right now.

I'm trying not to google but it is so hard not too.

Has anyone experienced this and not had BC?

Thanks for reading my post, I'm not one for groups or forums and find it difficult to share private things.

I'm a full time carer to both of my boys , who are only young.

My 8 year old can't speak, has epilepsy also and is so unwell we almost lost him several times last year, he is in nappies still and needs 24/7 care. He is cognitively like a baby less than one year old.

I just can't get sick. Those boys rely on me for everything and now I'm on my own with them.

I'm not worried for myself but I just don't know how I'd get through this with two children with special needs and a selfish , useless husband