ALl ALONE

when my significant other found out I had breast cancer he kicked me out. In 2005 I was diagnosed with cervical cancer and had a partial hysterectomy. In 2006 I was diagnosed with breast cancer in my right breast. I was diagnosed with infiltrating ductal carcinoma with ductal carcinoma situ measuring 1.1 and .3cm. I had a lumpectomy followed by chemo and radiation. During my chemo treatments my brother passed away from a heart attack. Since I lived out of state I could not go to the funeral. In 2009 I was diagnosed with the same cancer in my left breast. Once again I went through chemo which almost killed me and ended up in intensive care for two weeks with colitis. So they had to stop the chemo. While I was going through breast cancer for the second time my mother passed away from cancer the same month and year. Breast cancer does not run in my family but I did have generic testing done and I tested for the BRIP1 Gene. Which is high cancer risk for ovarian cancer and breast cancer. I had my ovaries removed two years ago because I had a had half tumor and half sis on my ovary. Thank God it wasn't cancerous. If someone would've told me that the first mammogram I had would show cancer, I would've told them they were nuts. Due to all the chemo i has destroyed my immune system, now I live with. C-DIFF, coltois, psoriasis. I have so many health problems. And now I'm having pain in my breast under my arms and I have a lump in my arm. I've been putting it off but I have a doctors appointment tomorrow. Wish me luck for I have given up.