The Hermit Club

Happy Mothers DAy....!!!!

Mommy- I heard it was very hot back there. Crazy for May. Meanwhile we have another blast of winter here in mid to late May with snow in the mountains. I just went outside and it is "brrr" outside. Crazy weather!

We're also back to cooler days!

*Good Morning Hermits*

Daughter and I enjoyed seeing in the movie theater..................

Alien: Covenant (2017)

Jazzy, maybe Daughter and I on June 9th going to see in the movie theater........................

The Mummy: (2017)

Teka- there is a mummy movie too? Love all things Egyptian (and have been to Egypt too)......

I just wanted to say hey! I'm in the All I Want Is To Cocoon phase and I'm trying not to feel guilty. I turn down social opportunities daily. This is always how I process things...it's just taking a lot longer than it usually does...and people are getting worried. The anxiety is overwhelming sometimes.

It's just good to know there are others dealing with the same thing

Hey Jazzygirl; thank you for your response!

I'm just overwhelmed. Two years ago my apartment burned down while I was in the ER with a blood clot in my lung and when that was dealt with I took a deep breath and moved on...and now this. It just currently feels like there will always be Something Worse around the corner. I'm also trying to finish up my PhD and the side effects of the AIs are just kicking my butt in ways I didn't expect.

I feel changed. I used to be so social and out-going and I just can't bear the thought of taking a deep breath, lifting myself up, getting myself back into a social routine and then being beaten down again. It seems easier to just duck my head and get through my degree.

I'm just thankful there is a place to talk about this. Thank you all for being such wonderful and resourceful people. It's a game-changer to find a place like BCO and to feel less alone.

~glow

Glow- the AIs are really tough on a person. I have been on them about 4 plus years and the first six months were the worst. You can request to take a vacation from them and then go back on them. It really helped me. I learned that from some women here on one of the AI threads and told my MO I would not make it through based on what was happening. I asked about the mini vacation and he said we could do that. I went off them for a month, back on and it was better. You can also ask your MO to change the AI to see if you can tolerate a different one. I started on arimidex but he moved to to the genetic of aromosin last year.

Because you are younger, no doubt you get some pressure to be more social. I was always out in my 20s, here in my late 50s, not as much and selective about when I do go out. I remember all my friends traveling and partying in my 20s too while I was working hard on a Master's degree. You have a plan for yourself, don't feel afraid to stick to that despite all this other stuff.....

What are you getting your PhD in? Maybe that is all you need to focus on right now. Besides, it's too "peoply" out there sometimes.....

glowgene, Hi and Welcome!!

Mags, a good one. ;o))

Hey Mags- I love that! I hope you are doing okay sister?

Flower du jour from my neighbors blooming bird of paradise bush. Not in my yard, but this flower was creeping over the wall and the morning sun on it caught my eye

Hi Glowgene:

Hugs to you. I was finishing up my PhD first time I had BC.

I too do not go out much now. I am truly a hermit. I get the overwhelming anxiety. Its brutal. This is a wonderful thread for positive, warm support. The ladies here are amazing.

wallan

Hey Jazzy!

Tonight I commented to DH that this whole cancer thing is really hard. I said, at least you can go in another room and close the door. He said that I could do that too. I sai, maybe, but wherever I go, it goes along with me. I envy those that still have things to do, and are able to do them. My world gets smaller and smaller, though it's sometimes by choice.

Glow,

you are very welcome. I have been stalled in the process of getting my Bachelor's in History due to things other than my health. Hoping that someday I can get back to it and finish it.

Good morning friends- we have some smart ladies on this thread!

Mags- it is hard for anyone to understand this crap and I especially know that is true for you with the reoccurrence (Wallen too). I try not to let it define me, but there are times I put barriers around my own life because of my own "what ifs" including with my work, relationships, etc. I still have a smaller community of people who know, the only new people I have told have been others with any kind of cancer dx. People can make you feel SO MUCH WORSE about this stuff. I rarely talk about my cancer history even with those who know, because of the things people say that just still upset me. Get over it, you are done with that, etc. Everyone else can leave the room, change the conversation, but it is with us always.

Mommy- I remember you were taking classes and that you were maybe going to apply for a degree? Still hoping to do that? I think I remember you said you needed to take a break. I hope you can get back to it when you are ready?

Wallen- you have a good boss who was able to hear what was going on and reassure you about your work. I kept my dx so private because of self employment, but also the client site I was working at during the time of dx and treatment (a healthcare delivery system) is not a place to share things unless you want everyone to know. You don't expect that from such a place, but there were some people on that project that would have used that against me if they knew. I had also observed my client there with others and although she has empathy for some situations, it is conditional and observed the way she treated some others during their health problems. No need to disclose so I never did! Ain't nobody's business but my own.....

Hoping everyone is having a good start to this week. Anyone have any nice plans for the long weekend? Even if just being home and enjoying your own cookout?

After weeks of trying I finally got through to the hospital dept to find out where I am on the recon waiting list.........another 4 years to wait..............I really feel like I am drowning in all this, I cannot spend another 4 years like this...............................