Single life after a mastectomy

Thanks Jazzy. Right now I'm waiting for my ps to call me back. Noticed the red though not as dark as the left has migrated some to the right and a bit on the right one now is feeling a little angry from time to time. Wasn't there yesterday and it's now warm too. Temp highest was 100.8 and seems to go between 100.3 and that for the past 3 hours I've been checking. Chest feels kind of heavy though I can breathe fine. Feel headachey and very slightly dizzy from time to time. If he wants to admit me, no can do until I get my guinea pig an hour away each way to her vet to board her so they can administer her abx 2 x a day. They open at 8 am. Wish ps would call already. 1.5 hours now... I'll probably pack Mooshy's bag tonight or early in the am because I really don't think oral abx even 2 strong ones are going to do it. It couldn't just be one of us of course.

I can't leave my pet who is on antibiotics. Soonest would be tomorrow am when I could get her to her vet to be boarded. I don't have help and my 1 friend here wouldn't know how to syringe her abx as she is wiggly. Took me awhile to figure it. Like I said, it had to be both of us at once. 100.6 seems to be the average lately, not higher than 100.8. Feely a bit crappy but hanging in. 2 hours since I put the call in. He's on call tonight. sigh. Wish he'd call already. Thanks for listening. I just can't leave my pet hanging unless the bit of chest tightness gets worse and no choice or fever.

Here's a couple of pics of my bff (best fuzzy friend)-

You are so sweet Jazzy. Thank you. It's 1:30 am here in Ca. Only 7 hours to go until the surg office opens. He did call me apologising cuz he was in sx. Took 2 hours to get back to me. Sounds likely I'm going to be admitted. So I'll be packing mine and Mooshy's bag before 8:30 when I go in to his office. If it's a go, come home grab Mooshy and off to S. San Jose I go (from N. Fremont) in traffic madness. I already told him no ER unless I can't breathe. I have my own little pet pt I need to get set up before I go in and the vet opens at 8 am. Looks to be spilling off to the right and even higher up but as long as I'm not burning up or difficulty breathing, not going anywhere tonight.

I have a shitty phone so I won't be able to update once I go in to hospital. If I'm just sent home, I'll post. If no update then I'm admitted. Starts at 3 days min. Thanks again for the support. xxx

Artista- glad you heard back and are going in to get taken care of. I hope your pet is better soon too, going to have good care at the vet while you get better too. We know you won't be updating us from the hospital but hope to see you here again soon.

Simplicity- sorry you are frustrated and tired. I was feeling like that yesterday and took a break to do something for myself. It helped. I hope you can do the same thing for yourself. Even if it is picking up something good to bring home for dinner, a hot bath (or shower), to bed early, etc.

I am on quite the adventure with this old BF right now and will update on that soon......

Artista- I am glad you are doing okay. I live alone but don't have pets due to allergies, but know it is hard to arrange care. Have you thought about getting a pet sitter?

Artista- we had a guinea pig when I was growing up, but she lived outside in a hutch with our rabbits so never had to deal with the mess. They were all quite a messy bunch, I remember that with my chores with "hutch maintenance".

Animals are wonderful companions though. Glad you have this little cutie for company.

Sounds like fun, Jazzy!

Well. An hour before my appt felt a bit of fluid under said foob. It wasn't sweat. So I went in early. Would rather sit there nervously than at home.

Turns out there is a tiny hole the size of a pin hole on my suture where a bit of fluid seeps out. I'm to keep on abx, keep area clean, use neosporin and keep covered with gauze. Follow up Thurs 9:15 am to determine if hole closed then cool, am to do more abx. But if not, implant will have to come out. I forgot to ask him chances of it closing on it's own in under 2 days..

At least this time I have time to figure things out. Last infection it was go to hospital now. Now I have my guinea pig who is on abx 2 x a day as well. Called her vet and ok to take her tomorrow to be boarded. They'll take care of her and give her meds. If sx is a go on Thurs, won't and don't want to scramble to get her an hour away and back and rush. If I'm lucky and no sx on Thurs then I'll go after my appt to pick her up. My friend Anna is able to drive me and I can stay at her place until I'm well enough to climb these steep steps to even get in my place. Thank God the weather will be cooler on Thurs and on. It's too hot, making me feel worse.

What I hope to do, if insurance pays for it which according to the bc fed law, they should (?) is to pull out the right one too. This one I'm not happy with. It needs adjusting. We were talking symmetry sx on this one. It's a bit too far right and lower than the left. So if one is going I hope both can go for symmetry sake most of all. Summer is here in CA and I don't want left flat and right size C cup. It's always 6 mo wait before he does another sx, so I figure Nov is the soonest I can them back in. What a major depressing pain in the ass. I've always had complications of some sort from day 1. What are the chances of getting infected 5 mo out from perm implant sx??? jeebus.

Thanks for asking Jazzy. You're sweet. I'll try to remember to take my laptop. If not and I'm MIA on Friday then you'll know I had sx and am at friends without my laptop.

E- I made this today. Bought the planter pot a few weeks ago, found the succulents today for it.

Artista- plenty of sisters here who went through that. I know they will pop in soon to share their experiences!

Artista- if you cannot find a thread, good idea to start a thread to share info. I started a Prolia thread for women getting the shots for bone health. I started a few years ago, probably less of us then and more women now. Anyone can start a thread!

Artista, thinking of you this morning. Some of mine began as small pin holes. Hope it's a different outcome for you. I do not have implants thou. I had DIEP/TRAM.

Camping this weekend for my DD's 19th at her request. I cannot wait. I need river time. It's been 2 summers since I have been able to camp.

I am still not done I had awful healing issues. The last abscess was medically repaired and did well thou.

It's okay No more holes in me! Well, except the normal ones lol

No. Can only have DIEP/TRAM once in your life & Im not a candidate for implants. Too much radiation damage. I have belly boobs! Left needs work and right armpit, and abdomen from dehiscence is still an issue.

And here we go! Keep forgetting momma is coming to town to visit her fam 30 min away. Keeps me feeling at peace, forgetting it.. I already emailed her I need to be left alone, anxiety, etc. The same thing I type every time she's coming. But she has to try, and to use a bit of a guilt trip too. She's good at that. At least this time she's not typing I could be dead tomorrow or something to guilt me.. Not going to respond to this nor the one she sent a couple days ago asking me if I want anything from Seattle, and she doesn't mean she'll mail it to me.... She knows but seems has to go through the routine though hoping this will be the day. As I've said above, I plan on xmas to do lunch or dinner with her and my bro with my friend Anna (as my support walls) for a couple hours unless something happens to me. Of course I don't say that now as she'll take it as 100%.

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Life is short!

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She doesn't know I have cancer, but she probably would say this. Has before in the past. She has DCIS and had lumpectomy and rads so I'm now taking it as she's fearing for her own life. She doesn't know I have bc and I don't know she has DCIS. She didn't want to tell me due to my anxiety stuff. Bro told me in Dec after her sx was success. Not sure he would have had it not been DCIS.. Funny how our fam works, huh.